RpNation

Hey.

No.

Don't do that. You're not.

I really should quit this place though

No.
No.
No.
You can't, you're too awesome and--
No.

.-. I'm not awesome, I'm barely some

You gotta start having some confidence, man.
You'll never feel any better if you keep on making yourself your worst enemy.

I can't magic up confidence

I said start, not magic it up.
Confidence doesn't easily come to a person and you can't always not give a shit but the only person who doesn't seem to think you're great is..well, you.

I was starting to get confidence, for a while I was starting to like myself and all sorts of good things.
Then my closest friend abandoned me. Now he acts as if I never existed, as if our years of friendship meant nothing. He moved on with his normal life completely unscathed.
I am fundamentally useless.

Things like that happen, it wasn't a friend if he abandoned you. It may be hard to accept that but learn from his mistakes, if you keep on letting that get to you then you're never gonna be happy.
You are not useless.

He's not the only one, he was just the last one.
No one who actually knows me for extended periods of time care, I'm just a ghost in the lives of other people.
I don't matter.

See?
There you go again, people aren't friends if they abandon you so easily. You have to start looking on the brighter side even when there is none, hell, we all have bad days.
Not saying this is a bad day, I am merely stating that there are others who have the capability of treating you better. Come chill with me. Or not. Your choice.

Well if every friend I ever have is not actually a friend, then I'm just an asshole that attracts assholes.
Honestly how is that any better?
I get it you're trying to be nice, but I'm not worth being nice to. It's a waste of time.

Maybe I want to be nice because I believe it is worth it.
If you want to be an asshole, that's fine with me. It's a helluva lot easier than adhering to others. I'm not being kind, I'm being truthful.