Fandom Harry Potter Role play

[tuttiteia]

I bowed as the rest. Feeling like time was standing still. You looked amazing, and well I could see you were your father's daughter.
Felt chills up my arms as I was looking at the Dark Lord. It was scaring that this was real, he was real.
Devoured the impressions around me. Studied the people who passed by, trying to guess who they all were.
I felt so small in this community, so worthless, so insignificant. Trying to greet some of them. Wanted so badly to fit in.

It wasn't a big party, but big enough. I had never really been to any rich person's party in the muggleworld either.
My mum worked as a bank executive officer, had a lot of important colleages and clients. Many of they were rich, so she went to some parties once in a while. But it wasn't a kind of party where you brought a partner or your family, so I had never been. It was work, and only work related.

Standing here, watching the whole. I hadn't seen my grandfather yet, but I wasn't searching that hard.
I was too caught up with everything else that was happening, and all the other people that I recognized.
Didn't want you to introduce me to my grandfather yet. Wanting him so me on the sidelines a bith, getting his own impression without knowing who I was. Or maybe he would see the similarity I had to my parents. But also, I didn't think he would believe his eyes if he understood who I was.
Neither me or any of my siblings had ever met them, so it would be hard for them to see who I was.
I took a deep breath, starting having a conversation with some strangers. They let me gladly into their conversation, and was asking me about Hogwarts. Telling them that I was a Slytherin and they reminisced about their time at Hogwarts so long ago. It was a pleasant chat.

 

[Dark lord steel]

Malfoy approached us and bowed deeply again in our presence. Not that it was required here, but it was formality, especially as Malfoy wasn't an adult.

"My Lord and Lady."He said in a silken tone. We both raised inquiring eyebrows.

"Yes Malfoy?" I asked politely, and he looked towards me with a dip of the head.

"It is my regret to inform you that Severus is missing. Apparently he has not been seen leaving, but he cannot be found here."

The dark lord frowned slightly as he mulled over Malfoys words.

"Thank you for bringing this to my attention Malfoy."

He said as Malfoy bowed once more, claiming it was a pleasure before disappearing back into the crowd as I spotted your grandfather, talking to the Dark Lord is small, quiet tones that implied our conversation was not to be interrupted as we meandered along.

 

[tuttiteia]

I felt quite lost and alone.
After talking with a few people I ended up sitting at one of the tables alone.
Sipping some wine.

 

[Dark lord steel]

Malfoy sits next to you.

"How are you finding it?" He asked quietly, as many people started to sit down, chatting on the tables. The dark Lord sat on a dais, an elegantly carved throne under him, although this one was far more designed to impress rather than intimidate, unlike it's match. I sat to his direct right, my dark purple dress now matching the very edge of the sky, and we were each brought fresh glasses of wine as he rose to begin his speech. I watched him carefully, noting how different people perked up at different bits, all hearing something important to them. Although my father may not have been the best diplomat, putting it lightly, he certainly knew how to motivate people to his cause.

Cheers and applause rose from the tables as he finished, a toast rising in our name. He slowly walked over to the dais in front of me, clicking together our glasses of wine, sipping it before putting it down. He bent his head slightly as he offered my his arm to dance, and my skirts swayed as we moved down the small elevated platform together, taking the first steps into the dance as some instrumental music began playing. After giving us the first dance, others started to move off the tables to join in.

 

[tuttiteia]

I sipped some more wine and took some appetizers, that was on every table.
"Weird to see how nice everyone acts.
Seems like there are no problems in the world and that they haven't done anything bad in their whole life.
Looks like a show, talking about how their family is and reminiscing back to their days at Hogwarts."
I putted my thigh over the other, as I still was sitting on the chair.
"But it's nice, rather enjoyable."

 

[Dark lord steel]

He nodded, signing you you to be quiet as the dark lord rose and gave his speech, before we danced in front of everyone. I was now extremely grateful for such lessons as we spun around, starting off slowly but gradually getting faster, and as the song hit the final note he spun me around quickly, ending with us standing close to each other, the tables applauding our show. We both smiled and soon others started to join us.

 

[tuttiteia]

Don't know why I felt so grumpy. You looked very smitten by your father, almost enchanted by him.
If I didn't knew who you guys were, and you were dancing like that. Well, I would have thought at once that you were a love-struck couple.
"May I sit down here?" A deep voice asked me and Malfoy. I had been too busy watching you and your father to realise that someone else was coming over to us. I looked up to see his face, kind but serious and scaring. My grandfather.
Getting a slightly voice crack as I answered. "Yes, of course." I was close to stand up in politeness, but I got myself to sit down before I did it.
"Nice of you young gentlemen. Nice to see you Malfoy, how's your father? Haven't had the time to chat with him yet." As he sat down he started to put a napkin over his lap, carefully and proper. "Haven't seen you around before. Your first garden party?" Looking at me while asking this. He took a appetizer, eating it in small bites. I cleared my throat, feeling like I was in some kind of shock.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I smiled gently as we began another dance, and out the corner of my eye I saw you meet your grandfather. I laughed softly as he whispered in my ear to stop looking quite so smitten, which caused me to blush, making it look worse. He closed his eyes slightly as he smiled and spun me round, hiding my face from most the crowd as he bought me a moment to compose myself. Looking up, I saw that he was slightly pink, although he hid it well. Probably just embarrassed by how I was acting, so I straightened slightly and willed myself to think about something else, causing the blush to fade, and he glanced at me curiously as we continued.

