Realistic or Modern 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙮 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙨 𝙥𝙖𝙘𝙩 -- 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙨𝙝𝙚𝙚𝙩𝙨

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• Why are they in hospital and how long have they been there?
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• Likes (3+)
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• Personality (5 positives, 5 negatives)
• Fears
• Love language (click me!)
• Personality type (click me!)
• 3 significant moments in their life that has shaped them to who they are today
• Significant relationships
• Anything extra you wish to add

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[ I ] Follow all RPNation rules. Respect everyone, fade to black for erotic content or extreme gore, and be mature with sensitive matters.

[ II ] There are THREE positions available. It’s NOT first-come, first-serve. Characters will be accepted based on who will make great additions to our plotlines. Roles are not gender locked, but I am looking for one other male and two females. Also, characters to be young adult (19 - 30 years old)

[ III ] There are no set roles but rather set role keywords. For example, if the keyword was 'the image', your character could be someone who likes to take photographs or could be someone who has a popular image to uphold (a celebrity of sorts). If you are struggling with ideas for role keywords, please let me know and I can help you!

[ IV ] Discord for OOC is a requirement

[ V ] Semi-literate at least. Therefore, expectations on posts are approximately 500 words (details and dialogue).

[ VI ] Once or twice a week in the in-character thread. This is open to discussion once all applicants have been approved as personal and real-life is a top priority

[ VII ] WARNING: THERE WILL BE A LOT OF ANGST + TRIGGER WARNINGS. IF YOU DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE, THEN MAYBE THIS ROLEPLAY ISN'T FOR YOU

[ IX ] Each day/chapter of the roleplay will be based off a photo prompt. For example; the first prompt could be ‘self’. Therefore, the plot will surround the whole concept of the characters perhaps introducing themselves. The second prompt for the next chapter could be ‘animal’. Therefore, the plot will surround or include something to do with animals; it could be a character gives the person they like a fluffy toy dog from the gift shop.

[ X ] If you have any questions, please free to ask :3.

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[div class=infobubble]teo anthony jones

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[/div] He has dark chocolate brown irises which tend to look blacker depending on the light. His eyes are almond shaped with a mono lid and aegyo sal presence. Like his hair, Teo sometimes likes to experiment with his eyes and can sometimes be found wearing coloured eye contacts. [div class=top]

hair

[/div] Teo has natural black silky locks thanks to his Korean genes. However, within the last few weeks as he feels like he’s down spiralling, he has decided to bleach the crap out of his hair (which, admittedly, has probably killed his hair). Because everyone knows that with new hair comes a new season, right? [/div] [/div][/div]

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[/div] Teo stands at 179 cms (5’11”) and weighs a healthy 65 kilos. He has a warm ivory skin complexion thanks to his Umma’s Korean genes and a fast metabolism which helps to maintain his mesomorph body build. To avoid going home, Teo is often seen walking or running around town which helps to maintain his exercise routine. [div class=top]

features

[/div] Two of Teo’s most distinguishing features would have to be his freckle, which is located under his left eye (people often think that it’s fake or makeup, and that he’s placed it on there for the looks – but it’s real!), and his jawline which he’s pretty proud of. [/div][/div][/div]

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[/div] He has various scars across his body. They were either inflicted by Angus (his father) or self-inflicted. He has a scar on the back of his head (covered by his hair, thankfully) from when Angus knocked him against the corner of the countertop. He has various scattered scars on his back and torso from all the fights he managed to get himself involved in (with either Angus or boys from school). Finally, he has a burn mark on his left forearm from when he purposely burnt himself with a lighter to see if he could feel anything (as he felt so numb on the inside). [div class=top]

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[/div] Once Teo turned eighteen, he went straight to the tattoo shop. Since then, he has collected a handful of tattoos. He has his Umma’s birthday in roman numerals on his right arm, a rose on his left shoulder (his Umma’s favourite flower) and a crown above his left elbow on the inside of his arm. He wants to get more in the future just because he likes the way tattoos look on people. [/div][/div][/div]

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[/div] Teo isn’t one to stick to just one style. He likes to move from different types of styles but does primarily like street fashion the most. He also really enjoys anything that he can feel super comfortable in. Nothing worse than feeling like you can’t move around in your own clothes. What he wears generally depends on how he feels on the day. If he’s loving life and has a bright outcome for the day, he would generally wear bright clothing. But if he’s feeling a bit down, he wears more dark tones.

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ailments

[/div] Multiple suicide attempts and suicidal tendencies – As a result of abuse from his father and years of depression, Teo has attempted to commit suicide three times in total. Once through an opioid overdose, another through trying to drown himself at the local swimming pool and his lasted time, trying to overdose on ibuprofen. For both overdoses, he had his stomach pumped and kept under a watchful eye at the hospital. When he tried to drown himself, he told the lifeguard who saved him that it had been an accident and he must’ve just swallowed too much water – to which he was asked to just rest in the medical bay for a bit before going home. Due to his suicidal tendencies, Teo’s spontaneous actions can almost be life-threatening (such as walking out in front of oncoming traffic)

Insomnia – Since his Umma’s death, Teo has found it exceedingly hard to sleep at night. His mind races and he doesn’t feel safe to sleep in his own room. Often he will go to parties just so he can get drunk and crash at other people’s houses (because if he came home drunk, Angus would have a field day and a half). During his stay for his latest suicide attempt, the doctors ended up prescribing him sleeping medication which he could have only in the hospital.

Opioid reliance – After being prescribed opioids for his broken bones, Teo discovered that he liked the way he felt on them. They made him feel free and happy – something he had been craving for a very long time. During his countless hospital visits, he has always found a way to score some opioids whether it’s through paying off an intern or by means of stealing. He has at least once a day, preferably at night to help him sleep. [/div][/div][/div] [div class=3rd]

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[/div] Campaigner - ENFP-A Teo is a true free spirit. He is often the life of the party. He is charming, independent, energetic and compassionate. As a sociable people-pleaser, he is shaped by his intuitive quality which allows him to read between lines with curiosity and energy. He tends to see life as a big, complex puzzle where everything is connected, seeing it through a prism of emotion, compassion and mysticism, and is always looking for a deeper meaning.

However, he needs to be careful. Teo often relies too much on his intuition, assumes or anticipates too much about his friend’s motivations, can misread the signals and frustrate plans that a more straightforward approach would have made simple. This kind of social stress is a bugbear that keeps this harmony-focused boy awake at night. He is very emotional and sensitive, and when he steps on someone’s toes, they both feel it. [div class=header]

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[/div] Curious – When it comes to new ideas, Teo isn't interested in brooding – he wants to go out and experience things, and don’t hesitate to step out of his comfort zones to do so. He is imaginative and open-minded, seeing all things as part of a big, mysterious puzzle called life.

Cheerful - Teo just wants everyone to be happy. Therefore, to ensure everyone is happy, he tries to spread cheerfulness around. He often encourages to search within to find things that make you feel grateful and appreciative of what you have and is often awed by the simple wonders of life.

Extroverted - As he never wants to go home to face his father, Teo has used his gift as an extrovert to become a ‘people person’. He finds everything invigorating and presents himself with a lively, excitable persona before others.

Spontaneous - You want to go for a McDonalds run at three in the morning and then maybe some skinny dipping afterwards? Teo is your guy. “Living life on the edge” is his motto; living life as if every day is your last.

Very Popular and Friendly – All this adaptability and spontaneity comes together to form a person who is approachable, interesting and exciting, with a cooperative and altruistic spirit and friendly, empathetic disposition. Teo get along with pretty much everyone, and his circles of friends stretch far and wide [div class=header]

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[/div] Hyperactive - Sometimes he’s unable to discriminate what he actually needs and finds it hard to say “no” to himself, throwing himself into constant activities rather than dealing with any emotional or personal issues.

