RpNation

You aren't terrible, just flawed like the rest of us.   What matters is that you try, and if you fail, learn from it so the next try is better.

But I always end up doing it, history keeps on repeating itself for me

That's part of being human (or cyborg, I guess).  We're good at mistakes.

I can't afford to make anymore mistakes, my friends get hurt because of it

Well, I can't speak for them, but what I know of you from here tells me you're a good person, worth being friends with regardless.  Of course I don't know any specifics, but I know I'm more likely to forgive someone who hurts me by accident than someone who does it on purpose.  Much more.


The hardest part may be forgiving yourself.

You're right

I second what Kerri said, you're not a terrible person. Everyone makes mistakes, you just have to forgive yourself.