Venom Adhamm
No one is ever going to want me
The best thing about life is the hope you'll find love someday
The worst thing about life is when that day never comes
There were so many things I wanted to do
If only I could've met you
I wanted to see the stars with someone
Watch them glisten and reflect in your eyes
Backs on the grass, hands nervous at our sides
Until yours inches over and takes care of mine
All the things we could do
If I only I could've met you
I hoped one day I could wake up to you
A warm bed, a loving gaze
A smiling face, a soothing voice
As you kiss me and ask
"Darling, what should we do today?"
Every day's a treasure when I'm with you
It's not cold anymore, this house is no longer a prison
It's a safe place full of the cherished memories that we've made
The table is always set for two
And I'm so glad that I met you
Then the fantasy is over
The reality soon takes hold
This life claim its toll
I look to my side and no one's there
There's no hand to hold
No soul to love
There's nothing anyone can say
My mind's made up, but I wish it didn't have to be this way
I don't want this
But there is no choice
I don't want this
But I don't know what else to do
How much longer do I need to hold out?
A month, a year, a decade or more?
There's no end to it
No hope in sight
They tell me to just keep going
But I have nowhere to go
I wish I had the strength to hold on for another year or two
I wish I could've kept going until the day I met you
Some things are not meant to be
Even if I held my breath forever, I'd never reach you
There's no one in the world who could love me
I could run the gamut until my eyes bleed and my mouth turns sour
Or I could fix everything here and now, rest and not suffer another hour
I'm scared of the permanence
I'm scared of the void
But if I can't face life
I'll face these fears
We can't fight our fate forever
You'll always get pulled back on the same road
Maybe it was always meant to be this way
The worst thing about life is knowing I'll never meet you
The best thing about life is knowing that I ended it
The worst thing about life is when that day never comes
There were so many things I wanted to do
If only I could've met you
I wanted to see the stars with someone
Watch them glisten and reflect in your eyes
Backs on the grass, hands nervous at our sides
Until yours inches over and takes care of mine
All the things we could do
If I only I could've met you
I hoped one day I could wake up to you
A warm bed, a loving gaze
A smiling face, a soothing voice
As you kiss me and ask
"Darling, what should we do today?"
Every day's a treasure when I'm with you
It's not cold anymore, this house is no longer a prison
It's a safe place full of the cherished memories that we've made
The table is always set for two
And I'm so glad that I met you
Then the fantasy is over
The reality soon takes hold
This life claim its toll
I look to my side and no one's there
There's no hand to hold
No soul to love
There's nothing anyone can say
My mind's made up, but I wish it didn't have to be this way
I don't want this
But there is no choice
I don't want this
But I don't know what else to do
How much longer do I need to hold out?
A month, a year, a decade or more?
There's no end to it
No hope in sight
They tell me to just keep going
But I have nowhere to go
I wish I had the strength to hold on for another year or two
I wish I could've kept going until the day I met you
Some things are not meant to be
Even if I held my breath forever, I'd never reach you
There's no one in the world who could love me
I could run the gamut until my eyes bleed and my mouth turns sour
Or I could fix everything here and now, rest and not suffer another hour
I'm scared of the permanence
I'm scared of the void
But if I can't face life
I'll face these fears
We can't fight our fate forever
You'll always get pulled back on the same road
Maybe it was always meant to be this way
The worst thing about life is knowing I'll never meet you
The best thing about life is knowing that I ended it