Adventerous - Due to an increasing restlessness, Teo often wants to have more options and choices available for him. Therefore, he becomes more adventurous as he seeks for these options. However, in doing so, he become less focused as he constantly seeks for new experiences and things.

Witty - Teo tends to have a habit of doing and saying things before he filters them out in his head. Because of this, he is known for his witty, wise-cracking remarks and can be seen as someone who spends a lot of time “performing”. [div class=header]

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[/div] Addiction - While being spontaneous is one of Teo’s positive traits, one of his negative traits is his impulsiveness. The difference is that with his impulsiveness, he tends to not know when to stop nor process if it’s a good idea to do any of it to begin with. Because of this trait, he has been known to take up addictive tendencies.

Mood swings - With the mentioned addictions, he has been known for his rather… unattractive mood swings. He’ll be joking with you one moment and the next… well… You don’t really want to be near him.

Anxious/Panicked - When Teo feels like his energy and health is completely spent, he often falls into panic and despair. This causes his self-destructive behaviourisms and dangerous impulsive behaviour. In a serious situation, he likes to think that he can keep calm and collected. But when his body is under stress, he tends to freak out.

Overthink Things – Teo doesn’t take things at face value – he looks for underlying motives in even the simplest things. It’s not uncommon for him to lose a bit of sleep asking himself why someone did what they did, what it might mean, and what to do about it.

Highly Emotional – While emotional expression is healthy and natural, with Teo even viewing it as a core part of his identity, it can come out strongly enough to cause problems for him. Particularly when under stress, criticism or conflict, he experiences emotional bursts that are counter-productive at best. [div class=header]

likes

[/div] Playing guitar and singing, writing lyrics, reading books, going to parties, hanging out with friends, long trips to places that his father isn't present, graffiting [div class=header]

dislikes

[/div] His father (duh, he's an ass), hospitals, when you cough really hard and get those white floatie things in your vision, potatoes, being lactose intolerant (but he'll still eat ice-cream and chocolate like the dumb ass he is) [div class=header]

quirks

[/div] Very fidgety (will bounce his leg up and down), will sit on a chair with his legs crossed over or pressed against his chest, and will comb his hands through his hair to help soothe his anxiety. [div class=header]

fears

[/div] Teo's number one fear - being alone. He hates being alone. He just wants someone to be with him constantly. What's even worse than feeling alone, is also feeling like he's unlovable. Since his Umma has gone, he feels like there's no one left in this world who can hold him and tell him everything will be alright like his Umma would. To avoid being alone, he often presents himself as this happy, outgoing guy so he can get the interest of those around him. He tries to make as many friends as possible so he doesn't have to deal with the thought that eventually, at the end of the day, he's going to have to be alone and face his demons by himself. [div class=header]

love language

[/div] He has a physical touch love language. This means that if you want him to feel loved, put your hand on his shoulder when you talk to him. Offer him a cuddle when he's upset. Show love through your actions (and no, it's not just sex; it's holding his hand, running your fingers through his hair, patting him on the back). [div class=header]

so... why are you in the hospital?

[/div] Teo participates in inpatient treatment programs for his depression after his last suicide attempt. He has only been in the hospital for five days (after being transferred from London Hospital), and has been told that he will most likely be staying for ten days. However, as part of his inpatient treatment, he has to participate in a family therapy session – a session which his father keeps on postponing. He feels as if his father had him admitted into the hospital just so he wouldn’t bother him again.

Prior to the program, he had been admitted into the hospital for a month following an attempted suicide. He had issues with his liver due to excess ibuprofen in his system and how long it had been there. During the duration of his stay, Angus only visited him once and told doctors and nurses that he wanted Teo on the Inpatient Program as he didn't want people knowing that his son had been admitted after trying to overdose once again. [div class=header]

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Angus Jones - Father

Even though Angus is his biological father, there is no way in hell he’d call him father. It was always been Mr. Jones, and he has always avoided him like the black plague. He is the CEO of a major telecommunications company, GlobalTex, and seems to be very good at buying his way out of every situation.

Choi Hye-Sung - Umma/Mother

His Umma was his best friend. After her passing, Teo discovered that Hye-Sung had been a mail order bride and moved from Korea to marry Angus as she came from a very poor town and seeked for adventure in another country. She never truthfully loved him, but stayed with him so Teo could have the opportunity to live a beautiful life. [div class=header]

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He was the child that was never meant to happen.

It had been three months since Angus Jones had his vasectomy when his wife, Choi Hye-Sung, discovered that she was with child. She was petrified to tell Angus as her husband was already in his late fifties and practically married to his job. In fact, when she finally told him the truth, they spent close to a week arguing over if she should have an abortion or not. Hye-Sung pleaded with her husband for them to keep the child. After all, she was still young and had always wanted to have children. Angus made it very clear to Hye-Sung that if she had the child, that he would have no responsibilities in raising him. As if the child was some dog and Hye-Sung was a child, begging for her parent for the pet. She agreed to his terms and conditions, vowing that she’d do everything for the child while also serving her husband like a wife should.

On the Fourteenth of April, at London Hospital, England, Teo Anthony Jones entered the world at 12:43pm. Angus was nowhere to be seen, stating that the company needed him and he couldn’t take time off. In fact, it wasn’t until Teo was twelve days old that he finally met his father for the first time. Hye-Sung informed Angus that she gave him the middle name Anthony as it had been Angus’ father’s name. However, she had picked the name Teo as it was the closest English name to the Korean name she had given her son, Tae-Wook, that she had liked.

From the moment he was birthed, Teo spent every moment with his Umma. She never left his side; she cared for him as a mother and a father. Angus on the other hand… well, let’s not get into that.

In the early years of his life, there were a lot of memories that Teo blocked out. But there was one very distinct memory engraved into his mind. He could remember back when he was six years old. A very drunk Angus made him sit on the staircase with his hands underneath his bottom – so he was sitting on his hands – and told him to stay there. It had been almost an hour and every time he tried to move, it seemed that Angus had eyes everywhere.

Angus soon returned with Hye-Sung in tow, violently sobbing as her husband dragged her along by the elbow. Teo could remember Angus yelling at her and Hye-Sung being so upset that she could only respond in Korean. Therefore, Angus turned to Teo and told him to speak to his Umma. To translate to his Umma what he was saying and then to translate back to Angus what Hye-Sung was saying. It was an ongoing vicious cycle and he could remember feeling how stuck he felt in that very moment of time. How his hands ached from sitting on them for so long and how his Umma looked absolutely petrified at the man she claimed that she loved.

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There were a lot of hospital visits. And a lot of lying

As a child going through the beginning stages of puberty, Teo had always been so confused when his Umma lied to the doctors about how she or Teo was hurt. Apparently, Hye-Sung was very clumsy and tended to fall over a lot. In fact, she was convinced she had an inner ear infection that caused all these problems because she was forever being brought to the hospital with concussions or a bruised face. Teo, on the other hand, apparently was into sports. Played a lot of soccer which brought the broken bones and bloodied faces.

He would often wonder how long they would have to keep on lying before they were able to tell people that it was all the handy work of Angus Jones. In fact, he would often ask Umma why they had to lie about it. Hye-Sung would often reassure her son, telling him that they lived in a very small town and if word got out about it, Angus would have some very bad reputation loaming over his head. But… wasn’t that what they wanted?

Even though Hye-Sung told everyone that she and Angus were in a very happy marriage, Teo always wondered why his Umma just didn’t leave Angus. They didn’t even sleep in the same bed anymore. From when Teo was three, Hye-sung would come into his room and sleep in his bed with him. When Angus would make a big deal about it, she would simply say that Teo had nightmares and couldn’t sleep at night. Another lie. But at least it made Teo feel safe knowing his Umma was by his side.

