Chapbook~

[Lux___Wolf]

I WANT TO


I could die today - Is that all I have to say?


I'm thinking - I'm thinking deep to atoms and stars


What I found, they remind me of you


of the smell of water off steel or wood


The cold wind, lonely hot shower


I'm thinking far to moons and reefs


What I found, they make me think of you


Is that all I have to say? - I could die today


Is that all I have to say? - I want to say thank you


You lit up my life babe - you're the light that paved the past


I want to say so much


You're a Christmas tree - hazy meteor shower


that saved me for last - I don't know


Why I'm so distant - deep and far away from home


All that I love is fire - they burn in mind


when the heart wrings and writhes ice


You're candy, you're mad money


And I die inside thinking of you


I could live today - I want to say thank you


I'm thinking - I'm thinking oh


how it's so bright from the way we came


Holding hands with the light - staring down the dark


I could live today - I want to say so much


You lit up my life babe - You lit up my life


You lit up my life babe - You lit up my life


- - - -

 

[Lux___Wolf]

THIS IS THE BAR


Acoustic whine


Accusing dark ale


Blue light blue


This is the bar I walked into


Slapped glass on wood


Snapped bass making good


Blue light blue


This is the bar you walked into


Where we passed


Each other


And we walked


On right by


Wet glass empty


Let's go, it's on the house


Blue light blue


This is the bar I never found you


Electric whine


Salt lick tequila


Blue light blue


This is the bar I never found you


- - - -

 

[Lux___Wolf]

SOLITARY





A walled flowerless garden I'm in


a little square without a chair and I


keep standing around here when I


wanna go for a rollercoaster ride


ride with us


You make me miss


you mess me up


ride with us


- - - - 



CAN'T IF YOU'RE DEAD


Lead runs through my veins


coloring my arms gray


turns my face to stone


A petrified statue


does nobody good


A petrified statue


can't march to battle


My smarts do me no good


if my heart's on the floor


can't pick it up, I've tried


Cement in a cemetery


Where angry angels rust


Said I'd do it -- didn't


can't do this right now


You just can't if you're dead


deeply dead on the inside


can't save myself, I've tried


I relate to the tin man now


in his rotting apple orchard


Crusting over


nothing I can do


Iron in hopeless rain


waiting another day


Twisting metal


nothing I can do


Even steel decay


waiting another day


A petrified statue


does nobody good!


I relate to the tin man now


standing on the long yellow brick road


hurting hurting another day!


- - - -

 

[Lux___Wolf]

I Thought You Would Love Me


But I turned out a burnt bridge to you!


How disappointing


As disappointed as you and young


That's your poison and no longer mine


Radicals, fools,


and all things wrong


It's hard enough one has


what the other needs


You seduced me


like perfumed rain


You left so quietly


made me feel why


I'm not the fireworks


you were looking for


and that is okay


So I run into the arms


of my enemies


thought that was okay


Razor sharp heartbeats


steel snare snapping


asked am I okay


Trying to explode, to become more


Picking myself up just to crumble


I was a fizzling disaster to you!


How disappointing


You've called me everything


Everything that I could think of


So often that my life stopped


making sense


So it's time for me to ghost


back into the woods deep


Permission! Validity!


Trying to explode


to be seen


Permission! Validity!


To become more


to somebody


I thought you would love me!


You kept saying so


Then again, you've said


everything


I thought you would love me!


You kept saying so


So it's time for me to ghost


back into the woods deep


- - - -


Smolders Beautifully So


Their bonfire arrows aim sky high


whoosh the release of brimstone fly


keep missing me here, there, they try


second wave, third wave, still waves come


smashing and scattering candles


But now I know candles die


Now I know the raining hate


brings me heat!


Bam just as expected, just as well


There's a big one jut out my heart


and smolders beautifully so


Swaying, strutting, smoke fanning my face


the burning has dulled to cold


so I know now all fire dies


That the raining hate


brings me heat


Bam my throat gets one


ba-bam three to my head


bah nothing will keep me


from walking on through


Swaying, strutting, smoke fanning my face


I know now the raining hate dies


smoldering beautifully so


- - - -

 

[Lux___Wolf]

PICK A FAVORITE


keep finding that tingling in your toes


within your chest that gushing glow


pick a favorite, doesn't matter if it's not one


keep finding that contrast cold in your world


in your sky that silver thundercloud


finding that all you've been missing is ambience


all you've been longing for you found that was luxury


finding that the day greys when you're on your own


that people become colors you can never own


rewinding that decaying light across your water


that stricken agony of losing your sunset


you're here to pick a favorite, doesn't matter which one


rewinding that tang in your tall glass of wine


that pang in your small unmending heart


finding that all you've been aiming for is ambience


all you've been loving you found that was luxury


so here you thought


that you could handle the pain


here you keep finding


that you're still rewinding


so here you ended up


too conflicted inside


that none of it matters


despair still takes your favorite away


here you keep finding


that your smile's faltering


here you pick a favorite


luxury was all you've been loving


luxury's all you've been longing for


here you pick a favorite


ambience was all you've been missing


ambience's all you've been aiming for


- - - - -

 

[NickTehAvenger]

I say bravo. 
What about this, it's not supposed to rhyme though, more emotional.


Think of an world where all


hold hands, none think of


some as an outcast but as


a mere friend; not an foe nor


idiot. This is the death that


surrounds us from birth to


the end

 

[Lux___Wolf]

I say bravo. 
What about this, it's not supposed to rhyme though, more emotional.
Think of an world where all


hold hands, none think of


some as an outcast but as


a mere friend; not an foe nor


idiot. This is the death that


surrounds us from birth to


the end

I think what you have is the foundation/underlying main emotion. Words like outcast, friend, death, birth; expand them! What examples are they the strongest in your life? And why? It's in the little details. Is there a strange but familiar fragrance? Is there a venn diagram of opposites in a small room? The more personal to the five senses and reality/culture, the clearer the emotion in the reader!

 

[NickTehAvenger]

It was supposed to mean friends and others who have died were in a room together, waiting for death to take their soul and they become friends as he does it.

 

[Lux___Wolf]

I know, but don't tell me what it means, write how it means.

 

[NickTehAvenger]

Mhm. You can write off of it and take it as yours. My dream inspired it.

 

[Lux___Wolf]

That's not mine, it is your emotion alone.