The Wretched Hand

[A.I.S.H.A.]

A sun will rise and fall,


And it will never pay mind to anyone around it


The hand on the clock will tick


And never give a thought about the person who looks at it


The Earth give another one of its daily cycles


And everything will simply go on as if nothing ever happened


But you don't move on.


Something tugs you.


Everyone around you keeps walking


But a wretched hand still holds you by the hand


and it never lets go.


And people turn and ask


"Come with us, why do you stay?"


And you don't answer them


You don't tell them that you've been living


Everyday with your heart lost in a sunken abyss


With your mind tethered in chains


And locked away in a rotting prison of darkness


People tell you


"Get over it"


Cause they think you can kiss your wounds away


Like you can go to the doctor and he'll help you get better


Because they don't know the battle you've been fighting


You're an old lion


That's fought for so long


For too long


When you reach out for a hand


And no one is there to grab yours


Cause the only hand there for you


Is the wretched hand, that pulls you down again


People think what you're facing is a wall


But it isn't


It's a valley of pain that you've been trying to climb out of for years


So you hide it


You put on a smile and tell everyone


"I'm alright, I'm fine"


You laugh and play


But you try hard not to drag yourself around


Everyone has limits right?


At one point, we won't be able to get up


After we've fallen down


So as you lay there


With a face in the dirt


You finally say,


"Wake up


Where are you?


Why are you here?


Wake up


Why am I on the floor again?


Why did I fall?


Because they pushed me


They kicked me into the dirt


And left me to die.


No


I won't die


I won't let them win


I won't let my pride give way to everyone else's cruelty


Build walls


Encase my heart in an iron shell


Get up


Lift myself


Up one more time


Put bandages on my cuts


Ice my bruises


Clench my fists


For another round


Take another one to the cheek


Please, hit the other while you're at it


Cause I'll never fall again


I'm tired of falling


I'm tired of shedding tears


I'm tired yelling into a pillow


And staying at the same place while everyone else moves on


I don't want to hear you tell me to move on


Because I've fought ten times as hard to do that


While you've sat in a lounge chair


I was climbing


Climbing out of that valley of pain that I've been stuck in all these years


So the sun will rise and fall


And the clock will keep on ticking


And the Earth will keep on spinning


But I will have cut off that wretched hand


That held me back for so long


So that while everyone walks on with their life


I can finally walk with them."