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"all i do is finesse, man."
Ghost in the Halls

EPISODE 1
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utumn clung to the campus like a bruise. The trees bled color, reds too sharp, oranges like fire left too long in the pan. Leaves scattered the walkways in papery drifts, curling like burnt pages beneath boots and wheels and the hesitant shuffle of students who couldn’t quite meet each other’s eyes. Halloween approached, but there was no celebration in it this year. The only masks worn were the ones that kept students from breaking in public. The only tricks played were the ones grief plays on memory.

There were holes where people used to be. Students had gone missing, quietly at first, one by one, names whispered with dread. In the city, mutant disappearances were rising, chalked up to runaway rumors and bad neighborhoods, but no one believed that anymore. Not really. There were no signs. No reasons. Just absence, unexplained and growing.

Ezra Price had flown once. Everyone remembered that about him. The effortless way he used to lift off during practice, arms outstretched like some wingless angel who never feared the sky. He was a senior. A flier. A friend to some, a crush to others, a background fixture to a few, but now he was a symbol. That morning’s assembly etched it into them like a scar. Chancellor Monroe spoke gently, her voice even and strong, but it cracked on the edges if you listened hard enough. The teachers flanked the stage like mourners in suits, each one holding something back. No real details were shared, no official cause of death announced. But the students didn’t need them. They had seen it.

Ezra had vanished for seven days. No one knew where he had been. He came back quiet, wrong somehow, like someone who had worn the same skin but lost the person underneath it. He didn’t talk much. Didn’t sleep. His roommate said his hands shook, his eyes were distant, like he’d forgotten what his room looked like. Then, just after the first period, in full view of the quad, he climbed to the rooftop and jumped. And he didn’t scream until the wind took him. Some students said he looked peaceful, like the fall itself was a release.

The school had never been so quiet. Even the loud ones, the pranksters, the brash, the flirtatious—they moved through the day as if their laughter had been locked away. Grief settled over Xavier’s like a weighted blanket that no one could shake off. Some cried openly, sitting in circles in the gardens or lying on the dorm floors in shared silence. Others buried themselves in the gym, the library, anywhere their minds could outpace what their hearts didn’t want to process. But for all the heartbreak, something sharper crept underneath. Fear. No one knew where Ezra had been. No one knew what had been done to him. And now, the safest school for mutants in the world felt like a castle full of cracks.

When night fell that Friday, and the moon slipped behind the cloudbank like it, too, was too tired to watch, they gathered in the woods behind the school. Past the clearing, past the fencing. Past curfew. No permission had been given, but mourning didn’t ask for permission. A bonfire roared in the center of the hollow, flames licking upward into the crisp October air, sparks snapping like fireflies. Someone had dragged logs and stolen folding chairs. Others brought blankets and bags of stolen snacks. A few juniors had smuggled in whiskey and vodka and cheap wine coolers, and the red solo cups were already being filled when the first group arrived.

Ezra’s name had been carved into the side of a tree, the bark flaking where the blade had dug in. Someone had brought a boombox and was playing songs from his collection of CD’s—the one he made after breakups, full of melancholy songs and haunted melodies. Laughter cracked through the clearing from time to time, but it came too sudden, too high, as if daring someone to call it disrespectful. No one did. Because everyone understood. This was how grief worked for them. A flickering fire. A little rebellion. An aching need to feel anything that wasn’t that moment on the rooftop.

And in the corners, just outside the brightest ring of firelight, something else began to circulate. A small metallic vial, passed from hand to hand with murmured curiosity. Kick. The name was whispered like a dare, like a secret too sharp to say aloud. No one knew where it came from, but everyone knew what it did. One hit and it lit you up from the inside. Like adrenaline had teeth. Like your skin finally fit the way it should. Mutants, even with their superior immune systems, felt its bite. Some said it made your powers spike. Others said it made your trauma vanish for a little while. Some just wanted to not feel hollow anymore.

And so they took it. Not all, but enough. Some out of curiosity, others from pain, some just because they didn’t want to be the only one still sober in the face of Ezra’s ghost. Vials moved through the clearing like a myth, and the firelight danced on the faces of students who weren’t ready to be adults, but no longer got to be kids.

That night, the school slept in silence, unaware of the rites being performed in its woods. Unaware that grief had teeth now. That fear had begun to turn to recklessness. That something was circling them, closing in.

Ezra Price was gone.

But the smoke still rose.


ezra's song:
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LU BASHENGA
// panther .
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e stood just outside the circle, one shoulder pressed to the cold bark of a tree, arms crossed over his chest, eyes unreadable beneath the hood he hadn’t bothered to pull back. Firelight licked at the toes of his boots but never climbed high enough to touch his face. He preferred it that way—half in shadow, half outside of all this. Watching. The other students moved through the clearing like shadows in a dream, their motions stuttering between too-much and not-enough. Laughter cracked the air now and then, too loud, too sharp, like a defense mechanism that didn’t quite work. Children mourning like warriors. Or maybe warriors pretending they were still children. Either way, it didn’t matter. None of them were fooling the dark.



