Syntra
Baba Yaga
More blood clogged her mouth, enough of it to fill an entire ocean, it seemed, but oh, she still needed more, more, more! With blood, it was always more, somehow. Perhaps because steel was a soldier's connection to divinity...? Oh yes, yes. Gods demanded their worship, you see, and the best way to worship a sword was to let it do its goddamn job. (Her being the one to bleed was something of a twist, though. A pleasant twist, too-- in a way, it felt like she had had it coming for a long, long time now. A just punishment, like the ones that featured in fairy tales so very often. Concentrated karma, really! Venom had dripped from her tongue, bitter and deadly, and it had tainted everything it had ever touched, and... and losing it struck her as a good thing, all of a sudden. How come it hadn't occurred to her sooner, actually? To save an organism, a gangrenous limb had to be cut off! ...there was no denying that a vicious infection had claimed her tongue, alright. Without it, Iskra might have listened with her whole heart instead of focusing on letting her voice be heard-- without it, she might have not hurt the princess in ways that couldn't be excused. First, my tongue, the pirate thought sardonically, then my hand. How's that for redemption? Fairly unsustainable, even she could see that, but at that point, Iskra was beyond caring. Why should she even try to sustain something like herself? You didn't generally aim to preserve stains, after all. Oh no, no, no. They were to be removed, so they couldn't deface their surroundings any longer! Besides, the prospect was... weirdly satisfying, for some reason. Something about it clicked, like a piece of puzzle she had been trying to place for ages-- the matchiness of it all, undoubtedly. A mutilated soul resting in a mutilated shell? How very, very apt! Surely, nobody could accuse her of being a deceiver if you could look at her and tell with a glance that chunks of her were missing. Large chunks, too.)
It hurt, of course. That pain was a familiar companion as well, though, and so the pirate doubled down-- it was what she deserved, anyway. (The instincts that screamed at her to stop? Oh, their voice was so faint, so faded, that Iskra didn't hear it anymore! Their presence was more assumed than truly felt, really, and happily, the pirate continued to ignore them. What she couldn't ignore, however, was Verity. Verity who, as per usual, lacked the good sense not to stick her nose where it didn't belong. Just, what was she trying to accomplish here?! Did the princess derive joy from thwarting her plans, regardless of their shape? ...too bad, then. Too bad, for her incompetence only played into her hands. Death, you see, could be her gate to victory, too! Many times, Iskra would have to pass through it, but eventually, the merciful fog would fill her head. The memories that could compromise her mission would get lost within, just like the pirate herself, and everything would be... well, not fine, but better than it was. The stain would still be there, though less visible, which had to count for something.)
Struggling was a supremely bad idea, so naturally, that was exactly what Iskra did. As blood streamed down her mouth, she thrashed, and writhed, and tried to shove Verity away-- the exertion only made her breathe harder, which forced the liquid back inside. Except that, whoops, more of it was on the way! (Funny, indeed. On a theoretical level, Iskra knew very well just how much blood was coursing through her veins, but she was never truly aware of it till it gushed out, like a waterfall of rubies. Was it beautiful or terrifying? ...something in between, the pirate thought. Most things in life were.)
Distantly, she could hear Verity's voice-- something about her not wanting to extract any information from her, and blah blah blah. Pleading as well, if she wasn't terribly mistaken. What did it matter, though? The blood had reached her lungs by then, and every breath burned, burned worse than all the fires she had ever lighted, worse than the ghosts of bone blades still stuck in her chest, and--
--convulsing wildly, the pirate collapsed into Verity's arms. Her lips opened, perhaps in an attempt to say something, but the only thing that came out was more blood. Like a waterfall, it continued to flow, without a sign of it stopping! Beautiful, Iskra decided in the end, before the darkness embraced her. It is beautiful, after all. A painter she couldn't be, no, but perhaps she could at least be the canvas-- a masterpiece to be created, admired, spat upon, destroyed, and then resurrected from her own ashes, again and again and again. The image of god, in truth. The Holy Vessel, as always, had had the right idea.
