Trombone Geek
KNIFE
Just gonna be some random drabbles/short stories/ramblings of mine here. Because why not. Some of them might be angsty/edgy. Sorry, just how I am sometimes lol
If you find anything remotely good in quality here, or something that could use improvement, let me know! I'm all for comments and all that. And also attention. I bask in it.
Take this first, depressing, probably disappointing and poorly-written half-fiction mostly-true piece of mine. I really did lose my great-grandma, but the rest of it is just a little bit stretched. Imagine it's a vague point in the future for me.
Okay, that was more painful than I thought it'd be.
If you find anything remotely good in quality here, or something that could use improvement, let me know! I'm all for comments and all that. And also attention. I bask in it.
Take this first, depressing, probably disappointing and poorly-written half-fiction mostly-true piece of mine. I really did lose my great-grandma, but the rest of it is just a little bit stretched. Imagine it's a vague point in the future for me.
He pauses, fiddles with his slightly overlarge jacket. Stares at his reflection in the mirror. His reflection. The jacket covers the few sections of the chest binder that the tank top stubbornly refuses to hide, to keep hidden. But what is really drawing his attention is the small, fragile, glinting diamond ring suspended on a short chain, nestled just between the branches of his collar bone. Some might think he's married, or maybe even a widower. But no--it's just been a full two years since his great-grandmother died. Some days he doesn't think about her. But then other days, like today, the reality comes back and hits him full-force in the chest, making it hard to breathe, making his eyes sting.
He reaches up, fingers with the ring, indecisive.
"Your grandpa asked her, 'What do you want for Christmas?' And she replied, "A diamond ring." His grandmother wrings her hands, twists a new addition to the jewelry on her hands, pulls it off. "She always thought you were special, you know." Her voice wavers. His vocal chords seize up, (although 'he' was still more known as a 'she' then), he swallows around the lump, realizes what's about to happen. "You were favorite. Keep it safe." She takes his right hand, slides the ring on his index finger. It barely fits, and as soon as he takes his hand away he wraps his thumb on the band protectively. Keeps it from falling off. "It's yours now." He can barely see now, and as the whimpers he'd been holding back for an hour finally leap from his throat, and tears spill hot down his face, his grandmother wraps him in a comforting embrace. "I will," he promises.
Next to them, a large, beautiful, dark wooden casket sits, a stunning white floral arrangement on the closed lower half, and peeking out of the upper half is his great-grandmother's torso and face, looking decades younger in her peacefulness, her sickness having left her body, her wavy, snowy hair flowing away from her face. Her eyes are closed.
He sobs.
It doesn't really matter what others think. He's going to wear this ring around his neck on a chain, close to his heart without dangling too far from his mind, and he's going to let his fond memories of his great-grandmother guide him, keep him going when he needs it most.
He's not going to let her down, the only person who he's never said hateful words to, never had a mean thought towards. She is the only person who is completely untainted in his mind, and whether or not she would accept him today, damn it, he's never going to let her memory go.
He reaches up, fingers with the ring, indecisive.
"Your grandpa asked her, 'What do you want for Christmas?' And she replied, "A diamond ring." His grandmother wrings her hands, twists a new addition to the jewelry on her hands, pulls it off. "She always thought you were special, you know." Her voice wavers. His vocal chords seize up, (although 'he' was still more known as a 'she' then), he swallows around the lump, realizes what's about to happen. "You were favorite. Keep it safe." She takes his right hand, slides the ring on his index finger. It barely fits, and as soon as he takes his hand away he wraps his thumb on the band protectively. Keeps it from falling off. "It's yours now." He can barely see now, and as the whimpers he'd been holding back for an hour finally leap from his throat, and tears spill hot down his face, his grandmother wraps him in a comforting embrace. "I will," he promises.
Next to them, a large, beautiful, dark wooden casket sits, a stunning white floral arrangement on the closed lower half, and peeking out of the upper half is his great-grandmother's torso and face, looking decades younger in her peacefulness, her sickness having left her body, her wavy, snowy hair flowing away from her face. Her eyes are closed.
He sobs.
It doesn't really matter what others think. He's going to wear this ring around his neck on a chain, close to his heart without dangling too far from his mind, and he's going to let his fond memories of his great-grandmother guide him, keep him going when he needs it most.
He's not going to let her down, the only person who he's never said hateful words to, never had a mean thought towards. She is the only person who is completely untainted in his mind, and whether or not she would accept him today, damn it, he's never going to let her memory go.