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if ever just the same
It took the weight of the world to say two simple words and instead of feeling better, she felt worse about her actions. Remorse was a feeling she's almost completely forgotten, lost under the weight of a cold, hardened heart and years of bloodshed out in sea. Even now, her face was impassive to the accusations thrown: a default honed by bitter years. Like reflex, her mind had already started blocking out the pain, numbing and even dulling the gleam in viridian.
She still couldn't bear to look at him. His words, condensed with the pain and betrayal young, naive Isolde bore years ago, was too much for her to take.
She knew if she chose to, she could walk away now and in doing so, she would completely destroy any remaining threads of trust, any possibility of a future, shared with the merman. Stuck between a rock and a hard place, the latter was completely out of the question.
When did Blue start becoming something she couldn't give up?
Her lower lip turned white under the pressure of her teeth. She chewed on it subconsciously as she tried to piece together her words and her thoughts. It was an uncomfortable feeling. It had been far too long since Isolde allowed herself to be vulnerable. Being the Captain of pirate ship with her royal status kept in the dark, she had always been an authoritative figure. Always confident, always stern, always knowing what to do. Even before her life at sea, she had been in charge, looked up to by the eyes of many.
With the burden of the hopes of many, Isolde had never allowed herself to falter or show signs of weakness except before one. One whom she trusted, whom she loved, whom she died for and had died for and now---
It was less of a distant memory and more of a nightmare.
"...I thought you lied to me," she said at last. Voice somber, confession filled with woe. She looked defeated as she sat down before him. Her hands balled in her lap and her shoulders hunched, making her look small and smaller still with her head bowed low like a remorseful child. The sight was so unlike her, it felt wrong to see.
"I thought..."
The words died at her throat and she tasted metal in her mouth. Her teeth had split her lips but it was nothing compared to the crimson which soaked the boards. Realizing that Blue was injured, she winced in guilt. The fancy sash at her waist was quickly but wordlessly tore into strips and she approached Blue carefully to wrap up his bleeding shoulder. His hesitance to let her was granted. She didn't expect his forgiveness, nor his trust or understanding.She knew she didn't deserve it and yet she still chose to hope.
"They took it too far. I failed to protect you," she murmured, troubled and disturbed. The furrow between her brows had been present throughout their whole confrontation.
She still couldn't bear to look at him. His words, condensed with the pain and betrayal young, naive Isolde bore years ago, was too much for her to take.
She knew if she chose to, she could walk away now and in doing so, she would completely destroy any remaining threads of trust, any possibility of a future, shared with the merman. Stuck between a rock and a hard place, the latter was completely out of the question.
When did Blue start becoming something she couldn't give up?
Her lower lip turned white under the pressure of her teeth. She chewed on it subconsciously as she tried to piece together her words and her thoughts. It was an uncomfortable feeling. It had been far too long since Isolde allowed herself to be vulnerable. Being the Captain of pirate ship with her royal status kept in the dark, she had always been an authoritative figure. Always confident, always stern, always knowing what to do. Even before her life at sea, she had been in charge, looked up to by the eyes of many.
With the burden of the hopes of many, Isolde had never allowed herself to falter or show signs of weakness except before one. One whom she trusted, whom she loved, whom she died for and had died for and now---
It was less of a distant memory and more of a nightmare.
"...I thought you lied to me," she said at last. Voice somber, confession filled with woe. She looked defeated as she sat down before him. Her hands balled in her lap and her shoulders hunched, making her look small and smaller still with her head bowed low like a remorseful child. The sight was so unlike her, it felt wrong to see.
"I thought..."
The words died at her throat and she tasted metal in her mouth. Her teeth had split her lips but it was nothing compared to the crimson which soaked the boards. Realizing that Blue was injured, she winced in guilt. The fancy sash at her waist was quickly but wordlessly tore into strips and she approached Blue carefully to wrap up his bleeding shoulder. His hesitance to let her was granted. She didn't expect his forgiveness, nor his trust or understanding.
"They took it too far. I failed to protect you," she murmured, troubled and disturbed. The furrow between her brows had been present throughout their whole confrontation.