Femboy
Chaos Incarnate
I've not been good for the past however and I've done some bad moments that have more emotionally set me off more than it normally should any person. I feel like all the characters I've made are just projections of some part of me, and at times I'm so defensive and serious about things meant to be for fun. I started and liked RP because it was atleast a chance to get away from the worser parts of life and dream a little, but I feel like I've maybe not had so much outside of RP that my feelings take over any chance they get and I'm never logical or sensible about anything. I don't know if RP is harmful at this point but it feels like not doing it will harm me even more, and it's not something that feels like it can be easily explained to someone when something fictional can take more of a toll on someone from being removed from it more than the loss of a person close to me. It's like it feels like knowing I didn't get to see a good ending let alone an ending at all feels so personal to me and I don't know why.
Maybe it's a hard point to answer but I've been through so many people and multiple therapists and counsellors who just gave up and couldn't help me, and all I needed was something enjoyable to be happy but I don't know how to correctly place or use my own feelings until it's too late and I downspiral into just causing more problems out of my own regret.
If this seems the wrong place to consider such a thing, I was only expecting that maybe someone would be used to the same sort of thing and that I dont really have anyone I want to keep asking, and that writing my thoughts down to someone might possibly help things better.
Maybe it's a hard point to answer but I've been through so many people and multiple therapists and counsellors who just gave up and couldn't help me, and all I needed was something enjoyable to be happy but I don't know how to correctly place or use my own feelings until it's too late and I downspiral into just causing more problems out of my own regret.
If this seems the wrong place to consider such a thing, I was only expecting that maybe someone would be used to the same sort of thing and that I dont really have anyone I want to keep asking, and that writing my thoughts down to someone might possibly help things better.
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