RegalWindstar

I'm lonely, I want someone to talk to and hugs...I want lots of hugs.

hello fellow kpop fan

I meet a fellow kpop fan, I follow  


Also your banner freaked me out for a moment, I thought it was a real animal lol..

I can replace a position in my circle


I cannot replace a position in my heart.


So in a way everyone is replaceable but also irreplaceable


You always will take a piece of my heart with you I will never get back if we end on good terms.

When it comes to me, tell me the words I NEED to hear..not the words I want to hear. Even if what I need to hear is painful.


If it brings a storm please don't run from it, ride it out until its calmed and hold me. Never leave me to fight the storm alone.


Thats the type of friends I can rely on...

Does anyone have an endless supply of hugs I can have?


Because i've learnt something very upsetting today...


Though im not gonna say what out of respect of privacy...


but..I really could use a hug or two..or a thousand.

Some of my friends have been kind of cold to me lately... I didn't even do anything to them.


But they don't talk to me anymore and when I approach them they don't respond to me.


Its not like I can question their behaviour because people get upset when I bring things up like that.


They always claim they aren't doing it when I bring up such things even tho they are and it just ends up an argument.


(and in some cases a loss of friends) so..nothing I can do but keep to myself how i feel about it all.

*screams for all eternity* WHY DO I HAVE TERRIBLE LUCK ALL THE TIME EXCEPT FOR WITH MMOS?! what kind of crap is this? omg.

My birthday is almost over just 3 more hours... 


Thanks for the birthday wishes to the very few who said "Happy birthday" 


Sadly a handful of ppl which most weren't able to spend any real time with me does not stop my birthday from being yet again a giant disappointment


since 280 or so people forgot it. My plans with my family got broken that was promised. Oh I also got hated on today, lectured, and my boyfriend didn't show up..again.


But I got presents oh..wow just what I wanted presents yeah not spending time with people I love and care about but..objects make it so much better. (Sarcasm if you can't tell)


So thanks 2016 for not giving me atleast a nice birthday after all the crap you put me through this year.


I give up on birthdays, apparently spending time together or having ppl remember when Its all I talk about (besides kpop) in December leading up to it, is too much to ask for.


Doesn't matter I help people with all sorts of problems..nope.


Sorry for being a downer guys, I'm just fed up and genuinely..hurt.


I even seen a few friends playing on games and having fun together and they knew it was my birthday today, I told them yesterday... Didn't matter to them.


The people who seemed to care the most are five people, one stayed by my side all day, three stayed by my side half the day talking to me


two of them being me and my mom the other three being some of my best friends.


The day started out happy but...quickly turned to crap..really..really painful crap.

Why is it now thats its my birthday today it seems like everyone is trying 10x harder to kill me with my kpop biases?

I'm going to be gone next week for the week. I don't know where, don't know the exact date or time. Even if there turns out to be internet there I prob won't be on it (except if I remember to bring passwords to watch dramas and keep up with my twitter so I don't lose followers) Good thing is apparently I can have coffee there YAY!

12 days until my birthday...so..anyone wanna slow down time so it doesn't come as quick? anyone? no? gosh dammit

I'm drunk..on Exhaustion...wow I had a hard time even spelling that XD


I need to sleep soon...but that requires getting up and brushing my teeth...can I just sleep at my desk?  XD

That time when..you think you prob made a fool of yourself bc you're tired AF and rambling.


So you try to act calm but inside you're just dying and freaking out


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a little gift from me lol

I'm responding to what I can right now. I'm multitasking here and am in the middle of planning with someone.


So if I don't get to every reply today thats why.

Now I'm gonna go back off RPN


But not before I leave a song I love here


Two of my fav singers..its so good.

*looks at the replies I have to make* Well..this is going to be a long idfk how many days. Definetly not doing anything tonight tho. I'm not up for much longer.


ah I wish I could shake this mood I've been in for a couple days now. I don't even know what this mood is but


mmm it makes you feel kind of drained and everything feels grey and boring. Yes FEELS grey. Its...not easy to explain.


Just...I dunno. Meh it'll pass, hopefully soon I dunno if it'll effect my writing. I hope not tho it usually does writers block me.


Mmm... I need to see my Muse~

omfg...help..someone hold me


Omfg OMFG OMFG OMFG


My heart.. I can't omg my heart...my heart


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How am I to live when Seventeen..when Jeonghan be doing this to me?


Boy..come on seriously?


Like all of seventeen look fine AF in their promotions


But Jeonghan..oh my god jeonghan my poor heart..why? why?


I want to live man! i want to live!


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