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I feel like I need to face the facts... I am a horrible person socially.
And I don’t mean that I’m just not good at talking to people. No, it looks to me like it’s much more than that.
This is something that I’ve started to notice ever since I moved to TN 4 years ago. And it starts with my oldest and best friends. These friends I have know since birth. I literally have a pic of us since we were babies. I love these guys and they have provided me with great fun during my childhood. We did tons of things together back in the day. But lately I’ve felt extremely divided among them...
Now that I live in TN and not NY anymore, we don’t meet face to face often. However with the magic of texting we can still talk. I do see them once a year however. However, it seems like when I text them they don’t get back to me as fast as they used to. I can see their online status yet no response for a good solid couple of days. It usually comes down to spamming them now to get their attention.
But this isn’t the worst of it. I went to NY a few days ag as saw them. For the last month my computer has had a problem that I needed fixed. They helped me build this computer so surly they could help me fix it. When we see them they are having a party. I patiently wait for them to get done hanging out with their friends after explaining my problem. They said they’d help me later during the party. The time passes and I keep waiting. Eventually they finally come around to helping me when one of their friends makes a suggestion to head over to their house. Without hesitation they go over... leaving me at their house alone now with my problem not fix. And before they come back I have to leave to go back to where we are staying in NY.
This was the last nail in the coffin for me. After seeing these reactions to me from them I feel like they want nothing to do with me anymore. And I don’t know if it was I who pushed them away or something else.
Now it’s not just this that makes me think I’m a horrible person. For the 4 years I’ve been in TN, I don’t have 1 single “best friend.” Sure, I’ve talked to people at school but I don’t hang out or anything, or have long conversation with them. No, am an absolute loner here in TN. On top of that, I seem to manage to piss off people online once a week without meaning to.
All these instances make me think it’s me who’s just awful at being a person. I’m lonely and the only people I talk to either are pissed off at me or too busy trying to do other things that don’t involve me.
So I’ll say it again, is this me?
And I don’t mean that I’m just not good at talking to people. No, it looks to me like it’s much more than that.
This is something that I’ve started to notice ever since I moved to TN 4 years ago. And it starts with my oldest and best friends. These friends I have know since birth. I literally have a pic of us since we were babies. I love these guys and they have provided me with great fun during my childhood. We did tons of things together back in the day. But lately I’ve felt extremely divided among them...
Now that I live in TN and not NY anymore, we don’t meet face to face often. However with the magic of texting we can still talk. I do see them once a year however. However, it seems like when I text them they don’t get back to me as fast as they used to. I can see their online status yet no response for a good solid couple of days. It usually comes down to spamming them now to get their attention.
But this isn’t the worst of it. I went to NY a few days ag as saw them. For the last month my computer has had a problem that I needed fixed. They helped me build this computer so surly they could help me fix it. When we see them they are having a party. I patiently wait for them to get done hanging out with their friends after explaining my problem. They said they’d help me later during the party. The time passes and I keep waiting. Eventually they finally come around to helping me when one of their friends makes a suggestion to head over to their house. Without hesitation they go over... leaving me at their house alone now with my problem not fix. And before they come back I have to leave to go back to where we are staying in NY.
This was the last nail in the coffin for me. After seeing these reactions to me from them I feel like they want nothing to do with me anymore. And I don’t know if it was I who pushed them away or something else.
Now it’s not just this that makes me think I’m a horrible person. For the 4 years I’ve been in TN, I don’t have 1 single “best friend.” Sure, I’ve talked to people at school but I don’t hang out or anything, or have long conversation with them. No, am an absolute loner here in TN. On top of that, I seem to manage to piss off people online once a week without meaning to.
All these instances make me think it’s me who’s just awful at being a person. I’m lonely and the only people I talk to either are pissed off at me or too busy trying to do other things that don’t involve me.
So I’ll say it again, is this me?