'That is what you keep telling yourself.' Jaime did not say it, for he knew there was no arguing with a stone, but his eyes said it all. He kept his gaze on her, never shifting away, gentle but at the same time, more or less judgemental. There were many things that he wished to say to her then, but he knew he could not.
Not while she was still open and vulerable.
He knew he was afraid. He saw it in her eyes and could not help but pity her for that fear that she felt. In the middle of war, while everyone was leaning on her and hoping for her frigidity to steel their own hearts. It was a selfish act, but one could argue that she was even more selfish from locking herself on the inside and refusing any help in the form of affection. She even refused help from her own self, which irked Jaime to the bones, yet there was no convincing to be done.
His lips parted to protest her being weak, when he caught the glimpse of a tear before she closed her eyes. It struck him, the sight of it, and he shot up from his position to pull her to him. One hand moved behind her head to press it to his chest, whilst the other wrapped around her shoulders. Even after such a long time without training, he was far widen than her and he could sense her fragility which she hid so well beneath that skin tinged by pallor.
"No, you cannot be weak, and neither can I," Jaime agreed with her through a murmur, "but feigned remissness will do nothing but weaken you more. You keep your walls up and do not act when it is attacked. Your ignorance will, one day, have it break." It was a path that he did not wish to follow himself yet saw it in so many others.
Thunders boomed near them as the skies threatened to unleash their wrath. It had stopped raining during the day, but now he could hear drops breaking against the windows of his room. He did not feel as tired as Lenore looked and he knew there was no forcing her to sleep. She would, perhaps, warm up and doze off by herself if she held her long enough. It was what he had used to do to Caireann in her childhood, whenever she refused to go to bed.
All that he could do was to offer a safe haven for a while. Let her cry, scream, shout, repine and, eventually, recoup.
Not while she was still open and vulerable.
He knew he was afraid. He saw it in her eyes and could not help but pity her for that fear that she felt. In the middle of war, while everyone was leaning on her and hoping for her frigidity to steel their own hearts. It was a selfish act, but one could argue that she was even more selfish from locking herself on the inside and refusing any help in the form of affection. She even refused help from her own self, which irked Jaime to the bones, yet there was no convincing to be done.
His lips parted to protest her being weak, when he caught the glimpse of a tear before she closed her eyes. It struck him, the sight of it, and he shot up from his position to pull her to him. One hand moved behind her head to press it to his chest, whilst the other wrapped around her shoulders. Even after such a long time without training, he was far widen than her and he could sense her fragility which she hid so well beneath that skin tinged by pallor.
"No, you cannot be weak, and neither can I," Jaime agreed with her through a murmur, "but feigned remissness will do nothing but weaken you more. You keep your walls up and do not act when it is attacked. Your ignorance will, one day, have it break." It was a path that he did not wish to follow himself yet saw it in so many others.
Thunders boomed near them as the skies threatened to unleash their wrath. It had stopped raining during the day, but now he could hear drops breaking against the windows of his room. He did not feel as tired as Lenore looked and he knew there was no forcing her to sleep. She would, perhaps, warm up and doze off by herself if she held her long enough. It was what he had used to do to Caireann in her childhood, whenever she refused to go to bed.
All that he could do was to offer a safe haven for a while. Let her cry, scream, shout, repine and, eventually, recoup.