I'd love to see you both explain your viewpoints. If you cannot, then why come here in the first place? Failure to explain both or one of the questions means you couldn't comprehend the magnitude of your own folly here.
You claim to have a dark hellish past with nothing to back it up. I have had a stroke, a brak. Tu or for 3 year, amnesia, and a drunk abusive father. I don't claim to have a dark or hellish past. Not edgy.
That is to say, you don't necessarily need to back it up, but the internet would generally call this edgy, as it feels unwarranted, as nobody knows why this is being said.
Let see you try and make something out of a life you couldn't fix if you tried. Or deal with the incompetent minds of those around you. Might i also add, we both see things differently so you should take that in mind when you tread here alright?
I am fully aware people see things differently. And under very few circumstances can someones life be unfixable or irredeemable. I suggest seeking assistance if things truly seem hopeless.
Also, don't claim people are incompetent, especially an indeterminent plural value of people. It makes life harder.