But you? No... you shouldn't be so hard on yourself! xD
You're good at drawing, you have a great personality, you have great taste in... stuff. :3
Somebody told me the other day that you "get back what you put out". So, people like you and want to be friends with you, because of the way you present yourself, the way you talk and interact with others...
I think that's the problem right there. I don't think we, as people, can see each other properly. I wish that people could swap bodies for a day! Then we'd know...
Er. Not in a rude way, but I think of you as about equal, in power, anyway.