When Teo was thirteen years old, their family from Korea came for a visit with his baby cousin. Well, that was a huge mess. It was literally the week from hell. Hye-Sung’s parents tried to convince her to come back home with Teo – back to Korea – but she refused. She said that Teo would have a better life here. That there were more opportunities for him rather than in Korea. Once again, another lie. Angus discovered what Hye-Sung’s parents were up to and practically roared at them. He told them that if they ever came close to Hye-Sung or Teo, that he would call the police and have them arrested. That was the last time Teo ever saw his grandparents. And since that day, he has always wondered what life would’ve been like had he gone back to Korea with them.

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Now puberty. It’s never fun for anyone. And it was no exception for Teo.

As he grew older, he began to really see how little his father was involved in his life. When he asked him if he could talk to him (usually he would have intentions to ask about girls or, you know, why his dick kept on getting hard at the most random times), but Angus would always brush him off and tell him to go and see his Umma instead. It also occurred to him that maybe his father wasn’t the best role model from the way he spoke to them and treated them.

The hospital visits and lying was still very regular.

Teo was sixteen years old when he broke his wrist for the third time during a fight with Angus. He could remember being in such unbearable pain that the doctors prescribed him with oxycodone. Well, that was a stupid mistake on their behalf. It was the first time any doctors had prescribed him with any medicine for him to be in charge of. And all he could think about was how wonderful it would be if all of this lying could just come to an end. So, later that night, he went home and took all the pain killers he had been given. Well, wasn’t that just a great family outing that night. Back home from hospital only to go straight back to get his stomach pumped.

Of course, they couldn’t tell anyone about it. I mean, what would the town think? The GlobalTex’s Ceo’s son trying to commit suicide? So, everything was kept on the downlow. People were told that he had gone on holidays with Hye-Sung to Korea to meet his extended family while he spent time recovering. But there was one thing he had learnt from the whole ordeal – how damn good it felt to take oxycodone. It was like a high he had never experienced before. And so, he made it his mission to try it again.

By the grace of God, he managed to find some oxycodone in the back of his parents ensuite cabinet from when his Umma had broken her shoulder blade. And it was enough to get him hooked. He could barely go a week without needing it in his system to numb the pain in life. But the crave and need for it went up as the months went by. By the time of his eighteenth birthday, he was relying on one a day. He was somewhat thankful for the hospital trips with his Umma as it gave him the perfect opportunity to venture through and steal some more painkillers.

One night, a few months shy of his nineteenth birthday, Teo returned home to find his Umma in a pile of blood, her body still and cold. He tried all that he could to help her but it seemed as it was too late. After a trip to the hospital, it was confirmed that Hye-Sung had fallen down the stairs and died from blood loss. Now, considering her past hospital records, the doctors saw no foul play. They only saw a very clumsy woman, who finally fell to her death because there was no one home.

That’s when he began to struggle to sleep. His Umma wasn’t sleeping next to him like usual and he missed her beyond belief. He had now become Angus’ only target and every time his father looked at him, he would often scream about how he looked just like Hye-Sung. The abuse and insomnia began to take a crippling hold over his life that he decided that there was no point in living anymore. He attempted to take his own life by taking a full packet of over the counter pain killers. But, once again, he had failed. And found himself getting his stomach pumped for the second time. The hospital questioned him about his bruised face and why he felt the need to take his life. But he just responded with what his Umma always told him to do; he lied. And continued to lie.[/div][/div][/div]

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Milo Rory Skine

[div class=tag1]online username[/div]
imperialserpent666

[div class=tag1]role keyword[/div]
the venomous

[div class=tag1]nicknames[/div]
milo, is fine.

[div class=tag1]age[/div]
twenty-five

[div class=tag1]gender[/div]
male

[div class=tag1]sexuality[/div]
heterosexual

[div class=tag1]D.O.B.[/div]
june 13th

[div class=tag1]p.o.b.[/div]
chicago, Illinois

[div class=tag1]ethnicity[/div]
italian, caucasian

[div class=tag1]ailments[/div]
borderline personality disorder, sociopathic tendencies, depression, slight ocd

[div class=tag1]why are they in the hospital and how long have they been there?[/div]
placed in the hospital after he attempted to murder another prisoner and blamed it on another person inside himself. he has been there for three years.

[div class=tag1]face claim[/div]
diego b.

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Milo Rory Skine

[div class=tag1]online username[/div]
imperialserpent666

[div class=tag1]role keyword[/div]
the venomous

[div class=tag1]nicknames[/div]
milo, is fine.

[div class=tag1]age[/div]
twenty-five

[div class=tag1]gender[/div]
male

[div class=tag1]sexuality[/div]
heterosexual

[div class=tag1]D.O.B.[/div]
june 13th

[div class=tag1]p.o.b.[/div]
chicago, Illinois

[div class=tag1]ethnicity[/div]
italian, caucasian

[div class=tag1]ailments[/div]
borderline personality disorder, sociopathic tendencies, depression, slight ocd

[div class=tag1]why are they in the hospital and how long have they been there?[/div]
placed in the hospital after he attempted to murder another prisoner and blamed it on another person inside himself. he has been there for three years.

[div class=tag1]face claim[/div]
diego b.

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dark brown

[div class=tag2]hair color [/div]
dark brown

[div class=tag2]height [/div]
six foot one

[div class=tag2]weight[/div]
one hundred ninety two pounds

[div class=tag2]body type [/div]
athletic fit

[div class=tag2]tattoos/piercings[/div]
tbd.

[div class=tag2]scars[/div]
tbd.

[div class=tag2]other body mods[/div]
none

[div class=tag2]allergies[/div]
antibiotics, hazelnuts

[/div][/div][/div] [div class="tabContents tabContents04"][div class=personacontainer][div class=persona] [div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what are some of the things you like?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]ramen noodles, tattoos, cigarettes, budlight lime, cinnamon scented candles, being barefoot
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what are some of the things you dislike?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]this hospital, you, medication, not being able to control myself, lemon anything, soda
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what are your positive traits?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]confident, charming, motivated, perfectionist, persuasive
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what are your negative traits?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]argumentative, obsessive, cynical, criminal, sadistic
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what's something that you fear?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]never getting the fuck out of this place, small children, being taken over by another personality
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] how about your love language?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]acts of service
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] personality type?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]the protagonist
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what are 3 significant moments in your life?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] what about your family?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]raised in the system so i wouldn't count anyone as "family"
[div class=tag3]hospitalstaff:[/div] anything else?
[div class=tag4]imperialserpent666:[/div]

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alex carlyle

the holistic

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alexandra valerie carlyle.

[div class=tag]username:

darth_hideous. yeah, i'm a geek.

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the holistic.

[div class=tag]nickname:

just alex.[/div] [/div]

[div class=tag]gender:

female.

[div class=tag]sexuality:

heterosexual.[/div] [/div]

[div class=tag]age:

nineteen.

[div class=tag]d.o.b:

october 31st.[/div] [/div]

[div class=tag]p.o.b:

brighton, england.

[div class=tag]ethnicity:

british.[/div] [/div] [div class=tag]why are you in the hospital? how long have you been there?[/div]
"my parents thought that being here would help me get my head straight to accept treatment for my condition. apparently, not wanting medication makes me suicidal. i've been here for two months."

[div class=tag]any ailments we should know about?[/div]
"let's see, according to my evaluation, i have several insecurities, suicidal tendencies and a mild case of fomo which contradicts the suicidal tendencies. just your average weirdo." [/div][/div] [div class="tabContents2"]

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alex stands at a height of 5'0.

[div class=tag]weight

over the years, alex's weight has fluctuated drastically due to various treatments. at the moment, she's underweight, coming in at around 82 lbs.

[div class=tag]eyes

alex has wide, dark brown eyes.

[div class=tag]hair

alex's hair is a slightly dark shade of ginger, so she qualifies as a 'redhead', though her hair can appear brown in darker lighting. in the sunlight, her hair almost mimics the colour of fire.

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[div class=tag]body type

alex has a sleight build. she doesn't have a lot of meat on her bones, because of her medical condition and the accompanying treatments.

