can you remember it too? laying on the carpet together, our hearts
beat as one.
i could hold you again!
i was so happy.
summer was always so warm, the two of us in window light.
but with the
darkness
staining my shirt, you began to leave me again.
i wondered,
why was i feeling so cold...
there you were.
i thought i’d never see you again. i missed you, i loved you.
there’s so much left to say, please, don’t go. don’t leave.
i can feel my arms again, i’m screaming, i reach out to you,
but right when i can feel you
that moment, i’m so happy
that you’re back in my arms.
tears...
it hurts. it hurts when you hold me. i don’t want this. you don’t love me.
the tighter you hold, the further your thorns pierce into my delicate skin.
i’m just a kid.
please. please let go of me. i don’t want this.
don’t play with my heart.
i don’t want you.
and you know what?
maybe math just isn’t for me.
maybe english isn’t for me.
maybe an education isn’t for me.
maybe a job isn’t for me.
i tried. you know what, i really tried.
but fate binds us all in cruel ways, and she really doesn’t like me.
fate is such a beautiful thing.
maybe love wasn’t...
and i’m constricted
this wrap around my heart
you sink your fangs into my blood
and i’m poisoned.
it hurt for a little bit
but when we connected you made it all better.
this poison
it makes me sick
i crave more.
please, give it a try and bite me again.
you’re.. laughing..
i told a joke..
and you’re laughing..
you’re smiling..
i didn’t think it was funny,
yet,
seeing you so happy
has gotten me so worked up..
i can’t seem to get a grip on you
yet, i can’t let go.
you're so great and funny, you have your whole life ahead of you.
and yet somehow, you pull yourself down with an anchor like me
and you won’t unhook yourself.
i never understood
why you’d stay
why you’d care
why you’d love me
but what do i...
and so what if i’m not allowed to eat citrus? i’d gladly share lemonade and sour patch kids any day with you.
i just won’t let you see me when i have to throw them up later.
that careless, forgetful you.
the you without the right tool.
don’t worry dear,
you can borrow my pencil.
covered with teeth marks,
it’s been my favourite.
but to give it to you means everything.
after class, straight to the trash.
tomorrow’s another day.
”hey,
can i borrow a pen?”
could we probably go back to the sixth grade?
valentine’s day, those lovely gifts
a small box
the swift interaction of passing papers.
when i got yours, i couldn’t help but
hang it on my wall
and the one i made with my bare hands
staying up at late, glitter and tape
the cutting the bleeding...