Mx.Trinity
Pro Stranger
Alright... I've debated on making this post for quite some time. In all seriousness if nothing comes of this... it won't come as a surprise. So I've been dealing with a lot of psychological stress, and anxiety. To the point that it's a bit debilitating. I've searched for a long time on this site to find someone that I can talk to about my problems who will really understand and make an effort to be there for me. But the problem that occurs is that sometimes my anxiety/stress gets the better of me and I can come across as very toxic. I've lost some really important friends to me.
I know a lot of it is my fault but I'm sort of just... here... to get my mind off things and when people go out of their way to belittle or get mad at me for legitimately trying to help even in situations that don't specifically address me. It's become very frustrating and stressful being on RPN having to worry about if something I'm going to say will trigger someone having a bad day who thinks they have the right to hold any authority over me especially when I don't say anything disrespectful. I don't have many friends irl because I choose to separate myself from most people because I know most don't and won't even make an attempt to understand. Arguments and disagreeing are(is) bound to happen. When it occurs it seems like I've yet to encounter anyone that's willing to work it out and come out of it as better friends. The friends I do have I've been friends with for 10+ years because we all know and understand communication is key, dropping the ball on someone you offer your help too is really selfish and hurtful.
Anyways THIS POST may trigger some people and if that happens... please just keep it to yourself unless we know each other. So that's the bulk of it, and the complications involved. I'm just wondering what happened to cause the community to become so sensitive and aggressive. I remember when everyone got along and real friendships were possible.
Going on a bit of a tangent now but through countless roleplays there's always been people who just ignore anything you have to say even if you're trying to roleplay with them, then there's others who are very inconsiderate of the roleplay and when you try to talk to them about it they just leave without saying anything. Then you've got people who are so stuck up and full of themselves that any slight hint that they have any influence over the RP instantly makes them a police officer or person of authority over other members and throwing passive aggressive statements like "well if you were paying attention" around. Even some of the staff seems stand offish sometimes. I've suggested a few things I'd think would be helpful to the site and it's met with nothing but criticism and instantaneous "that wouldn't work here's a link to prove why". Like... I understand.... but there's no discussion that takes place no possibilities no suggestions on other things that COULD work it's always "no, you should do x,y,z instead". Like if I was asking for help I could understand but it's a suggestion it's meant to be discussed and ideas to be traded even if nothing comes of it aside from a good positive discussion. Idk... maybe I'm just being hypersensitive again. Who knows.
I know a lot of it is my fault but I'm sort of just... here... to get my mind off things and when people go out of their way to belittle or get mad at me for legitimately trying to help even in situations that don't specifically address me. It's become very frustrating and stressful being on RPN having to worry about if something I'm going to say will trigger someone having a bad day who thinks they have the right to hold any authority over me especially when I don't say anything disrespectful. I don't have many friends irl because I choose to separate myself from most people because I know most don't and won't even make an attempt to understand. Arguments and disagreeing are(is) bound to happen. When it occurs it seems like I've yet to encounter anyone that's willing to work it out and come out of it as better friends. The friends I do have I've been friends with for 10+ years because we all know and understand communication is key, dropping the ball on someone you offer your help too is really selfish and hurtful.
Anyways THIS POST may trigger some people and if that happens... please just keep it to yourself unless we know each other. So that's the bulk of it, and the complications involved. I'm just wondering what happened to cause the community to become so sensitive and aggressive. I remember when everyone got along and real friendships were possible.
Going on a bit of a tangent now but through countless roleplays there's always been people who just ignore anything you have to say even if you're trying to roleplay with them, then there's others who are very inconsiderate of the roleplay and when you try to talk to them about it they just leave without saying anything. Then you've got people who are so stuck up and full of themselves that any slight hint that they have any influence over the RP instantly makes them a police officer or person of authority over other members and throwing passive aggressive statements like "well if you were paying attention" around. Even some of the staff seems stand offish sometimes. I've suggested a few things I'd think would be helpful to the site and it's met with nothing but criticism and instantaneous "that wouldn't work here's a link to prove why". Like... I understand.... but there's no discussion that takes place no possibilities no suggestions on other things that COULD work it's always "no, you should do x,y,z instead". Like if I was asking for help I could understand but it's a suggestion it's meant to be discussed and ideas to be traded even if nothing comes of it aside from a good positive discussion. Idk... maybe I'm just being hypersensitive again. Who knows.
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