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[div class=tag]modifications

alex has no tattoos, though her ears are pierced once each.

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[div class=tag]scars

alex's chest has scars from a recent lung volume reduction surgery. aside from this, her arms have some faint scars from when she was hooked up to ivs and when she needed to be given corticosteroids intravenously.

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[div class=tag]distinguishing features

alex has very prominent dimples that appear with the slightest movement of her lips. she's also always seen wheeling around her oxygen tank, since she's on constant oxygen therapy, due to her condition.

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[div class=tag]health ailments

alex has copd — chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD). more specifically, she has a severe and rare case of emphysema, as a result of an alpha-1-antitrypsin deficiency, which is a protein that protects the elastic structures in the lungs.

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[div class=tag]allergies

none, which is a blessing, given all her other ailments.

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olivia cooke.

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[div class=tag2]rainy days

[div class=tag2]chocolates[/div][div class=tag2]dogs[/div][div class=tag2]meditation[/div][div class=tag2]nature[/div][div class=tag2]collecting seashells[/div][div class=tag2]crystals & their energies[/div][div class=tag2]reiki[/div][div class=tag2]drinking gallons of tea[/div][div class=tag2]horror movies[/div][div class=tag2]classical music (from bach to bowie)[/div]

[div class=tag]dislikes[/div]
[div class=tag2]hospitals[/div][div class=tag2]needles[/div][div class=tag2]feeling breathless[/div][div class=tag2]abuse of any kind[/div][div class=tag2]being told what to do[/div][div class=tag2]coconut anything[/div][div class=tag2]red meat[/div][div class=tag2]peanut butter[/div][div class=tag2]losing[/div][div class=tag2]sappy romance movies[/div][div class=tag2]pretentious snobs[/div]

[div class=tag]positive traits[/div]
[div class=tag3]optimistic[/div] "my parents say i might be too optimistic, but i think it's always been a good thing.it's better to look at the bright side, because what good comes from seeing only the bad?"
[div class=tag3]adventurous[/div] "i'm open to trying new things and going to new places, but as you can guess, my condition has hampered that ability quite a bit."
[div class=tag3]holistic[/div] "my disease doesn't define me. i'm more than just 'being sick'. that's just one part of me and i'm much more than that. i believe that by looking at the bigger picture and by relying more on the earth and natural healing, i could be cured. if not... well, then that's just what's in store for me."
[div class=tag3]active[/div] "like i said, it's important to focus on every part of yourself. i want to make sure every part of me remains active and is exercised, from my arms and legs, to both sides of my brain. you could say i lead a colourful lifestyle."
[div class=tag3]compassionate[/div] "i love animals and i love people. i may not always talk much, but i love to surround myself with noise and bodies. i like to think that i understand people, and that i can try to help them. even if i can't, that doesn't stop me from trying."

[div class=tag]negative traits[/div]
[div class=tag3]reckless[/div] "i'll admit that sometimes, i can get ahead of myself. i don't always think things through, but where's the fun in a heavily thought out plan? the best plans are those that happen on a whim. right? no? just me? okay then."
[div class=tag3]competitive[/div] "okay yes, i'm a bit of a sore loser. and i get a little excited whenever i'm playing a game, whether it be scrabble or mario kart. sue me."
[div class=tag3]holistic[/div] "it's both a good and bad thing, i suppose. lately i've been focusing more on the mind and soul than the body part of it all. if i'm meant to get better, then i will. modern medicine isn't going to help much if it hasn't helped me so far. my parents consider this a mistake but i'm nineteen. i can make my own decisions."
[div class=tag3]ignorant[/div] "i don't always choose to ignore what people tell me. i just sometimes believe that i'm right and they're not. okay, that ends up happening most of the time but if i'm making a mistake then it's something i need to figure out for myself."
[div class=tag3]suicidal tendencies[/div] "yes, i want to stop treatment, and yes, i may have said that things would be easier for my family if i wasn't around, but i'm honestly just sick of being in hospitals for all my life. this is the age for me to live — my parents putting me in a hospital and hoping that my 'reliance on natural healing' will cease, isn't helping me change my mind. not yet, anyway."

[div class=tag]what are your fears?[/div]
"the general feeling of breathlessness is something i hate feeling. there has only been one incident in the recent past where i was gasping for air and it felt like i was close to dying. i never want to feel that again. my doctor also says i have fomo, which i guess is true, in a way. being in hospitals, it's pretty much taken away whatever chance i could have had at a normal life. i want to have those experiences. i'm not going to spend the rest of my life hoping i'll get better and missing out on all these important things. if stopping my treatments and refusing a transplant means i have less time alive, then so be it. at least i'll know i can live my life how i want to, in that short span of time."

[div class=tag]what would you say is your love language?[/div]
"i enjoy physical touch, but i also think quality time is very important."

[div class=tag]if you had to give yourself a personality type?[/div]
"oh, yeah, i took that test. i'm an infp."

[div class=tag3]moment 1: my diagnosis[/div] "i was diagnosed pretty young. like, before i could talk, young. that kind fo set up how my life was supposed to be, growing up. as a child, i spent a lot of time going in and out of hospitals. i guess from that moment on, i knew i was never going to live a normal life like everyone else. it sucked, because all i really wanted to do was go and play outside but at that point, my parents were too unaware of my condition, so they didn't really let me do anything."

[div class=tag3]moment 2: getting roscoe[/div] "yes, i'm one of those people who likes to name inanimate objects, and i happened to name the oxygen tank i cart around. i used to only need oxygen therapy while sleeping, but over time, my condition worsened so i needed constant oxygen therapy. the first time i got it though, i realised i didn't need to be confined to my house anymore. i could go out, do things, as long as i had my nubbins in to help me breathe. it was a moment that told me that i didn't need to become my sickness or let it consume me. i could do other things too. not as much as any other person, sure, but i wasn't just some lost cause."

[div class=tag3]moment 3: the incident[/div] "a couple of weeks ago i had my biggest scare yet. i just... i couldn't breathe. it was terrifying. the feeling of gasping for breath isn't a sensation i'd ever recommend. i was rushed to the hospital and it really felt like i was going to die. i didn't, though. they did a lung volume reduction surgery and i got better in a day or two. better meaning i survived, not that i could live and breathe like a normal human being henceforth. that incident kind of woke something up in me. i've lived my whole life relying on hospitals and medication and it hasn't been helping because i need to look at the bigger picture. how am i going to get better unless i convince my body that i can be better? so, i decided to stop my visits to the hospital. i keep the oxygen tank around but that's about it. i'm trying to rely on more natural practises, partially because i believe it will help, and also because i can at least live my life properly that way. of course, as soon as i told my parents, they confined me to yet another hospital. they say it's to make me realise that i shouldn't 'give up', but at this point, it's hard to change my mind when i've already made my decision."