 

[tuttiteia]

I sharpened up to look more professional and proper.
"Yeah it's my first." I answered him serious.
"Nice. Who did you come with?" he asked me after finishing eating the appetizer.
Feeling my palms getting klammy and sweaty. "I was escorted by Lileath." Stop be so nervous for God's sake!
"Of the one and only Lileath. Well, not bad." He blinked at me, also patting my shoulder. I smiled nervously back.

I couldn't calm down before I feel truly approved. "What's your name then? I hope to hear you are Slytherin?" He tightend his tie.
I nodded fast. "Yes, of course I am." Taking a small brake from telling my name. My surname Denver was taken from my mother.
When she and my father got married, he also took her name. Because they didn't want our family to have any connection to my dad's family.
So when they heard my surname nobody would think that I was connected to the famous fullblood familyline.
I needed to say my name because of politieness. And if he understood who I was, well so be it. I didn't really knew if my grandparents had try to get contact with my parents after they cut it off. Maybe they didn't even knew that their son got children? That they are grandparents to more?
"Eric Joseph Denver." I putted my hand out to greet him properly. He took my hand and shook it. "It is a pleasure," I sighed in relief.
"Never heard anything about the Denver family," he mentioned. I shook my head. "No, I wouldn't blame you. It's..." I started whispering.
"A muggle name, my mother is a muggle. Nothing I'm proud of, wished that my father would have married a fullblood instead, like himself."
Hoping that he wouldn't connect the story. He nodded and whispered back. "I get it, I know someone like that myself-" He blinked at me.
"Well, it's time to mingle some more. And I need to find my wife before she gets angry that I left her." He chuckled. He bowed as he stood up and left.

 

[Dark lord steel]

A young woman came up and shyly asked the Dark Lord to dance, to which he accepted with a respectful nod towards me. Annoyingly, we couldn't really decline invitations to dance as it'd be interpreted that they'd fallen out of our favour, but I didn't let this irritation show as I walked towards your table, sitting next to you.

"Hello Eric" I say lightly, smiling at you as I glanced once at the dark lord. Although it wasn't obvious, his dancing with the young woman was slightly less enthusiastic than ours. If anyone did notice, no one dared make any comments on it.

 

[tuttiteia]

"Hi," tried not to sound dissapointed. Because I saw how you looked at your father.
Saw the dissapointment in your eyes as he started to dance with another woman.
I was shocked but tried to keep it to myself. It was extreme, it was sickening.
I smiled and took your hand, but let go of it as fast as I remembered the Dark Lord being in the presence.
"How are you? I cleared my throat and checked if my hair was still in place.
If I ever would fall in love with you it would be a mistake, because you would always be in love with your father.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I frowned, misinterpreting the slight disappointment in your voice. Maybe it hadn't gone that well with your grandfather. I sipped a little more of the wine, feeling a little tipsy.

"Fine" I said causally, looking at you in slight concern "But what about you?"

 

[tuttiteia]

"I'm good." I faked a smile. "Am I allowed to ask you to dance or..?" Looking over at the Dark Lord.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I looked at you in surprise before smiling and I stood up. Offering you my arm, as if I'd start, despite that the male partner usually took the lead. I doubted you had much experience in this, so if you truly wanted to I'd lead you, taking it slowly which thankfully fit into the soft piano music. I smiled slightly as I put one hand on your back and put the other over one of your hands.

 

[tuttiteia]

"You know, I know how to do it." Putting one hand on your waist and holding your hand. Moving slowly to the rhythm of the music.
"I talked to him, my grandfather. He didn't understand who I am." I said, talking low.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I nodded subtly "What do you think of him?" I asked quietly as we moved around, others diverting from our path slightly as we danced.