***
If Iskra had to choose a leitmotif phrase that would describe her life, 'as always' would be a good candidate. No, really. A cycle was all it was, without twists, without new developments-- a barren wasteland, devoid of meaning. The same movie played over and over, to the point the tape had caught fire. The Shade not dragging her back, kicking and screaming? That would have been something new, so of course that didn't happen. (Of course, of course, of course. The words sounded like rain in her head, drumming in her ears rhythmically. It wasn't the kind of rain that lulled you to sleep, however-- for that, it was far too annoying, far too disruptive. Gun shots more than rain, now that she thought of it.)
So, just like so many times before, the pirate opened her eyes. She did so slowly, with a certain reluctance, which... huh. Where was she, actually? Somehow, this place didn't feel like Inure. It didn't look like Inure, either, not even after her eyes got used to the new level of brightness, and yes, that should have been alarming. Should have been and wasn't, mostly because knowing that and actually feeling that way were two different things. With her mind still wandering elsewhere, it just... didn't feel as important, you know? Nothing did. "Where," she began nonetheless, her voice hoarse, "where am I?"
It hurt, of course. That pain was a familiar companion as well, though, and so the pirate doubled down-- it was what she deserved, anyway. (The instincts that screamed at her to stop? Oh, their voice was so faint, so faded, that Iskra didn't hear it anymore! Their presence was more assumed than truly felt, really, and happily, the pirate continued to ignore them. What she couldn't ignore, however, was Verity. Verity who, as per usual, lacked the good sense not to stick her nose where it didn't belong. Just, what was she trying to accomplish here?! Did the princess derive joy from thwarting her plans, regardless of their shape? ...too bad, then. Too bad, for her incompetence only played into her hands. Death, you see, could be her gate to victory, too! Many times, Iskra would have to pass through it, but eventually, the merciful fog would fill her head. The memories that could compromise her mission would get lost within, just like the pirate herself, and everything would be... well, not fine, but better than it was. The stain would still be there, though less visible, which had to count for something.)
Struggling was a supremely bad idea, so naturally, that was exactly what Iskra did. As blood streamed down her mouth, she thrashed, and writhed, and tried to shove Verity away-- the exertion only made her breathe harder, which forced the liquid back inside. Except that, whoops, more of it was on the way! (Funny, indeed. On a theoretical level, Iskra knew very well just how much blood was coursing through her veins, but she was never truly aware of it till it gushed out, like a waterfall of rubies. Was it beautiful or terrifying? ...something in between, the pirate thought. Most things in life were.)
Distantly, she could hear Verity's voice-- something about her not wanting to extract any information from her, and blah blah blah. Pleading as well, if she wasn't terribly mistaken. What did it matter, though? The blood had reached her lungs by then, and every breath burned, burned worse than all the fires she had ever lighted, worse than the ghosts of bone blades still stuck in her chest, and--
--convulsing wildly, the pirate collapsed into Verity's arms. Her lips opened, perhaps in an attempt to say something, but the only thing that came out was more blood. Like a waterfall, it continued to flow, without a sign of it stopping! Beautiful, Iskra decided in the end, before the darkness embraced her. It is beautiful, after all. A painter she couldn't be, no, but perhaps she could at least be the canvas-- a masterpiece to be created, admired, spat upon, destroyed, and then resurrected from her own ashes, again and again and again. The image of god, in truth. The Holy Vessel, as always, had had the right idea.
***
If Iskra had to choose a leitmotif phrase that would describe her life, 'as always' would be a good candidate. No, really. A cycle was all it was, without twists, without new developments-- a barren wasteland, devoid of meaning. The same movie played over and over, to the point the tape had caught fire. The Shade not dragging her back, kicking and screaming? That would have been something new, so of course that didn't happen. (Of course, of course, of course. The words sounded like rain in her head, drumming in her ears rhythmically. It wasn't the kind of rain that lulled you to sleep, however-- for that, it was far too annoying, far too disruptive. Gun shots more than rain, now that she thought of it.)
So, just like so many times before, the pirate opened her eyes. She did so slowly, with a certain reluctance, which... huh. Where was she, actually? Somehow, this place didn't feel like Inure. It didn't look like Inure, either, not even after her eyes got used to the new level of brightness, and yes, that should have been alarming. Should have been and wasn't, mostly because knowing that and actually feeling that way were two different things. With her mind still wandering elsewhere, it just... didn't feel as important, you know? Nothing did. "Where," she began nonetheless, her voice hoarse, "where am I?"