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唯一無二。。。と少し奇妙な!
fml, i dont even know why im writing this. i guess i really just need a breather. so here we go i guess.
im gonna start with sunday night, of april 30th (recent ig), the day i went to skateworld in gresham, oregon with my friends. jillian's family is like my second family to me. ive known them for the longest time and we are 100% comfortable with eachother. suddenly, over the intercom, jillian's name comes up. "from devin, to jillian... 'i saw you once, and now im in love'"
of course i freaked out because this was hilarious! she got a rose too! i was so jealous. i wished my boyfriend would get me a rose. lmao im joking. but someone in that arena was in love with her!
turns out some really cute brunette was trying to hook jill up with his black friend, devin. i thought devin was exceptionally cute, also. i found myself in deep envy.
i was happy for jill too! the reason why im putting this in here is to come soon
so now we go back further to friday night, april 28. this was my to-be-aunt's birthday party. me and jill were also hanging out there again. we stayed until 23:30* or something like that. (*or 11:30PM to some americans). in that course of the night, i was exceptionally drunk. my family is 75% mexican, and we had those DELICIOUS corona beers from mexico. i had to get wasted off of it. me and jillian decided to grab 6 bottles, three for each, and drink them all at once in the back of the house. she was barely affected by the alcohol, but me? i reeked of it, and i was completely shit-headed. i lost every piece of anxiety i had. i decked out my uncle's coworker's car because he was late, took 70% of the candy from the broken piñata because i laid on it, and then not to mention i stuffed 3 people's faces in the cake. now im lucky i dont have a permit, because we went home with my mom tired, and me drunk.
saturday morning, april 29th, i had a sleepover with jillian, and i am COMPLETELY hungover. my head hurts, im sore, i feel like im gonna puke. but you know, it felt good to be honest.
jill had extra beer she took, and while she was asleep, i gave myself a few rounds and went back to bed.
i wake back up at 12:00 (noon) and jill has been trying to get me awake for hours. she saw the empty beer cans on the roof.
i just need to rant tbh. im sick and tired of people telling me what to do and what not to do. i dont like being bossed around
i dont know why i decided to drink. i dont know why i decided to be like this. i dont even know where to begin on all my points of stress.
all my life i had no dad, and it seems like everyone is out to get me. i cant do this anymore, to be honest. ive started drinking, and being... active (in that way) with my boyfriend. im 14! why am i doing this? i have no goddamn clue
sorry for the long post, heres a potato
im gonna start with sunday night, of april 30th (recent ig), the day i went to skateworld in gresham, oregon with my friends. jillian's family is like my second family to me. ive known them for the longest time and we are 100% comfortable with eachother. suddenly, over the intercom, jillian's name comes up. "from devin, to jillian... 'i saw you once, and now im in love'"
of course i freaked out because this was hilarious! she got a rose too! i was so jealous. i wished my boyfriend would get me a rose. lmao im joking. but someone in that arena was in love with her!
turns out some really cute brunette was trying to hook jill up with his black friend, devin. i thought devin was exceptionally cute, also. i found myself in deep envy.
i was happy for jill too! the reason why im putting this in here is to come soon
so now we go back further to friday night, april 28. this was my to-be-aunt's birthday party. me and jill were also hanging out there again. we stayed until 23:30* or something like that. (*or 11:30PM to some americans). in that course of the night, i was exceptionally drunk. my family is 75% mexican, and we had those DELICIOUS corona beers from mexico. i had to get wasted off of it. me and jillian decided to grab 6 bottles, three for each, and drink them all at once in the back of the house. she was barely affected by the alcohol, but me? i reeked of it, and i was completely shit-headed. i lost every piece of anxiety i had. i decked out my uncle's coworker's car because he was late, took 70% of the candy from the broken piñata because i laid on it, and then not to mention i stuffed 3 people's faces in the cake. now im lucky i dont have a permit, because we went home with my mom tired, and me drunk.
saturday morning, april 29th, i had a sleepover with jillian, and i am COMPLETELY hungover. my head hurts, im sore, i feel like im gonna puke. but you know, it felt good to be honest.
jill had extra beer she took, and while she was asleep, i gave myself a few rounds and went back to bed.
i wake back up at 12:00 (noon) and jill has been trying to get me awake for hours. she saw the empty beer cans on the roof.
i just need to rant tbh. im sick and tired of people telling me what to do and what not to do. i dont like being bossed around
i dont know why i decided to drink. i dont know why i decided to be like this. i dont even know where to begin on all my points of stress.
all my life i had no dad, and it seems like everyone is out to get me. i cant do this anymore, to be honest. ive started drinking, and being... active (in that way) with my boyfriend. im 14! why am i doing this? i have no goddamn clue
sorry for the long post, heres a potato