I’m tired, mentally and emotionally exhausted. I thought things would be different but it’s the same cycle repeated over and over again. I don’t think I’ve ever allowed myself to express anything but obedience. Being complicit in situations that I needed to stand up for. But I’m was and still am...
I've been trying to do those same exercises, though it gets hard at times. Having internalizied their words for so long it's had to break that negative self talk. Though, I'm trying.
Also glad to know I'm not the only one dealing with this. Thanks for commenting.
I mean I don't see the point in taking any legal action, considering I will be a legal adult in two months. I wouldn't even know to go about it anyhow. So, I'm just looking forward to college and overall freedom. I'll be cutting them off once I'm out the house and just try and get myself into...
Welp, I'm going to rant.
I finally realized how toxic and abusive one of my parents is. It finally hit me this morning how much I've been putting up with this shit. For the past couple of years I've been verbally abused. It wasn't as promient as it is now, though it was a matter of time...
Oh my gosh, y'all are so sweet. I'm chessing so hard its making my cheeks hurt, seriously I can't thank you enough for your responds. I'll try my best to talk to my family about it and see where that gets me.
I'm so embarrassed I'm surprised you read all that lol its total bs. It's a mess too, I thought I could delete this but nope its gonna be up there sooo anyway I guess I'm glad my rant or vent or whatever that was actually something someone was feeling or could relate too. So thats cool.
I dunno where this'll go its just ne writing out my thoughts rn cause I dunno how else to release how I'm feeling I guess? I've always struggled when it came to dealing with ny emotions, always keeping it bottled up until I have an outburst which includes me either: crying, having a full panic...
Yeah, ATLA always gave me that home sorta feeling. I rewatched the show atleast 3 times lol. Its a type of show I could rewatch over and over and never get tired of. With LOK it was something new to experience, with the whole new cast and the villians were really interesting to witness.