 

[tuttiteia]

"He seems nice."
Feeling mad at you, not knowing myself really why. Just feeling this unhappy feeling growing inside of me.
Like you don't really care, and as fast as you came here you ran to your father. Not helping me with my mission.
Not trying to introduce me to anyone, and making me be on my one. Standing there like a fool, like I came to this party alone and need to mingle and chat with strangers, to not look totally antisocial.
Feeling myself breathing higher and heavier. Why did I mind myself caring about you? And even falling for you, when you felt so distance.
In one moment I could feel us having a moment, but in the next it was like I was nothing for you. Maybe you only saw me as a friend? Or just someone to play with once in a while, when you felt for it? I was upset, sick of this feeling. I should cut contact with you. This friendship felt like a roller coaster. Not a good one, one that made you sick, full of moodswings and feeling like the seatbelt wasn't attached properly. A roller coaster with bad protection so you could fall out of it at any time.
I let go of your hand and took away the other one from your waist, as I stepped back.
"I need to go to the bathroom," and started walking away, out of sight.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I frowned as you left, sighing slightly. It was probably about me, and I internally groaned. If I had to guess, it'd probably be that you were annoyed I immediately left to see my father. I sat down on a table, the wine having given me a mild headache. It wasn't that I wanted to basically dump you here, but I had duties to attend to, duties that I couldn't be seen shirking.

"He cares about you" The dark lord said into my mind, and I raised a slight eyebrow at him. He mirrored my expression with one of his own, as if to say am I really surprised. In a way I was, there had been this lingering thought this entire time that maybe you were trying to get into my good books so you could meet your grandfather, but maybe it was more than that. I excused myself, claiming I needed to lie down due to the wine, and travelled after you, knowing you'd probably got lost.

 

[tuttiteia]

I sat down at the ground, I couldn't see the garden party anymore.
I put my head in my hands and sighed. Couldn't wait to get out of her and come back to my normal life.
Maybe it was for the best? Maybe my parents had always been right to keep this world away from me, to keep my grandfather away from me.
They had the best interest at heart, but I was blinded by wanting this so bad. Wanting to meet them, wanting to be a part of this world.
I didn't fit into the rich society in the muggle world, and it was the same with this world.
The rich people didn't kill like their enemies. But they kept secrets, broke the law and did a lot of dirty buisness.
So it wasn't totaly wrong to compare it. It was probably a rich guy out there that had paid someone some money to kill someone, to get rid of that person. He just didn't kill the person himself, he got people for it. While here, each deatheater did mostly their own dirtywork. Besides the Dark Lord, he could command anyone to do anything, but still he got his hands dirty as well.

And then there was you, just get out of my head already! I started to hit my hand in the ground repeatedly. Ignoring the pain, just focusing on the anger and frustration. My knuckles loosing skin and the blood running down my hand.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I was walking around the citadel looking for you when I heard the sound of knuckles against stone. Hurrying up slightly, I cautiously opened the door to the arched room, seeing you on the floor... hitting it. I looked at you sadly, at what I'd done to you.

"You really have feelings for me?"

I asked softly, even if it made me stupid. Even if you'd probably hate me for coming across you at your most emotionally vulnerable. I was expecting... I wasn't too sure what I was expecting. Probably an angry backlash of some sort. I'd dismissed the idea that you had any feelings beyond friends when you said we should only pretend to date for a day or two, but maybe it was because you didn't want it to be false.

 

[tuttiteia]

I stop hitting and breath out heavy.
"Not everything is about you." I hiss.
"Long before we can leave?" Red in my face with anger and hot in my suit. I wanted to rip it off, but I was going to keep myself together from doing that. I was still a guest of the Dark Lord, and I was going to act as one in front of everyone, till the end of this.
Maybe I should calm down and just go back, and drink a lot. Act like everything was fine and make the alcohol make me have fun.
"I'm sorry for what I said." I stood up fast, getting a bith dizzy. "We should get back to the others." Smiling fake. "But first you need to show me the bathroom so I can get cleaned up." Holding my bloody fist up.

 

[Dark lord steel]

My eyes narrowed "We're not going back. Especially you. The darker entertainment for the night is starting, and I doubt you want to see the blood that will be spilled or hear the screams of agony."

I frowned as I implied for you to follow me down a spiral stair case and I nodded to a well polished bathroom. I knew you were faking it, the fact you were okay, that you wanted to go back.

 

[tuttiteia]

I rinse my knuckles in some water and with paper. It stings and the paper gets stuck in my wounds, but I ignore it.
"Yeah well, then I will go back to Hogwarts. You stay here." Even if I didn't know how the hell to get back, I started walking up the stairs and in a direction I didn't know where would lead me. What a stupid party, stupid people, thinking they ruled the world. Darker entertainment, what a brainwashed community.

 

[Dark lord steel]

I frowned and snorted. "Good luck. If you want to avoid the entertainment - or becoming the entertainment - go and speak to Malfoy."

I walked towards the manor, climbing several floors of stairs to reach my main room, and I fell unto my bed. Great. Sometimes - a lot of the time - I wished I could just stay here and not leave.

 

[tuttiteia]

What was her problem?
My anger issues getting worse and worse. I went back to the bathroom as you walked somewhere, don't know where.
I sat down at the floor, leaning on the wall. I sighed, feeling angry, but not really smart to hit something inside this house.
So I just had to keep it all inside. You couldn't care less, thought it was fun playing with my feelings. I sighed. What a day.
You were more drama than all the girls I have had a fling with put together. Shaking my head and feeling upset.
Should have stayed out of your mess.