ambiguities
passionate lurker
MASON ANTONIO AVANA
Mason blinked back, stunned for a moment as he listened to her words. She had been right. Where was I when she needed me the most? He had been at home, locked inside his room downing himself in his dad's expensive liquor, wishing for everything to get better. He couldn't visit her, knowing his mother had been just a few floor above them. He couldn't kneel beside Thea, overjoyed that she was alive and she'd be out in no time, while his mother laid there unaware of her future. Every minute she stayed in that hospital was another chance that she wouldn't ever seem to wake up, another chance that she would end up dying there. But he couldn't sit in that hospital with a smile on his face, happy that the girl he loved was awake, while his mother may never get that chance. It felt like he was betraying her, and he didn't deserve to be that happy.
"I should have been there, I'm sorry for not being there," He paused, swallowing. "Seeing you in that bed was heart-wrenching enough, knowing you were going to be alive, it was a relief and I don't think I've ever been so happy in my life." He bit his lip, sighing as he continued. "I felt like I was betraying her in a way. You were alive, which I'm thankful for. But she's fighting for her life." He let silence wash over them for a moment, before clearing his throat. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I owe you much more than a sorry. I was stupid, I still am stupid for continuously hurting you and you by all means have the right to hate me, but I really am sorry."