[div class=tag]do you have any significant relationships in your life?[/div]
"not particularly. i mean, i love both my parents, but i wouldn't say they've had a huge impact on my life. my brother austin has, though. he's been with me through it all. he's a little on the fence about my decision, but he supports me more than my parents do, and that's all i can ask for." [/div] [/div][/div] [/div] [/div][/div] [class=variables] cursor: url(https://66.media.tumblr.com/232c090ebdd37ae4bc17adb54e1e0344/tumblr_inline_ol4nwhvSwg1uxxza6_75sq.png), auto!important; --color1: #bce8df; --color2: #36c7a9; [/class] [class=tag] font-weight: bold; color: var(--color2); display: inline; [/class] [class=tag2] color: #000; padding: 2px 8px 2px 8px; margin: 4px; background: var(--color1); display: inline-block; [/class] [class=tag3] color: #000; padding: 4px 8px 4px 8px; background: var(--color1); display: inline; [/class] [class=tab] position: relative; background: var(--color1); border: 1px solid #fff; width: 30px; height: 30px; font-size: 12px; color: #fff; padding: 4px; text-align: center; box-sizing: border-box; border-radius: 100%; transition: ease-in-out 1s; z-index: 1; cursor: url(https://66.media.tumblr.com/6fb38fc5e97353c67e3fc3a2e2b29bf9/tumblr_inline_ol4nwisGdu1uxxza6_75sq.png), auto!important; [/class] [class name=tab state=hover] color: var(--color2); background: #fff; transition: ease-in-out 1s; [/class] [class=selectedTab] color: var(--color2); background: #fff; transition: ease-in-out 1s; [/class] [class=tabContents1] background: #fff; border-radius: 15px; width: 600px; height: 350px; overflow: hidden; position: relative; box-sizing: border-box; transition: ease 2s; top: -900px; [/class] [class=slide1] top: -300px; transition: ease 2s; z-index: 1; [/class] [class=tabContents3] background: #fff; border-radius: 15px; width: 600px; overflow: hidden; height: 350px; box-sizing: border-box; position: relative; transition: ease 2s; top: -310px; [/class] [class=slide3] top: -1000px; transition: ease 2s; z-index: 1; [/class] [class=tabContents2] background: #fff; border-radius: 15px; width: 600px; overflow: hidden; height: 350px; position: relative; box-sizing: border-box; transition: ease 2s; left: 1000px; top: -650px; [/class] [class=slide2] left: 0px; transition: ease 2s; z-index: 2; [/class] [class=tabContents4] background: #fff; border-radius: 15px; width: 600px; overflow: hidden; height: 350px; position: relative; box-sizing: border-box; transition: ease 2s; top: 50px; left: -1000px; [/class] [class=slide4] left: 0px; transition: ease 2s; z-index: 1; [/class] [script class=tab1 on=click] if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass slide1 tabContents1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide2 tabContents2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide3 tabContents3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide4 tabContents4) if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass selectedTab tab1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab4) [/script] [script class=tab2 on=click] if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass slide2 tabContents2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide1 tabContents1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide3 tabContents3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide4 tabContents4) if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass selectedTab tab2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab4) [/script] [script class=tab3 on=click] if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass slide3 tabContents3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide1 tabContents1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide2 tabContents2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide4 tabContents4) if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass selectedTab tab3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab4) [/script] [script class=tab4 on=click] if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass slide4 tabContents4) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide1 tabContents1) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide2 tabContents2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass slide3 tabContents3) if (eq ${open} 0) (addClass selectedTab tab4) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab2) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab3) if (eq ${open} 0) (removeClass selectedTab tab1) [/script]

 

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[div class=tag]Name

Cosima Collins Emery
[div class=tag]Nicknames[/div] Cosy, Emmie
[div class=tag]Username[/div] theblueisalie — A reference to the color of one of her medications, Zoloft.
[div class=tag]Age[/div] 19
[div class=tag]Gender[/div] Female
[div class=tag]Sexuality[/div] Heterosexual
[div class=tag]Role[/div] The Holistic

[div class=tag]D.O.B.[/div] July 19th
[div class=tag]P.O.B.[/div] London, England, U.K.
[div class=tag]Ailments[/div] Self-Destructive Borderline Personality Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder, both diagnosed when she was 16.
[div class=tag]Reason[/div] She was placed in inpatient after attempting suicide.
[div class=tag]Faceclaim[/div] Lucy Boynton
[/div] [/div] [/div] [div class=quote] " it's not goodbye, cause that would break her " [/div] [div class=text2] [div class=scroll] [div class=header style="text-align: left;"]appearance[/div]

[div class=tag]Eyes

A pale blue-green.
[div class=tag]Hair[/div] Ashy blonde with brown roots.
[div class=tag]Height[/div] 5'2, or 1.5m
[div class=tag]Weight[/div] 92lbs, or 41kg
[div class=tag]Body Type[/div] Mesomorph — Cosy has soft, feminine curves, but little body fat.

[div class=tag]Mods[/div] A nasal piercing that she rarely wears, pierced ears.
[div class=tag]Scars[/div] Three triplet punctures on her left arm and a long incision scars on the inside of her thighs.
[div class=tag]Allergies[/div] Cosy is lactose intolerant.
[div class=tag]Dist. Features[/div] Cosima has a peculiarly raspy voice, and it's more common for her to speak softly than loudly. [/div] [/div] [/div] [div class=quote2]" so i say
see you later "[/div] [div class=bottomimage] [/div] [div class=text3] [div class=scroll] [div class=header style="width: 108%;"]persona[/div]

» Cosima has a certain airy way about her: She's easygoing and sweet, a well-rounded girl that outwardly seems well adjusted to life. Perhaps her most memorable trait is her stout dedication to being healthy, something instilled in her by her parents. Whenever she can, she'll try to rally her friends or anyone who'll listen to go on a walk or run with her, and is very selective with what she eats. She's entertaining, albeit serious. Jokes have never been Cosima's thing, but she's more than happy to entertain her companions with stories from her own life and others. Despite her chatty nature, she'll jump at the first chance for adventure -- Cosy is the definition of spontaneous. Whether it comes to being your newest adventure or just lending an ear, Cosy is an unwavering, dependable companion.

» However good of a friend Cosima may be, she has a tendency to be somewhat overbearing, making people around her listen to her venting or incessant chatting while disregarding what they have to say. This narcissistic part of her places her needs and emotions above all else and renders her somewhat unable to empathize with others. Despite her mild narcissism at times, Cosy appears incredibly naive in the fact that she's willing to abandon her current situation at any moment at the promise of any semblance of adventure. To add onto this, her mood stabilizers haven't mitigated her tendency to be occasionally snappy, becoming immediately frustrated upon questioning or being doubted. When people confront her about this, she often just withdraws herself, claiming that people wouldn't like her without her medication, a byproduct of how insecure she still is.

[div class=tag]Likes

White chocolate, peaches, cherries, glossy finishes, scented shampoo, e-books, small trinkets, soft bedding, low chairs, hanging plants, rock music, running
[div class=tag]Dislikes[/div] Burning her mouth, breaking pencils, distorted audios, salads, spicy sauces, continuous noises, loud chewing, blinking lights
[div class=tag]Fears[/div] Drowning in sand, being trapped indoors, cowardice

[div class=tag]Love Language[/div] Quality Time and Acts of Service
[div class=tag]Personality Type[/div] Entertainer (ESFP-T)
[/div] [/div] [/div] [div class=text4] [div class=scroll] [div class=header style="width: 108%;"]backstory[/div]

» Cosima was born in London to two happy parents. She lived there up until she was 13, when her dad moved the family in order to accept a new job. This shook her greatly and spun her into a depressive period from which she never truly emerged. Despite her obvious protests, her parents only claimed innocence and said that they "couldn't do anything", much to her frustration. Part of her knew she was being selfish, but she didn't care: That didn't mitigate what she was going through.
» By the time Cosima was 15, she knew something was wrong. She had already been admitted to the hospital several times for stitches, but her parents fought to keep her out of inpatient. They refused to believe that their perfect, sunny daughter could be anything but. Something that her mother said at that time never left her: "Cosy, there can't be anything wrong with you." But no matter what her parents said, she knew something was wrong. She protested and fought, begging them to let her get help, but they didn't budge. This only sent her deeper into her withdrawal and tendencies towards self-harm, something that her parents saw but refused to acknowledge. Over time, she grew bolder and bolder, each wound begging her parents to just notice that something wasn't right. But every time they would just take her to the ER in silence, not even asking why she did it, not even caring.
» When Cosima turned 16, she had nothing left to lose. She was on the edge of suicide, but before she bid her goodbyes, she decided to reach out one more time. She reported herself to her school's counselors, who quickly relayed the information to her parents. They bugged them until, after all these years, they took Cosima to therapy. After just a few months she was diagnosed with both Borderline Personality Disorder and Major Depressive Disorder. It was a huge weight off her shoulders, and for once, she felt free. But immediately after she was diagnosed, her parents pulled her from therapy. They said that if a diagnosis was what she wanted, she had got it, and anything more would be selfish. That was the moment that broke Cosima. She knew that she had nothing left, nobody to help her. She knew that she was the only one who could give herself freedom. That night, she locked herself in her bathroom and tried to take her own life by cutting her femoral arteries and swallowing several razors. Her parents found her just barely in time and she was rushed into emergency surgery, after which her parents had no choice but to hand her over. The experience made her fearless and numb at the same time — She just wanted her actions to have a consequence, to feel like something other than an onlooker in her own life. Her parents still haven't come to visit. The first thing she did when in the facility was blacklist them, but she told the receptionist to tell her if they ever tried to come. Each day, she still holds out a little hope that she'd finally get that message, but she doesn't know if she'd be happy if she did.

