BrokenRemedy

I'm sick of being so damn lonely. Everyone out there has romantic partners, yet I, one of the most loyal, forgiving, and honest person I know, is left, forgotten. Not even those who are outcasts like me are interested in me. And now, even my best friend is in a relationship, so she won't talk to me anymore.. I have no one in the real world, and I'm even lonelier in RpN, because every person I crush on is either way too old or live thousands of mild away. Being single is great and all, but not when all of your friends leave you in the dust because of their relationships. I just want someone who understands. 

Yo! Music enthusiasts! Anyone have any bands they would suggest (similar to Pierce The Veil, Bring Me The Horizon, or My Chemical Romance)? 


I have free time (and a headache), so I need some loud, meaningful music to keep me company (cause that makes perfect sense)!

*looks at profile*


Oh my god, you know Breaking Benjamin.


-automatic follow-

If someone says that you are a pain in the ass because of your depression, should you still be friends with them? Cause that sounds a little shitty to me, considering I can't control my depression. ;-;

I woke up feeling particularly dead inside....

I mentioned getting a Christmas Sweater where the theme was just skulls to my mother and she looked at me like I was the spawn of Satan.. which must mean her memory is fading, considering she doesn't even remember who she is... 

My biggest joy is when Hot Topic has a sale.. all T-Shirts for $10. Pretty sure when I get back I'll be swimming in band tees.  

Sometimes I wish my real world shippings would just come true already ;-;

No wonder I'm going to be single forever. No wonder no body loves me. I bitch at and get jealous of everyone that I care about. I hate myself.

***Warning: BlawnD's Bitch Mode has been activated. Proceed with caution.***

Apparently when all of your friends are emo you can't try and be joyful or else they'll assume you're happy and try to throw depressing shit all over you. Just a helpful tip.


This is the one day that I try to make people feel good and it only gets me criticism.


Oh don't I love the fact that no one gives a shit about me and my human emotions.  What a great place this Earth is.

***Warning: Mushy Gooey Emotional Status Incoming***


First off, Happy Thanksgiving to whomever celebrates it. I'm not one for public declarations of my affection and gratitude, but today is the one day in which I will do so. Here's to my best friends that I have aqquired via RpNation.


@Ashes_of_Eden I'm pretty bitter about sending this to you, but whatever. You're a huge dork, and you suck at dealing with depressed people, but you try so that's all that matters. I know you're eventually going to give up on making me feel better, because that's what everyone does. By the time you realize that I'm not worthy of your affection, you will no longer try to heal me. But thank you for at least trying for now.


@Poseidons_Daughter Hey, nerd   Happy Thanksgiving! I'm glad to have you in my life, cause you're always there for me. I loooove yaaaa~!


@Rantos Thank you for being my ray of sunshine in the dark, Rantos. You mean so much to me, and don't ever forget that. You always make me smile and your attempts to cheer me up always work, despite how I respond. I'll never forget you, Rantos.   


@spookie spook Spookie... I don't know what to say.. We've only known each other for two weeks but I'm so grateful to have met you. Just hearing from you is enough to lift my spirits. You say you're a trash can, but you're not. You're a beautiful human being who I am so glad to call a.. friend. I will never leave you, and I hope you know that. I'm always here for you if you need to talk, please don't forget that. I'll always be by your side, because you're too amazing to lose. Stay strong, my friend. And Happy National Life is Shit Month[SIZE= 12px]TM[/SIZE]   


I would write to more people, but I'm in a crunch for time. I love you all! Happy Thanksgiving! 

Damn.. I just realized how depressing You Are My Sunshine actually is:


"The other night dear, as I lay sleeping
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But when I awoke, dear, I was mistaken
So I hung my head and I cried.


You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away


I'll always love you and make you happy,
If you will only say the same.
But if you leave me and love another,
You'll regret it all some day:


You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away


You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But now you've left me and love another;
You have shattered all of my dreams:


You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away


In all my dreams, dear, you seem to leave me
When I awake my poor heart pains.
So when you come back and make me happy
I'll forgive you dear, I'll take all the blame.


You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don't take my sunshine away"


The worst thing is, this describes my love life 100% ;-;

In a shitty, lonely, anxious, and depressed mood.. so if I seem like a bitch when I'm talking to you, sorry.

While everyone's celebrating Thanksgiving I'll be crying in a corner. So that also means I'll be available to rp.

I have been accepted by the emos at school.


Today would be a good day if I still wasn't trying to recover from the shitty events that happened last night. 

Gonna try to sleep away my sorrows.

My heart is still pounding in my chest, yet it's now so numb I wonder how I can feel it. :/  

Just had an anxiety attack and trying to recover. If I suddenly leave rpn, I'm not dead, but my parents probably have taken away my phone and computer because they found out about the 'wounds on my wrist'.. so.. wish me luck...

I'm drowning in my own anxiety.

Should I change my username? It used to be a tribute to RoosterTeeth (Barbara Dunkelman) and RWBY, but now I'm so dead inside that I've descended from my cringy anime ways...

Who wants to join my cripplingly depressed/emo club?

Why is it only okay for animals to be pet? Like I'm a human and I like to be pet.. Is that so wrong?

Where did all of my happiness go?


Only three years ago was I a ray of sunshine, but now I'm a rose wilted with thorns, left in the shadows to die. Some try to water my roots, yet the forced affection only drowns me further. Some try to bathe me in light, but the crude, shining sun burns my petals to ashes. Try as they might, their attempts only fail. For this rose is far beyond gone, and left in it's place is nothing but a thorn covered stem.


In memory of @AccountNotActive (formerly known as RedLikeRoses), may your memory reside within us all.

I hate being alone, yet I push everyone away. I hate when nothing changes, yet I trap myself in an endless daily routine. I hate pretending to be perfect, yet I do so to appease my family. I hate society, yet I always try to conform to it. I hate perfect people, yet I am supposedly one of them.


Everything that I hate has one common factor: me.