Nobelia
Junior Member
Oftentimes, I find myself becoming stressed out in regards to role play related things. For example, I sometimes realize that I mentally beat myself up over assembling the perfect character profile, RP storyline, etc. I worry about some of the most simple of things: Is this good enough? Why does my character feel bland? What else is my character missing? If I don't like my character, how could anyone else? What did I do wrong? Can I actively participate in this RP? What if I just end up gradually falling out of this RP? What if my (RP) idea that I originally felt to be intriguing, actually turns out to be stale? What am I worried about? Failing? In that case, failing at what?
I could go on, and on about these thoughts that spin whirlwinds inside of my head. The end result is usually me feeling incredibly drained and lacking any confidence in writing or role playing. Many times, I just push myself to produce words through my keyboard because I do very much enjoy role playing, but I'm always mentally fussing about what could happen. Or, what could be an end result. Personally, I feel that some of these thoughts are low key, a side effect of my anxiety. I suppose, some of my thoughts could be interpreted as some strange form of writer's block. Either way, it just bums and frustrates me that something that I know I love to do, can also make me incredibly miserable. I know that role playing is just a game, or hobby--yet being an uncontrollable perfectionist never fails to drive me nuts.
Has anyone else had similar experiences? If so, how do you react to, or deal with them? What suggestions would you give me to fix my problem(s)?
I could go on, and on about these thoughts that spin whirlwinds inside of my head. The end result is usually me feeling incredibly drained and lacking any confidence in writing or role playing. Many times, I just push myself to produce words through my keyboard because I do very much enjoy role playing, but I'm always mentally fussing about what could happen. Or, what could be an end result. Personally, I feel that some of these thoughts are low key, a side effect of my anxiety. I suppose, some of my thoughts could be interpreted as some strange form of writer's block. Either way, it just bums and frustrates me that something that I know I love to do, can also make me incredibly miserable. I know that role playing is just a game, or hobby--yet being an uncontrollable perfectionist never fails to drive me nuts.
Has anyone else had similar experiences? If so, how do you react to, or deal with them? What suggestions would you give me to fix my problem(s)?
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