[div class=tag]Relationships

Cosima is estranged with both of her parents, and refuses to talk to them. She hasn't talked to her outside friends in a while, mainly believing them to be scared to come visit her.
[div class=tag]Themes[/div] I Disagree — Poppy, NEVER GONNA LIKE YOU — Bea Miller, Cruel World — Phantogram [/div] [/div] [/div] [/div]

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"They say I'm a hero, but when I look in the mirror
all I see is a fraud."

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[div class=tag]name[/div] Ellis Baines

[div class=tag]username:[/div] el.introvert.exe

[div class=tag]role:[/div] the brave

[div class=tag]nickname:[/div] Her youngest sister used to call her E.B, but some of her friends call her El. She doesn't mind either nickname, but she prefers her full name. It isn't that long anyways.

[div class=tag]age:[/div] 24

[div class=tag]gender:[/div] female

[div class=tag]sexuality:[/div] heterosexual

[div class=tag]birthday:[/div] November 10th, 1995

[div class=tag]p.o.b:[/div] detroit, Michigan, usa

[div class=tag]ethnicity:[/div] Saudi Arabian and caucasian

[div class=tag]ailments:[/div] Bipolar Disorder type 1, ptsd, and generalized anxiety

[div class=tag]Why is she in the hospital?:[/div] Ellis suffered a manic episode that lasted for over 1 week and she was involved in a car accident. While no one was injured, her older brother insisted that she be hospitalized for her own safety.

[div class=tag]how long has she been here?:[/div] 6 months

[div class=tag]faceclaim:[/div] Christina Nadin [/div][/div] [/div] [/div] [div class="pic1 pic11"][/div] [div class="pic1 pic12"][/div] [div class="num num1"]1.[/div] [/div] [div class="tabsContent tabsContent2" style="display: none;"] [div class="accent accent21"][/div] [div class="accent accent22"][/div] [div class=header2]appearance.[/div] [div class="pic2 pic21"][/div] [div class="pic2 pic22"][/div] [div class="num num2"]2.[/div] [div class=text2cont][div class="text text2"]

[div class=tag]height:[/div] 5' 6"

[div class=tag]weight:[/div] 131 lbs

[div class=tag]eye color:[/div] Ellis has always liked her eyes. Even if they were only chocolaty brown just like everyone else's, she always thought they matched her skin tone well. They seem to change with the weather, with a deep dark, almost black tone during overcast and a warm yellow oak tone when the sun is shining.

[div class=tag]hair:[/div] Ellis takes after her mother with her hair. It is a chestnut brown color with frizzy curls that she never really learned how to take care of. She keeps it about mid back length, but normally wears it up in a ponytail or braid to keep the annoying fly aways out of her mouth.

[div class=tag]body type:[/div] ...bean pole? Is that a body type? If so, Ellis would fit that. While not very tall, she has always been slender. She isn't curvaceous or overly feminine in form. She has gained some weight since being hospitalized. The woman had pretty erratic eating behaviors before. Now she's on a steady diet and has some healthy weight to her gut and arms. Ellis would consider her legs longer than her torso. Her arms have always seemed unnecessarily long, but in any case it adds to her lanky figure.

[div class=tag]tattoos/piercings:[/div] She has a simple smiley face on the inside of her right middle finger. You can use your imagination for the meaning. Ellis just had her first piercings in her ears and one helix on her left side. She normally does not wear earrings though. She had gotten her ears pierced on a dare anyways.

[div class=tag]scars:[/div] Ellis' most notable scar is on her right side. She has a large burn scar on her right upper arm. The burn also extended on her torso, from about fourth rib to belly button line and wraps around to almost meet her spine. It then climbs up to cover 3/4ths of her shoulder blade. It is sort of crescent moon in shape if you squint at it. Her second scar is from a cut on her left collarbone. It is about 3ish inches in length and clean, not jagged like from an accident or dull blade. Glass tends to be pretty sharp.

[div class=tag]allergies:[/div] Just seasonal. Ellis always complains of a stuffy nose around spring time. [/div][/div] [/div] [div class="tabsContent tabsContent3" style="display: none;"] [div class="accent accent31"] [div class=accentcont] [div class=header3]persona.[/div] [div class=text3cont][div class="text text3"] [div class=tag]likes[/div]
♡ reading. Ellis likes some fiction but also a lot of non-fiction. Learning helps her to get out of her head.
♡ puzzles and mind games. Again, she likes to keep her mind busy so it can't just sit there and worry.
♡ the sun. Without it, her life feels extra dark.
♡ people. Contrary to many people's belief about her, Ellis enjoys the
company of close friends and family. She loves when she has
intelligent friends she can discuss and debate with.

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⤬ liars. Ellis hates a liar or a cheat. fake people to her are the worst. don't act one way to her face and say another behind closed doors.
⤬ compliments. she doesn't deserve them.
⤬ coffee. anything with caffeine makes her jumpy. she's already jumpy enough.
⤬ smell of smoke. ellis feels ill at just the thought of it.

[div class=tag]personality[/div]
strenghts.
Honest and Direct- You will never have to wonder what ellis thinks of a subject. she will just say it flat out. her word is always truthful. she strongly believes that lying just makes things more complicated than they really have to be. The woman isn't one to manipulate, cheat or steal. Her strong moral compass tells her that all those things are wrong.
Analytical- El enjoys looking into the world and seeing all the possible connections. She loves to innovate and create new ideas. Even if two subjects seem unrelated, Ellis has the ability to somehow make them connect. Not only that, but they connect in a way that actually works and makes sense. She not only pays attention to detail, but she is able to interpret it into something useful.
Imaginative- The woman always has new ideas. Whether they are crazy impossible inventions or just new ways to organize her room is up to her mood. Endless possibilities come to her mind. It seems her brain never shuts off with making original ideas.
Enthusiastic- When el has an amazing idea or someone else talks about something she loves, she gets so excited. Whether it is a new or old passion, ellis will follow it with the same exact enthusiasm. The woman may not leap for joy or sing (at least not in the presence of others), you will notice a brighter look in her eyes and a more thoughtful smile on her face.
Open-minded- Judgement free ladies and gentleman, Ellis' often says "not my monkeys not my circus" when it comes to other people. Tell her just about any whim, want, or fantasy you want to. When others make a strong point, she is willing accept she may be wrong. El likes criticism, constructive of course. She views it as a chance to better herself and her understanding. And more knowledge is always a plus in her book.
Weaknesses
Withdrawn- While she will speak her mind on what she's thinking, Ellis has always had a hard time explaining her feelings. Opening up is just not something she was ever good at. She was really shy growing up and still is shy to this day. When she had made friends (you could count the number on one hand) it was still difficult for her to open up about what she was experiencing and feeling.
Insensitive- Ellis is very fact minded and blunt. She does not always take into consideration for others feelings when speaking. She will just say whatever is on her mind. That can come across as being rude or mean, especially to those who are sensitive. To her there is no reason to sugar coat the truth. So Ellis has hurt a lot of persons feelings with her words.
Absent-minded- The woman is always somewhere else. It could be a good place or a bad place, but either way it's hard to keep her head out of the clouds. Ellis likes to think and can often find her own thoughts more interesting than the conversation she is having. This can become very unhealthy for her. She will often forget very important things, like eating and sleeping, to continue in her thoughts.
Second Guesses- Ellis likes to dream and make up ideas. Though in reality she thinks she could never complete them. She doesn't have the self confidence to believe in her own abilities. El is more likely to abandon her ideas because they probably weren't good enough anyway. Easily frustrated, she sees a small flaw as proof that she can't do it.
Condescending- Having a lot of knowledge has proven to be a struggle for Ellis. She often likes to tell others about some new advanced topic she has researched about. Many of the people she talks to don't seem to understand her. So she begins to explain in a way that could be insulting to others because of how simple she makes it. She will then become frustrated with the person for either not understanding or getting worked up and give up her self.

