Janice
Single mom, life coach; gotta write though
"Tori, can I ask you something?"
"Course you can, what's wrong?"
"Chris and I need to pick a guardian; we were hoping you'd be her Godmother; in case-- well if something did happen, she'd have someone who loved her to take care of her."
"Oh, yes. Of course, I could do that for you guys!"
"Thanks sis, the dedication's at 2 o'clock."
"I know, I'll be there."
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A million years ago, that's how far time had seemed to have past, what was it actually, a little over two years? Who could be bothered to count. Victoria Everly had promised her older sister Vivian and her husband Chris that if anything should happen she would take care of Mallory. When she made the promise she believed that she would, and it wasn't that she thought that she couldn't, but there was no sense of realism to the statement when she had agreed to it. Vivian and Chris led perfect lives, and Mallory was simply just one more thing to mirror their perfect marriage with their perfect jobs, they had a blessed life, and she was happy to be around her sister, so why wouldn't she have agreed?
Because never in a million years did she believe that she would actually die. That they would both die. Mallory had been at a babysitter's when it happened; thank the Lord that she hadn't been hurt.
What kind of parent would Victoria be? She didn't know. While her sister and brother in law were dying on the highway Victoria was drunk at a club; lost in the frivolous life style that came with being a young person. She wasn't hurting anyone, she was being as responsible as she could manage, but she was in a very different place then what was going to be required of her.
It was five a.m. when the call came in from the hospital, Victoria took a cab; she couldn't tell if she was hungover or still maybe drunk from the night before. Sitting in that hospital room, listening to machines beeping and providing life support, it was physically painful. Chris was dead; and Victoria (who only believed in God in times of need) had prayed harder then she ever had that her sister would recover. But Vivian didn't. She let go, and suddenly the responsibilities of the world came crashing down.
Victoria was a functioning adult, she was more than capable of taking care of a child, she owned a car, she had a nice apartment, she had a decent job. Yet she had never thought about fitting a child into the chaos of her life. Now she had too.
"Mommy," Mallory was quiet, her eyes were always watching, people tried to tell them that they were lucky she was so young, that it wouldn't hurt so much when she was older. Victoria knew better, Mallory was hurting just as much as Victoria was.
"Yes, those are mommy's pictures," Victoria managed to keep her voice from breaking as she handed the toddler one of the photo albums. In all of the chaos it seemed to be the only consistent part of the routine, sitting and looking at photos. Mallory's baby photos, pictures of her with her parents, pictures of the sister's growing up, any of the pictures. It provided comfort for both of them, but not today. Victoria was sitting at the dining table trying her best to sort through massive amounts of paperwork; managing the bills and daycare costs was a daily battle. Thankfully there was supposed to be a trust fund set up for Mallory's expenses, which Victoria just had to provide proof of, but the life insurance company was taking its sweet time in sorting that all out, and for the time being Victoria was frantically trying to make ends meet. She had a good job; she worked at a dance school, but the way things were going she was going to have to quit; most daycare's willing to watch Mallory refused too accommodate her hours. It was a losing battle that Victoria no longer had the energy to fight.
Victoria forced herself to her feet and stumbled into the kitchen, navigating toys on the floor that really needed to be picked up; but ignoring it for next time. She quickly cutting up an apple for a snack for Mallory. She was grateful for many things in the chaos though, one of which was that Mallory was a wonderful kid, she listened well, spoke fairly clearly, and was almost potty trained. Small victories the two were winning. Victoria put the food down on the table next to Mallory, offering a small smile and a kiss on the forehead.
"Aun'ie Ria," the girl spoke quietly, "Water."
"Please?" Victoria prompted. Mallory kept her head down, finally rubbing her tummy, baby sign language for please, it was good enough for today. Victoria returned to the kitchen, it was full of dishes. The dishwasher had broke, and it was a struggle to catch up, she hadn't caught up since it broke three weeks ago. After failing to locate a sippy cup Victoria grabbed a regular glass, it would have to do for today. She filled it with water, rushing her way back to her niece in the living room. She mis stepped over the toys, this time losing her balance and falling into the wall; hitting head first.
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"I help, I help." Victoria groaned, trying to place herself, she was lying on her back looking up at the ceiling, but she wasn't in her bedroom. What was Mallory saying? "Aun'ie Ria, okay?" Victoria tried to push herself up on her forearms but her head felt like it was screaming in pain, she groaned lying back down, managing to raise her hand to her head. Her forehead was wet; why? Oh that was right, the water. Except water wasn't sticky. She tried to focus her eyes on her finger tips, they were stained with red; she still couldn't connect what was wrong.
"Mallory, get Auntie's phone..." She managed quietly. The agreeable toddler was back in a moment, holding it out to her. Victoria started dialling 911, unsure of what to do.
"Paw 'trol?" Mallory asked hopefully.
Victoria shook her head, "Not yet." She managed before an operator picked up.