Fyuri ,zooka ,Astralmoone I'm sorry friends. I won't be posting today/tonight. I've had a terrible day, stressed out, and am going to miss work tomorrow, not to mention a who knows how large car repair bill. I'll try to catch up tomorrow after I get some sleep. Again, to you patient partners, I'm sorry and thanks for understanding.
Well, just finished cleaning out the detritus of 2018, and by all available evidence, it was the year of the crash-and-burn. One one-on-one has survived, though it is moving slowly for completely understood reasons. One group is still limping along, and I'm not certain it is going to survive, though a couple of us haven't given up yet. Here's hoping for a better year in 2019.
Went to my doctor's for my usual, yearly checkup.Nurse asked me the usual questions, including two new ones. 'How often have you felt depressed in the last 30 days?' and 'Do you have things you like doing?' It disturbed me that I actually had to take time to think about answering both.
When you are young, the sky is full of stars. As you get older, the stars being to wink out, one by one. Now, I stare into the darkness, searching for a glimmer, a flicker, anything. I suppose I should just forget the search, but I'm too stubborn. The occasional flash in the edge of my vision, gone when I turn, they frustrate me, they tease me, the give me.... hope.
Remember, the villain is never the villain in his or her own eyes. Try to understand what is motivating them, that way you can attempt to reason with them, and if that fails, you can terminate them without hate.
PS. When you stare into the Abyss...... someone will come up behind you and push your butt right over the edge.