desti
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What if Elias wouldn’t come back? Arthor couldn’t help but think that he might not come back or things would change between them. That wasn’t what Arthor wanted, so now he was desperate in a way to not let Elias leave. He just had to convince him that this wasn’t a good idea. Elias cared about Antra, so it shouldn’t be that hard to make him think that it would be selfish of him to visit her.
“Just because I’m telling you the harsh truth, doesn’t mean that I’m angry.”
“You are angry.”
“Maybe I am. Only because you are going to get hurt and I don’t want that, Elias,” Arthor said and reached out to cup his cheek with his hand again.
But Elias didn’t let him do that and Arthor pulled his hand away. He didn’t want to anger him right now, nor would it really help him achieve what he wanted. Arthor was trying to calm down a little so that he could really talk to Elias as though his happiness and safety was the most important thing in his life.
“How will I hurt myself by visiting a friend?”
“You can’t just go back to being friends after having a relationship, Elias. What if you make a mistake? What if you go there and just ruin everything she’s built for herself so far? It’s not wise, Elias,” Arthor sighed.
“That’s why I would send her a letter first to make sure she thinks it’s okay for me to visit.”
“Of course she’ll want you to visit. She’s a young girl, probably emotional and sentimental after everything that’s happened.”
It was easy for Arthor to imagine a mistake happening, even if Elias claimed that he was only visiting her as a friend. That wasn’t how this worked, at least from his experience. Arthor doubted that Elias had seen him as anything else other than a friend when he returned from the North, and yet they had done many things together because of how much they’d missed one another. He thought that that was bound to happen between Elias and the Queen as well.
“How is if fair that you get to be friends with Leanah then?”
“Elias, I work here. I have to be around her and her mother constantly. It’s different. You are completely out of the Queen’s life. It’s best to just leave it be and move on.”
“You don’t have to be personal with Leanah, though.”
“If it eases your mind, we’re not as close as we used to be.”
“So I’m not allowed to visit someone who matters to me because you think it will only hurt me?”
“I can’t forbid you from visiting. I’m just saying that it’ll hurt you and everyone else involved. It’s selfish, Elias.”
How long would Arthor have to keep saying this? He really hoped that Elias would just calm down and then they could have a good evening together. Elias just had to realise that he was wrong and Arthor was right. This was selfish of him, even if it would make the Queen happy as well. They should just move on and forget about each other.
“Are you calling me selfish?”
“In this case, yes.”
At that, Elias scoffed so Arthor figured he probably didn’t want to hear that. It was the truth, though, and now Arthor just had to make him realise that. Elias turned and stepped towards the door, and that wasn’t good, so Arthor grabbed his arm so that he wouldn’t be able to leave.
“I’m sorry, Elias.”
“Let go of me.”
Arthor didn’t listen to him and took a step towards him while keeping a grip on his arm, “I know what I’m saying probably sounds horrible to you.”
“You’re so fucking selfish. You’re a hypocrite,” Elias said, pulling his arm away from Arthor harshly.
“I’m just telling you how it is, Elias. You don’t have to get angry because of the truth.”
"Getting angry for the truth? The truth is that you're selfish, and perhaps you're jealous even. Not once have I denied you anything."
It would’ve been so much easier with Leanah. Arthor sighed because he was getting tired of this and he just wanted another cup of wine. This time he didn’t grab Elias or stop him from getting closer to the door again. Arthor figured that would just make Elias angrier and less willing to listen to him.
“Sure, Elias. You’ll see that I was right in due time,” Arthor shrugged.
"Okay. Thank you for everything, Arthor,” Elias’ words didn’t exactly sound very genuine while he walked towards the door again.
“Don’t come crying to me when you ruin her marriage.”
With that, Arthor let Elias do what he wanted while he walked back to retrieve his cup from the ground. He cleaned the inside with the edge of his shirt, very much staining it red from the leftover wine that hadn’t spilled out. Arthor heard Elias’ footsteps stop before he reached the door, but he didn’t turn around to look at him.
"Fine. You'll never see me again."
Instead of answering or even looking at Elias, Arthor filled his cup again, while the thoughts in his mind were threatening to switch. Wine made him stupid and he very much needed that right now, since the last thing Arthor wanted was to feel all the guilt from treating Elias like this. He didn’t deserve this and nothing Arthor had said had been right, but he couldn’t handle the shame crashing down on him right now. So Arthor drank instead and tried not to feel absolutely horrible when he heard Elias leave the room.
