Poetry You never noticed

[Syfer]

You never noticed her smile that shone like the day
Because the sun was always there to shine
You never noticed her laugh that filled the air
Because there was always another noise
You never noticed her eyes of pure joy
Because you never bothered to look
You never noticed how she just made everything better
Because she was always there

 

[Syfer]

You as in I
I never noticed
You never cared
You as in I
I as in me
I never thought to look
And you see now that
I made a major mistake
You as in I
I as in me
Me
I
You
It's all the same
Meaning I was horrible and never looked

 

[Syfer]

These are the thoughts that consume me at night.
The thoughts that haunt me in the darkness.
The thoughts that keep me awake.
The thoughts that make me stay.
Make me stay with you, at your grave.
Make me stay with you, up in heaven.
Make me stay with you, as you fell asleep.

 

[Syfer]

Tears tear at my eyes
And the pieces of my heart lay dead
How can I breathe without lungs?
How can I see through water?
How can I live without a heart?
You were my heart
You kept me alive
You kept my blood pumping
Then my heart was ripped out of my chest
And I lay flat without you
How can I live without you?

 

[Syfer]

(More spoken word than poetry)
Desperation clings to me like that of morning dew on grass.
But unlike dew it doesn't fade with the ominous sun, because unlike that blade of grass I have no sun.
My sun was stolen from me the day she died.
The day I finally realized I needed the sun to live.
But in my confusion it was to late; my sun ripped out of my sky and buried underground.
How could I have been so blind?
How could you never notice?
Why did I live like nothing mattered?
Why did you do nothing to stop her?

 

[Syfer]

Little nightmares
Little nightmares
Follow in my wake
Dreams of terror destroy my mind
Screams and pain and terror
My ears pound with noise
White noise that I can never place
Maybe a whisper
Her voice in my ear
No it’s laugher
Her jittery twinkling jewels
No that’s not right, it’s screams
Her screams for me when she stopped
No that’s not it either, it’s silence
A terrible taunting silence; one without end
But in truth it is non of this and all of this
Little nightmares
Follow in my wake