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  • Update! I may not end up homeless after all. I may actually have a chance!
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    That's actually really cool and I've actually thought about doing that- only problem?? I have too much SHIT in my room to move into something that small
    Catzilla
    Catzilla
    That’s good to hear
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    Thank you
    I wanna be a hitman so I can hitman myself and make it look like a murder~ Nokumi original quote
    Mother stressing me out. She asked me if I got the money she sent me yet NO I didn't YOU JUST SENT IT LIKE FREELZ "how's your social security going?" STILL A STRUGGLE CUZ YPU FREAKEN LOST IT 2 YEARS AGO NOT TO MENTION ALL MY IMPORTANT DOCUMENTS LIKE MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE AND MY W2 WHICH I GAVE NO PERMISSION TO FILL IT OUT. "Hmmmm you need that card" WELL NO SHIT SHERLOCK IM TRYING BUT YOU MADE MY LIFE A FREAKEN MESS AND HARD AND I CANT GET A SOCIAL SECURITY CARD WITHOUT AN ID NO BIRTH CERTIFICATE WITHOUT AN ID AND I CANT GET AN ID WITHOUT THOSE THINGS. SO HMMMMMM "i gave you your birth certifcate" ITS NOT A CERTIFIED COPY!!! "your dad should have the real one" He doesnt!!! WHY WOULD HE HAVE IT WHEN I DIDNT LIVE WITH HIM 90% OF MY LIFE!!! "Are you saying I have it" Yes!! YES ITS EXACTLY WHAT IM SAYING EITHER THAT OR YOU FREAKING LOST IT!!! *directs me to a website* "here use this to get an original copy and you and your dad need to try harder to get the copy" *me and my dad who literally went to a bank in person to get a copy certified "can I see an ID please??"* FINE ILL GIVE THIS SITE A FUCKING TRY BUT KNOWING MY LUCK IT WONT WORK *CHECKS SITE* I NEED A FUCKIMG ID CARD "have your dad do it... he can get it for you" IM A FUCKING ADULT NOW AND IM PRETTY SURE THEIR STILL GONNA ASK FOR ID BUT OK!! *ME AND MY DAD TRY FOR HALF AN HOUR TO GET BIRTH CERTIFICATE"ID OR PASSPORT PLEASE OR YOU CAN USE THESE OTHER DOCUMENTS" WHICH I LITERALLY DONT HAVE ANY OF THEM* WELP I TRIED!!!!


    is how I wanted to conversation to go but the person in me was nice and kind about it and played into my mom's emotions just to keep her happy but everything I said she said was true. I FUCKING HATE MY LIFE MAN *POPS A ANXIETY PILL*
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    How can I be happy when I can't fend for myself or contribute to society cuz I have no proof I am who I say I am? Oh oh I know. I'll be homeless as soon as my dad dies and my mom dies! Cuz god knows I won't drag my big brother into my problems!!
    Komachi
    Komachi
    Oh- sorry (´・ェ・`)
    Komachi
    Komachi
    But remember, we're here for you!! ❤
    ITS 10 MINUTES TILL 5 AM AND I HAVENT SLEPT AT ALL!!!! YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS!?


    IM HIGH ON THE NIGHT SKY RUNNING A MILE HIGH WITH BILL NYE TELLING ME IM GONNA DIE WITH ZERO SLEEP TONIGHT!!!

    *Mic drop* .... oh SHIT that Mic expensive *picks it up and checks it*
    My dad just got back from the hospital. He arrived home with new medications for the symptoms of tingling in his arms and the pressure in his chest. Turns out he was have such severe acid reflex it was causing him to have heart burn and other symptoms.

    I'm happy my dad is okay and healthy. This goes to show don't take your loved ones for granted. Because one day they may not have much longer. And then it'll be too late.

    Tell your family you love them Every one!
    Kaerri
    Kaerri
    I'm glad that's all it is! I've had symptoms I thought were heart-related and they also turned out to be reflux (with anxiety thrown in for good measure). I hope he gets better now that he knows what the real problem is!
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    Thank you!!!!!
    My dad went to the hospital last night at around midnight. We didn’t get home till 3:30 AM went to bed around 4 AM… woke up at 10 today cuz my dad woke me up saying he was having symptoms of a heart attack again and he was gonna go to the hospital. But they keep saying nothings wrong. When something is clearly wrong. So he’s at the hospital right now and I was sleeping.