[div class=tag]fears[/div] Ellis has two main fears. She has a phobia of fire. The woman didn't own a stove in her apartment because of it. Seeing it, hearing it, or smelling it could cause her to have a panic attack. Her other fear is of being left behind (either by death or by choice of the other person). She had a paranoid tendency of calling her closest friends and family members over and over again to make sure they were okay and that they wouldn't leave her.

[div class=tag]love language[/div] quality time

[div class=tag]personality type[/div] intp-t

[div class=tag]theme song[/div] mind is a prison by Alec Benjamin

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Childhood abuse- Ellis was the second child born to Ester and George Baines. She never knew how the pair met, all she knew was that her mother married her father quickly after starting to date him because she was pregnant. Maybe if she had taken more time to get to know Mr. George Baines, she wouldn't have chosen to stay with him. It was only a few years later after her brother was born that she came into the world. By that time, her mother was already used to the fact that drunk George was violent towards her. And George was drunk often. Ellis had to learn how to take care of herself from a young age. Her mother was often neglectful towards her children. Maybe she resented them for keeping her tied to a man who beat her or maybe she was just too depressed to care. Either way, her mother was never really a mother.
The first time her dad hit her she was 9. It became a regular thing after that. She learned pretty quickly that if she stayed out of sight, she wouldn't make him mad. She never really knew why he was so enraged with her. Ellis only knew her mouth often got her in trouble. Sure, it hurt a lot, both physically and mentally, for your dad to take his anger out on you. But it hurt a lot more when he went after her younger siblings. Ellis distinctly remembered one night when George was in a drunken rage towards her younger sister Jersey. When she had tried to stop him, his focus shifted to her. With broken beer bottle in hand, her dad swiped quickly at her. He left a nasty gash on her chest that night. Her brother took her to the ER after it happened. They ran out just after they patched her up to avoid questions. Even if it got her into trouble, she couldn't stand to not help her younger siblings. That is what ultimately got her into trouble.
House Fire- No one really found out how it started. A box on the stove, a cigarette on the carpet, or a loose wire somewhere were all possibilities. In all honesty, Ellis didn't really care how it started. The family's smoke alarms apparently didn't work, so by the time the 15 year old girl had smelled smoke and woke up, a large portion of the downstairs had already caught fire. At the time, Ellis shared a room with all her sisters. El took no time at all to keep all her younger siblings safe and calm. She was able to maneuver them out of front door miraculously. Still in a fit of coughing, Ellis noticed her oldest brother had made it out. But he was alone. Realizing right away that their youngest brother Orlando was left behind inside the house, she rushed back in to save him.
Ellis had screamed his name to get his attention over the sound of the fires. She will always remember the way he cried out her name. On her way up the stairs, the railing collapsed towards her. She was badly burned on the one side of her body. El continued towards the weakening cries of her brother. She didn't really know how she was able to continue despite the pain she felt, but she did. As she continued down the hallway she screamed his name, but eventually he stopped crying. By the time she had made it to his room, the boy had died. At this point Ellis knew it would be hard for her to make it out of the house, and she didn't want her little brother to die alone. So she curled up beside him, expecting to die that night with him.
The girl woke up 10 days later in a hospital. The firefighters had arrived shortly after she darted back in to save her brother. They had rescued her just after she had lost consciousness. Ellis hated that she had survived. Every day she wished for something to happen and take her life. The local news proclaimed her a hero for saving her three sisters and returning at the risk of her own life for her brother. Though everyone said she was a brave girl, she knew she had failed. There was nothing heroic about what she had done. Orlando still died. It was still her fault. This thought process made her begin to loath herself.
Fighting her Mental Health- Shortly after the house fire, since both her parents had died, the sibling were thrown into foster care. While Ellis had great foster parents, she couldn't help that she felt so worthless. She had lost everything. Depression came first. She wouldn't eat, she didn't care for school, and she stopped reading almost all together. She felt so incredibly worthless and low. Everyone's praises only made her feel worse. Ellis felt like she should be grateful that she had even lived, but she couldn't. Next came anxiety. Being separated from her siblings, Ellis constantly worried about them. She lost sleep over how fast her heart raced while lying in bed. But she suffered silently, viewing this as her punishment for her failure. It was at age 17 when she had attempted suicide. After that Ellis began to have mandatory treatment for her mental illness. Her symptoms began to change as she reached early adulthood. Just after turing 20, Ellis suffered from her first ever hypomanic episode. While it wasn't full blow mania, it still interrupted her life. Her psychologist changed her diagnosis to Bipolar type 2 and adjusted her medication's accordingly. It worked, sort of. Even with medication, Ellis still had depressed and anxious days. When she was 22, her sisters reappearing after so many years caused her fragile mental state to fragment. She had her first ever full blow manic episode. It lasted about 5 days and she was hospitalized for two weeks because of it. Now a new diagnosis and a new set of pills. Ellis decided that she didn't want to be stuck in that just above depression state. She thought maybe she would be okay without her medication for awhile just to see how it went. And it went terribly. Her anxiety sky rocketed into paranoia, and eventually she had her second manic episode. After not sleeping in days, Ellis was on her way to see her sisters when she caused a car accident. It could have been much worse than it was. It was then that her brother made the decision for her to be hospitalized. Since then she's been trying different types of medication and therapy during her stay. She doesn't hate it. Actually, on the contrary. She likes how controlled her environment is and how safe it is. Ellis, even though she's fairly antisocial, has started to make some friends as well. Even if she's doing well on the inside, she fears not being ok when she's let back into the world.

[div class=tagb]relationships[/div]
- Dallas Baines- older brother (26): Ellis never blamed her brother for what happened. Nobody really knows how they will react in an emergency until it comes. She has blamed him though for her hospitalization. At the beginning she really resented him, but now her feelings have softened. Part of her thinks he's too ashamed of her to visit.

- Jersey Baines- Younger sister (22): Ellis feels the closest to Jersey. They are close in age and had a strong bond even when they were young. She is the only sibling to actually come and visit her while she's been hospitalized, even if she's only come once. Ellis, though, feels like a burden to Jersey since she already cares for Phoenix and Virginia.

- Phoenix Baines & Virginia Baines- Younger sisters (19 & 18): Ellis doesn't really know her two younger sisters all that well. They had only been reunited two years ago when Jersey had them live with her. They seem like they've grown up well, both having excelled in school and now going to college. Ellis feels distant from them since her failing mental health prevented her from really getting to know them. Phoenix and Virginia only know her as the crazy sister, so that is pretty painful for her.

- Orlando Baines- Younger brother (deceased at age 6): Ellis will always feel guilt over the boy. He never deserved to die. She failed him dearly. He was only a young boy who would have done great things, she just knew it. If only she had been the one to die instead of him.

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ricky fernández

the wallflower

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ricardo cesar fernández.

[div class=tag]username:

in.a.flash.

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the wallflower.

[div class=tag]nickname:

ricky, and only ricky.[/div] [/div]

[div class=tag]gender:

cis-male.

[div class=tag]sexuality:

bisexual.[/div] [/div]

[div class=tag]age:

twenty-four.