“Just because I’m telling you the harsh truth, doesn’t mean that I’m angry.”
“You are angry.”
“Maybe I am. Only because you are going to get hurt and I don’t want that, Elias,” Arthor said and reached out to cup his cheek with his hand again.
But Elias didn’t let him do that and Arthor pulled his hand away. He didn’t want to anger him right now, nor would it really help him achieve what he wanted. Arthor was trying to calm down a little so that he could really talk to Elias as though his happiness and safety was the most important thing in his life.
“How will I hurt myself by visiting a friend?”
“You can’t just go back to being friends after having a relationship, Elias. What if you make a mistake? What if you go there and just ruin everything she’s built for herself so far? It’s not wise, Elias,” Arthor sighed.
“That’s why I would send her a letter first to make sure she thinks it’s okay for me to visit.”
“Of course she’ll want you to visit. She’s a young girl, probably emotional and sentimental after everything that’s happened.”
It was easy for Arthor to imagine a mistake happening, even if Elias claimed that he was only visiting her as a friend. That wasn’t how this worked, at least from his experience. Arthor doubted that Elias had seen him as anything else other than a friend when he returned from the North, and yet they had done many things together because of how much they’d missed one another. He thought that that was bound to happen between Elias and the Queen as well.
“How is if fair that you get to be friends with Leanah then?”
“Elias, I work here. I have to be around her and her mother constantly. It’s different. You are completely out of the Queen’s life. It’s best to just leave it be and move on.”
“You don’t have to be personal with Leanah, though.”
“If it eases your mind, we’re not as close as we used to be.”
“So I’m not allowed to visit someone who matters to me because you think it will only hurt me?”
“I can’t forbid you from visiting. I’m just saying that it’ll hurt you and everyone else involved. It’s selfish, Elias.”
How long would Arthor have to keep saying this? He really hoped that Elias would just calm down and then they could have a good evening together. Elias just had to realise that he was wrong and Arthor was right. This was selfish of him, even if it would make the Queen happy as well. They should just move on and forget about each other.
“Are you calling me selfish?”
“In this case, yes.”
At that, Elias scoffed so Arthor figured he probably didn’t want to hear that. It was the truth, though, and now Arthor just had to make him realise that. Elias turned and stepped towards the door, and that wasn’t good, so Arthor grabbed his arm so that he wouldn’t be able to leave.
“I’m sorry, Elias.”
“Let go of me.”
Arthor didn’t listen to him and took a step towards him while keeping a grip on his arm, “I know what I’m saying probably sounds horrible to you.”
“You’re so fucking selfish. You’re a hypocrite,” Elias said, pulling his arm away from Arthor harshly.
“I’m just telling you how it is, Elias. You don’t have to get angry because of the truth.”
"Getting angry for the truth? The truth is that you're selfish, and perhaps you're jealous even. Not once have I denied you anything."
It would’ve been so much easier with Leanah. Arthor sighed because he was getting tired of this and he just wanted another cup of wine. This time he didn’t grab Elias or stop him from getting closer to the door again. Arthor figured that would just make Elias angrier and less willing to listen to him.
“Sure, Elias. You’ll see that I was right in due time,” Arthor shrugged.
"Okay. Thank you for everything, Arthor,” Elias’ words didn’t exactly sound very genuine while he walked towards the door again.
“Don’t come crying to me when you ruin her marriage.”
With that, Arthor let Elias do what he wanted while he walked back to retrieve his cup from the ground. He cleaned the inside with the edge of his shirt, very much staining it red from the leftover wine that hadn’t spilled out. Arthor heard Elias’ footsteps stop before he reached the door, but he didn’t turn around to look at him.
"Fine. You'll never see me again."
Instead of answering or even looking at Elias, Arthor filled his cup again, while the thoughts in his mind were threatening to switch. Wine made him stupid and he very much needed that right now, since the last thing Arthor wanted was to feel all the guilt from treating Elias like this. He didn’t deserve this and nothing Arthor had said had been right, but he couldn’t handle the shame crashing down on him right now. So Arthor drank instead and tried not to feel absolutely horrible when he heard Elias leave the room.