desti
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Perhaps it should’ve upset Antra or made her jealous, but it didn’t. Whatever made Elias happy, she was alright with. As long as nobody got hurt, of course. That was her main concern when it came to everything, but as long as that was respected, anything was fine. Antra didn’t worry what may or may not happen between Arthor and Elias later on. It wouldn’t be fair of her to expect anything from Elias, considering that she would be married in due time.
It was even easier for Antra not to worry about something like that when Elias said that he loved her. Ever since he had said it that first time, she still hadn’t gotten over it. Sometimes she pestered him to say it to her, just because of how sweet it sounded. Maybe she loved those three words a little too much, but she wasn’t ashamed of it. They were so beautiful coming from Elias, Antra couldn’t help it.
“You can do what you want, Elias,” Antra shrugged and smiled.
"I want you."
“But you won’t have me in Santrella,” Antra chuckled, even though she supposed it wasn’t really a happy matter.
"You could visit."
“I will,” Antra shrugged, “not too often, though.”
“What am I supposed to do without you.”
As Elias mumbled that, he moved his arms to wrap around his waist and pulled her closer to him. Antra smiled and moved to sit in his lap as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Of course she was sad to lose him, but then again, would she really? If they’d write letters and even see each other every once in a while, that’d be better than nothing. Antra would never lose Elias, things would just change a little between them and that was fine. Sometimes that happened and Antra didn’t want to be afraid of change anymore.
“I’m sure you’ll find something to take your mind off of me.”
"I wouldn't be so sure about that,” Elias said, cupping her cheek with one hand.
“You’ll think of something,” Antra chuckled and leant forwards to kiss his cheek.
"I'll miss you so much."
“I’ll miss you too, but we’ll keep in touch. I hope.”
"I don't want to leave."
“But you’ll have to,” she mumbled, moving her hand to stroke his hair gently, “it’ll be alright, Elias.”
"I wish I didn't have to."
As much as Antra wished so too, there was nothing they could do about it. There was no reason to be too sad because of it and ruin their last moments together. Antra thought that would be very silly, so she didn’t want to get too upset now, sitting in his lap. If she’d think too much about how life might be after Elias, then she might begin crying and that she definitely did not want to do.
“There’s nothing we can do. We just have to accept that..”
“I know.”
“We’ll be alright.”
"I'll always love you, Antra. No matter what."
“And I’ll always love you, Elias. Nothing will change that,” Elias gave her a short kiss and Antra smiled because of it.
“I’ll miss all of this.”
"That's why you have to visit me as often as you can."
“I’d love that,” Antra chuckled, “I’ll definitely travel to Santrella at least once.”
"And I'll visit you as well."
Suddenly, she got a little worried though as she thought about what Elias might think about her having a new husband. She didn’t know if he was a jealous man or not, or if it’d just upset him greatly. Antra didn’t want that, but there wasn’t really anything she could do about it. She almost hoped that Elias would find himself a wife just so that things would be fair.
“Is that a good idea?”
"Maybe not, but I'd like to visit you."
“And meet my husband?”
"I haven't considered that yet."
Antra shrugged, “I don’t know when that’s going to happen. I suppose it depends on Brynden.”
"Not long after the war is my guess."
Maybe Antra was imagining it because of her own feelings on the matter, but Elias looked so sad as he said that. It made her feel upset and guilty about what was happening, even if it was out of her control. She didn’t want this to hurt Elias, but there wasn’t anything she could do to stop it. It was so unfair, but Antra would deal with it, because that was what a good Lady would do.
“You’re probably right. I’m sorry.”
After Antra said that, Elias cupped her face and kissed her deeply. Antra wondered what their last kiss would be like, or even if they’d realise that it’d be their last. She decided that she’d treat every kiss like that from now on. Just in case. Stroking his hair, Antra kissed him back , pressing close against his chest. Elias’ hand moved to her back as he held her pressed against him, but eventually Antra pulled away again, even if it felt so very nice.
"Promise me that we'll see each other again after the war,” Elias said as he leant forwards to kiss her cheek.