[div class=tag]d.o.b:

february 10th.[/div] [/div]

[div class=tag]p.o.b:

seville, spain.

[div class=tag]ethnicity:

german + spanish.[/div] [/div] [div class=tag]why are you in the hospital? how long have you been there?[/div]
"oh i've been here for about six months or so. i'm here because... because i have a few issues that need to be sorted out."

[div class=tag]any ailments we should know about?[/div]
"where do i begin? bipolar, intermittent explosiveness, mild paranoia, anxiety... i mean, i know i do a good job of hiding it most of the time, but doc seems to think that isn't a good thing? i dunno.." [/div][/div] [div class="tabContents2"]

[div class=tag]height

ricky stands at around 5'9. not too tall, but not too short either.

[div class=tag]weight

ricky weighs about 154 pounds.

[div class=tag]eyes

ricky's eyes are a lovely hazel colour.

[div class=tag]hair

he has those brown, boyish curls that make it hard for anyone to take his anger seriously — until he's actually scaring them with his temper. but other than that, he looks like bambi.

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[div class=tag]body type

ricky has a very lanky frame. though he doesn't stand extremely tall, he has a thin frame, further accentuated by the baggy clothes he's constantly wearing.

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[div class=tag]modifications

ricky's left ear is pierced. he is always seen wearing a small silver ring there. he has no tattoos, nor does he ever think he'll get one. he hates needles.

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[div class=tag]scars

ricky has a few self harm scars along his forearms which he tries to keep hidden with sweaters, jackets or full sleeved t-shirts. he also has faint bruises on his body from fights he's gotten into. they're faint because he's successfully gone a few weeks without bursting out.

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[div class=tag]distinguishing features

his curls have become a defining feature of his. his mother refused to speak to him for a week when he went and shaved his head a couple of years ago. since then, he's kept his curls intact.

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[div class=tag]health ailments

no physical ailments, if that's what you mean.

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[div class=tag]allergies

ricky is highly allergic to shellfish. his throat could close up in under a minute.

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arón piper.

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[div class=tag2]painting[/div][div class=tag2]silence, sometimes[/div][div class=tag2]dogs[/div][div class=tag2]calming music[/div][div class=tag2]going for runs[/div][div class=tag2]soccer[/div][div class=tag2]rainy days[/div][div class=tag2]the beach[/div][div class=tag2]board games[/div][div class=tag2]old movies[/div]

[div class=tag]dislikes[/div]
[div class=tag2]his outbursts[/div][div class=tag2]bullies[/div][div class=tag2]being triggered[/div][div class=tag2]hurting people[/div][div class=tag2]talking about his family[/div][div class=tag2]homophobes[/div][div class=tag2]medication[/div][div class=tag2]being in this hospital[/div][div class=tag2]prying people[/div][div class=tag2]too much physical contact from strangers[/div]

[div class=tag]positive traits[/div]
[div class=tag3]good listener[/div] "i like to think i'm a good listener. i enjoy talking to people, sure, but usually it's more of me hearing what they have to say and just being supportive. i like to listen to people."
[div class=tag3]compassionate[/div] "it's hard for me to not feel bad, seeing someone else in pain or just hurting. i just... even if i don't know them, i feel this urge to try and do what i can to make things better. i know what hurting feels like. i don't want anyone else to feel it."
[div class=tag3]protective[/div] "i don't make friends easily. not because i'm hard to be around — well, i don't know about that either honestly — but i'm just not very talkative, y'know? regardless, when i do make friends, i protect them with my life."
[div class=tag3]cautious[/div] "i mean, this can't be applied all the time, since my blackouts are another story, but when i can, i try to think before saying or doing something, so i don't hurt or negatively impact someone else with my actions or words."
[div class=tag3]helpful[/div] "you could be my worst enemy and i still may feel the need to help if i see you in trouble. it's pretty easy for a person to guilt me into helping too. emotional blackmail is a huge weakness of mine, especially when combined with my natural willingness to help people."

[div class=tag]negative traits[/div]
[div class=tag3]volatile[/div] "i know i don't seem like it but... i'm a little unpredictable. i can't help it. when i get my blackouts — usually when i'm triggered — i can't control what i do. i just wake up and... my knuckles are bloody, my ribs hurt and... and i've caused a lot of damage. i hate it. but i haven't yet learned how to control it."
[div class=tag3]violent[/div] "well this sort of goes hand in hand with my unpredictability. i wasn't always like this you know — i used to hate fighting people. i still do. but something in me just snaps sometimes and there's nothing i can do."
[div class=tag3]paranoid[/div] "yes, i have some mild paranoia. i get worried. i've experienced too much horror to not be paranoid."
[div class=tag3]distant[/div] "look, i'll sit and listen to you talk about your problems for as long as you want to. i'll offer you comfort and a shoulder to cry on. but talking about myself? i just can't do that."
[div class=tag3]reserved[/div] "i'm not a very talkative person. i'm always worried about saying the wrong thing and messing things up, but i guess it just takes me some time to open up."

[div class=tag]what are your fears?[/div]
"doing something i can never go back from. i mean... my blackouts already scare me. i have already done several things i regret, like nearly beating a guy to death. nearly. if i actually do something like that... i don't know what i'd do."

[div class=tag]what would you say is your love language?[/div]
"words of affirmation make a huge difference with me. so does some quality time spent together."

[div class=tag]if you had to give yourself a personality type?[/div]
"i think i'd be an isfj."

(TW: rape, violence, suicide)

[div class=tag3]moment 1: moving from spain[/div] "as a child, i got bullied a lot. i never fit into the popular crowd, unlike my sister. she came to my defence when she could, but i didn't want her to. i wanted to handle things myself. things didn't get any easier when i came out as bi when i was twelve. my family was great about it, i couldn't have asked for anything more. school... school became difficult. my dad went ahead and accepted an offer outside the country, for a change of scenery. for me. i'll never forget the relief i felt, to have a chance to start over."

[div class=tag3]moment 2: sister's abduction[/div] "though it was a fresh start, it wasn't going good. i was kind of settling in in a new country, meeting new people in school. i made a few friends, but not the kind you go out with. just the type you say hello to when you're in the same class. when i was fifteen, my sister... well she was out late one night and she never came home. she was missing for a week. she was eventually found in a warehouse somewhere close to the house of an ex boyfriend of hers. she'd been raped and then clubbed to death. we never knew if her ex was responsible because he wasn't charged with anything. ultimately, nobody was. whoever did it... they just got away with it. that's when my blackouts started. i was angry. just seeing her ex around in school made me angry and one day i heard him talking about her and i just... something in me just snapped. i don't remember what happened, but i remember standing over his body, vision cloudy and knuckles bloody. he was barely breathing."

[div class=tag3]moment 3: mother's death[/div] "life continued to be a rollercoaster from there. whatever friends i did have, no longer wanted anything to do with me. they were afraid of me, and any time someone brought up my sister's name, i couldn't help myself. it was a trigger. i mean, i somehow got through high school anyway, and i even got to college. for a while, things were okay i made new friends. i even dated a bit. at a party though, i saw some guy trying to take advantage of a drunk girl and suddenly i was in school again, thinking about what happened to my sister. i don't need to tell you what happened next. needless to say, i got kicked out of college just when i was about to finish my last year, and i went back home. my parents tried putting me in therapy, which worked for a while i guess, but i also started resorting to self harm to try and control my anger outbursts. shortly after i turned twenty-three, my mom died in a car accident, and that was just the cherry on top. she was only on the road, speeding home from work, because i called her. i couldn't take knowing that i'd done something that caused her death. i didn't think that i needed to live. that i deserved to. everything around me only withered away. after a few failed attempts at taking my own life, my dad became desperate. he found princess margaret's and had me admitted, in the hopes that i might get better. i can't tell if it's working yet."

[div class=tag]do you have any significant relationships in your life?[/div]
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