Dammit... i was doing... so fucking good... and... and I was sent a video... and.. the... fuck... I miss her... I miss her so fucking badly and it hurts without her here... I wish... I wish I could have tried to help... I wish I could have saved her and it hurts... to know that I could have... and I didnt....
Today they are collecting 9th grade macbooks, so I will try to respond to you guys as much as I can before I have to switch over to my Kindle. Hopefully I can remember what I changed my password to >.>
A year ago today is the day that I was finally taken out of an abusive household. Today is my Snatch-a-versary. I wanted to say how much I utterly appreciate my grandmother and even though he can't be here with me, I want to dedicate this to my grandfather. Shortly after the court case he passed away. And he was the father I never had.
I miss you, Poppy. Thank you for saving my life <3
So... I've been having a bit of an easier day. I still hurt but it's kind of... okay, I guess? I'm listening to songs that she loved, but I'm not crying. I think... I think it's time to move on. Of course, I won't be able to really move on. Yeah, I have a boyfriend, and he's helping me a lot with this, but she's still going to have a huge chunk of my heart.
Hey baby girl. I love you. Save a spot for me, okay?
Day two after finding out she died... God it hurts so fucking bad...
I miss you... and when you died you killed a part of me too... Don't you understand I need you here? I need you to be able to call me again, to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay... I fucking need you and it hurts so bad... So fucking bad... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=___l8Y21yNM
If there are those that need a good cry... this song does it for me. It hurts so much without her here and I wish so fucking badly I could have been with her in those final moments... but alas, I was not.
I miss you baby girl. And I know you're watching over me. I love you so fucking much. I hope you're doing better up there in heaven... save a spot for me, okay? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJEP5sWuDi8&list=PL4