soular
alien sympathizer
TJ | Trev
18
November 13
Scorpio
Cis Male
Closeted Homosexual
The Judas
5'10
165 lbs.
Dark brown and curly.
Piercing, bright blue
TJ takes very good care of himself, not really understanding why some guys don't appreciate the art of grooming. Although he'd never admit this to anyone, he is extremely self-conscious. This manifests itself in his posture, and how he never looks people in the eye despite how cocky he is acting. TJ has a fairly eccentric wardrobe, and doesn't really put much thought into what he's wearing so long as it isn't too tacky.
Freedom | Being successful | Having a large, loving family
Buried deep underneath his lies and suffocating slowly but surely.
Condoms just in case.
Black licorice for when he wants to snack.
An extra hoodie because they always go missing.
Flask with vodka because he doesn't trust party drinks.
A book so he can pretend to be cultured.
Trash because he is too lazy to throw it away.
Phone Charger (portable and regular)
We are nothing more or less than what we choose to reveal.
Laughs when extremely nervous | Runs his fingers through his hair... Constantly | Lies for no reason (compulsive liar)
TJ is the only child to his extremely strict, controlling, and paranoid parents. They meant well of course, but to a young child it was very damaging. Their son constantly feared punishment and as a result, turned to lies as a way to protect himself. After a while, the lies began to spiral out of control, and he was no longer able to differentiate between lies and the truth. To one person he was a homeless boy who could only eat scraps from the dumpsters behind fancy restaurants. To the next, he was the rich kid with parents who were never home. He had no reason to lie anymore, it just became an unbreakable habit that masked who he truly was.
Over time TJ grew increasingly depressed. He felt bare, like a shell with nothing inside to keep him warm. To fix this, TJ turned to people. He faked love to feel wanted, he made up stories so that people would feel sorry for him. Of course, this meant that eventually people stopped believing him. They stopped trusting him. TJ knows that what he does is wrong, that he shouldn't use people and cast them aside when he is finished with them. But at this point he was already too far gone.
It didn't help that he discovered his feelings for other men. When he first realized, he was absolutely terrified and disgusted with himself. TJ spiraled into a deep pit of depression and despair unlike before. He started drinking, smoking, and having sex with random girls just to try to prove to himself that he's not a homosexual. Nothing has worked so far, but he refuses to outwardly talk about the fire raging constantly within him.
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