Scattered Ambitions
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Today I was doing some reading on trans characters, so I can write them more correctly, and that led to some reading up on gender stuff. I am AFAB and have always felt that that was correct. I certainly don't feel like a guy, and I definitely prefer she/her pronouns. But there is a part of me that really doesn't fit with the cis-female definition. And if I woke up as a guy one day, I wouldn't mind. I also really hate having boobs. So, basically, I'm just having some trouble figuring out what I am.
Insights?
EDIT: I did some more soul searching and I tend to identify more with androgyne, leaning more towards feminine. I'm changing my look to be more androgynous and might get top surgery because I have been experiencing quite a bit of dysphoria about primary and secondary sex characteristics. Until then I'm wearing a binder. I've also been talking to my therapist and she says that she thinks a lot of my body anxiety is because of the dysphoria, but I've only recently had a name for it. I don't think I'll change my pronouns, but I don't really care what pronouns people use for me anymore.
SECOND EDIT: I have also always gotten a weird feeling (like chills or something) when someone referred to me as she so I might change to they pronouns.
Insights?
EDIT: I did some more soul searching and I tend to identify more with androgyne, leaning more towards feminine. I'm changing my look to be more androgynous and might get top surgery because I have been experiencing quite a bit of dysphoria about primary and secondary sex characteristics. Until then I'm wearing a binder. I've also been talking to my therapist and she says that she thinks a lot of my body anxiety is because of the dysphoria, but I've only recently had a name for it. I don't think I'll change my pronouns, but I don't really care what pronouns people use for me anymore.
SECOND EDIT: I have also always gotten a weird feeling (like chills or something) when someone referred to me as she so I might change to they pronouns.
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