No matter how hard that might be to achieve, Antra would do anything to see Elias again. Even if it would be inappropriate to do something like that. She couldn’t imagine living the rest of her life without ever seeing him again. It was a horrible thought, and Antra didn’t want to make it a reality. Hopefully, meeting Elias wouldn’t be as hard as she had imagined in her head.
“I promise.”
It was even easier for Antra not to worry about something like that when Elias said that he loved her. Ever since he had said it that first time, she still hadn’t gotten over it. Sometimes she pestered him to say it to her, just because of how sweet it sounded. Maybe she loved those three words a little too much, but she wasn’t ashamed of it. They were so beautiful coming from Elias, Antra couldn’t help it.
“You can do what you want, Elias,” Antra shrugged and smiled.
"I want you."
“But you won’t have me in Santrella,” Antra chuckled, even though she supposed it wasn’t really a happy matter.
"You could visit."
“I will,” Antra shrugged, “not too often, though.”
“What am I supposed to do without you.”
As Elias mumbled that, he moved his arms to wrap around his waist and pulled her closer to him. Antra smiled and moved to sit in his lap as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Of course she was sad to lose him, but then again, would she really? If they’d write letters and even see each other every once in a while, that’d be better than nothing. Antra would never lose Elias, things would just change a little between them and that was fine. Sometimes that happened and Antra didn’t want to be afraid of change anymore.
“I’m sure you’ll find something to take your mind off of me.”
"I wouldn't be so sure about that,” Elias said, cupping her cheek with one hand.
“You’ll think of something,” Antra chuckled and leant forwards to kiss his cheek.
"I'll miss you so much."
“I’ll miss you too, but we’ll keep in touch. I hope.”
"I don't want to leave."
“But you’ll have to,” she mumbled, moving her hand to stroke his hair gently, “it’ll be alright, Elias.”
"I wish I didn't have to."
As much as Antra wished so too, there was nothing they could do about it. There was no reason to be too sad because of it and ruin their last moments together. Antra thought that would be very silly, so she didn’t want to get too upset now, sitting in his lap. If she’d think too much about how life might be after Elias, then she might begin crying and that she definitely did not want to do.
“There’s nothing we can do. We just have to accept that..”
“I know.”
“We’ll be alright.”
"I'll always love you, Antra. No matter what."
“And I’ll always love you, Elias. Nothing will change that,” Elias gave her a short kiss and Antra smiled because of it.
“I’ll miss all of this.”
"That's why you have to visit me as often as you can."
“I’d love that,” Antra chuckled, “I’ll definitely travel to Santrella at least once.”
"And I'll visit you as well."
Suddenly, she got a little worried though as she thought about what Elias might think about her having a new husband. She didn’t know if he was a jealous man or not, or if it’d just upset him greatly. Antra didn’t want that, but there wasn’t really anything she could do about it. She almost hoped that Elias would find himself a wife just so that things would be fair.
“Is that a good idea?”
"Maybe not, but I'd like to visit you."
“And meet my husband?”
"I haven't considered that yet."
Antra shrugged, “I don’t know when that’s going to happen. I suppose it depends on Brynden.”
"Not long after the war is my guess."
Maybe Antra was imagining it because of her own feelings on the matter, but Elias looked so sad as he said that. It made her feel upset and guilty about what was happening, even if it was out of her control. She didn’t want this to hurt Elias, but there wasn’t anything she could do to stop it. It was so unfair, but Antra would deal with it, because that was what a good Lady would do.
“You’re probably right. I’m sorry.”
After Antra said that, Elias cupped her face and kissed her deeply. Antra wondered what their last kiss would be like, or even if they’d realise that it’d be their last. She decided that she’d treat every kiss like that from now on. Just in case. Stroking his hair, Antra kissed him back , pressing close against his chest. Elias’ hand moved to her back as he held her pressed against him, but eventually Antra pulled away again, even if it felt so very nice.
"Promise me that we'll see each other again after the war,” Elias said as he leant forwards to kiss her cheek.
No matter how hard that might be to achieve, Antra would do anything to see Elias again. Even if it would be inappropriate to do something like that. She couldn’t imagine living the rest of her life without ever seeing him again. It was a horrible thought, and Antra didn’t want to make it a reality. Hopefully, meeting Elias wouldn’t be as hard as she had imagined in her head.
“I promise.”