    Woke up from a night terror panicking completely because I dreamt my dad went into cardiac arrest. But the doctors and nurses kept saying he’s fine and they couldn’t find anything. And I kept telling them his heart literally stopped but when I turned to my dad we weren’t in the hospital anymore but his grave and my abusive mom was standing there with a grin dragging me away…
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
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    This was last night at 2 AM
    Scrambling to get a doctor to prescribe my medicine before I wind up in another loony bin- got dropped a while back and I managed to get some meds for a while after not having them for 2 months and now I’m about to not have em again. Cuz this month is the last month before I get canceled completely…

    I’m gonna be a tired- paranoid- scared- forgetful- crying- violent- moody- dangerous- and crazy boy ones I’m off them because I have medicine for

    Schizophrenia
    Bipolar
    Smiling Depression
    Short term memory loss
    Insomnia
    Night terrors
    Extreme anxiety
    PTSD

    And a few others I’m sure I’m forgetting until I look at the millions of bottles I have.
    Wow… You look scary…
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    People calling my song overrated and annoying ;-;
    Rekai Leon
    Rekai Leon
    Each person has a different taste, so don’t let that bother you ^_^
    Here is my favourite song, by the way: youtu.be/dQw4w9WgXcQ
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    Omg that meme- that song is total meme- but ya it's a good song. My number one favorite song of all time. Is "when your evil" by Voltaire
    You have something on your face.
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    IM also one of the hurt humans... know the ones that are taken advantage of and me myself as a human being misunderstood as a human cuz of my disabilitys.
    Baphomet
    Baphomet
    Yeah. That tends to happen. Humans are cruel. That's why I try to spread love and kindness. <3
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    That's nice. I try to do the same
    I lost a entire rpnation family... Depression is kicking in. I may avoid talking to certain people. But if they contact me first I'll respond. I haven't been this sad since my dog died... Worst part is I know I won't be missed...
    Here's a poem I made... For those who struggle

    Pain is short but life is for ever.
    Yet pain can scar deeper yet deeper
    The scarlet red of blood that drips from the results
    But they go unseen by those who turn a blind eye
    It sometimes seems hopeless as you lay awake at night
    Your silent screams and your unheard Cry's.
    Doubts filling the void of your mind.
    You feel perhaps its better you say nothing
    That you joke about your troubles and laugh at your pain
    But in truth it is something
    And will take your life one day
    So I urge you don't hold it in
    Say something like I ones did
    Before it takes your life like it did to my friend
    Your void of life will make others suffer
    If you ask for help it will get better
    HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!

    *does the skele dance as music plays in background and starts to sing*

    Spooky, scary skeletons
    Send shivers down your spine
    Shrieking skulls will shock your soul
    Seal your doom tonight!

    *salutes and falls backwards*
    Anyone else notice things are slow lately? Like NO ONE is responding despite your usual 12 pm notifications when you wake up and 14 other notifications in the bell icon? Just me?
    World's collide and hearts get broken,
    I want to live like I know I'm dying,
    Take up my cross, not be afraid

    [Chorus:]
    Is it true what they say, that words are weapons?
    And if it is, then everybody best stop steppin',
    Cause I got ten in my pocket that'll bend ya locket,
    I'm tired of all these rockers sayin' come with me,
    Wait, it's just about to break, its more than I can take,
    Everything's about to change,
    I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
    Everything's about to change.

    [Solo:]
    It creeps in like a thief in the night,
    Without a sign, without a warning,
    But we are ready and prepared to fight,
    Raise up your swords, don't be afraid,

    [Chorus:]
    Is it true what they say, that words are weapons?
    And if it is, then everybody best stop steppin',
    Cause I got ten in my pocket that'll bend ya locket,
    I'm tired of all these rockers sayin' come with me,
    Wait, it's just about to break, its more than I can take,
    Everything's about to change,
    I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
    Everything's about to change.

    [Solo:]
    This is a warning, like it or not,
    I break down, like a record spinning,
    Gotta get up,
    So back off,
    This is a warning, like it or not,
    I'm tired of listenin', I'm warning you, don't try to get up,

    [Bridge:]
    There's a war going on inside of me tonight,
    (Don't be afraid) [x2]
    There's a war going on inside of me tonight.

    [Outro:]
    Wait, it's just about to break, its more than I can take,
    Everything's about to change,
    I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
    Everything's about to change,
    It's just about to break, its more than I can take,
    Everything's about to change,
    I feel it in my veins, its not going away,
    Everything's about to change.
    My dog died last night... In his sleep... I'm not feeling up to rp... Despite knowing this time was near and despite the fact if he didn't fall asleep permanently by the end of the week we were going to put him down... Its still hard...it hurts my heart. I will be absent the rest of the day..... My apology for the unconvince
    Kaerri
    Kaerri
    *offers hugs* It's always hard to lose someone you love. I hope that his going now spared him unnecessary pain, and that knowing that brings you comfort in this difficult time. Wishing you peace and healing.
    Nokumi
    Nokumi
    Thank you...
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