In the shadows just beyond him, a pair of low eyes glinted, catching stray flickers of firelight. Baiyara. The black jaguar prowled the edges of the trees, unseen by most, her presence more sensed than witnessed. Silent, patient, her movements smooth and spectral, a ghost with muscle and breath. Her spirit tethered to Lu’s as tightly as his own heartbeat, and she was restless tonight. Pacing. She felt it too, the pressure in the air, the tension vibrating just beneath the surface. Something rotten. Something ancient. This place wasn’t safe. It had never been safe. Xavier’s wore its legacy like a mask of stone, but Baiyara could smell the cracks beneath it. Lu trusted her instincts more than he trusted the administration. And right now, those instincts could only mean that they were all in danger.



He hadn’t known Ezra Price well not like some of the others, not like the ones crying into shared arms or drinking like the fire could burn memories away. Ezra had been a hallway nod. A good laugh over rubbery mashed potatoes in the cafeteria. A flash of wings, a quiet kind of charisma, the kind you only noticed when it vanished. But you didn’t need history to feel the wrongness. The boy had vanished for a week and come back hollowed out, like someone had worn his skin but forgot how to inhabit it. People kept saying he was different. But Lu didn’t think he’d come back different, he thought Ezra hadn’t come back at all. And now? Grief moved through the student body like a fever, contagious and wild, licking at their heels like a blaze no one could outrun.



He hadn’t planned to come out here. Hadn’t expected the fire or the gathering or the weight in the air that pressed against his lungs. But grief doesn’t follow plans. It calls to grief like blood in the water calls to predators. And Lu, whether he admitted it or not, had plenty of his own. He remembered being six and dying in his mother’s arms. He remembered the heat of the heart-shaped herb setting fire to his insides. He remembered Bast, distant and watching, and the feel of Baiyara curling beside his soul. He had left behind a crown, a name, a future already drawn for him in gold and politics. Pain had made him something else. Something older than his years, hungrier than his titles. And yet, even that didn’t feel like this. What haunted Xavier’s now was raw, primal. Untamed.



He didn’t bother with pretending. That wasn’t his style. The red solo cup dangling from his fingers had been refilled twice already, and the burn of cheap whiskey curled warmly through his chest, numbing the sharp parts of his thoughts. He drank to quiet the ghosts. To loosen the grief rattling around his ribcage. To feel something that wasn’t dread. Lu had always been louder than his hurt, and tonight was no different. He showed up with a smirk and a bold laugh, cracked a joke about Ezra’s breakup playlist—“honestly, brother, you died and still made us listen to that sad white boy nonsense?”—and when a few kids laughed, sharp and hesitant, he pushed it further. Gave them the show. Stole a blanket from a sophomore, draped it around his shoulders like a cloak, flirted with the junior who had brought the vodka like nothing mattered at all. Because someone had to make it feel less like a funeral and more like a rebellion.



The vial made its rounds. Kick. He took it without hesitation when it reached him, lifting it in a toast toward the fire like it was communion. He didn’t ask what was in it. He didn’t care. One hit and it lit up his chest like lightning under his skin. Something primal stirred, more than the alcohol, sharper than adrenaline. His power buzzed alive, humming through his bones like he’d swallowed the pulse of a storm. He grinned wide, too wide, flashing teeth like a predator with nothing to hide. It didn’t feel right. But it did feel good. That was enough.



“Ezra,” Lu said, raising the cup again, voice laced with his thick Wakandan accent and a kind of wild affection that couldn’t quite disguise the ache beneath it. “You dramatic bastard. You could’ve waited ‘til midterms. None of us were gonna pass anyway.”



That got more laughs—some real, some startled. One girl choked on hers, and Lu caught her eye, tossed her a wink like they were in on some terrible secret together. He kept them going after that. More jokes. More charm. Another drink. It was easier to keep talking than sit still with what none of them were ready to face.



But even in the noise, his gaze kept slipping to the trees. To the dark. To the shadow of Baiyara pacing through branches like a warning. His smile twitched. Faltered. Just for a second.



That’s when he felt it, those eyes on him. Not the kind you ignore. The kind that looked like they weren’t meant to be caught doing the looking. He turned slightly, just enough to see her lingering at the edge of the firelight. Not close. Not far. Watching.



Anne.



He recognized the silhouette. Recognized the stillness, the way she hovered just outside the circle like a ghost unsure of its welcome. Girl moved like fog. Said very little. Kept her gloves on like armour and her eyes on everything else. But Lu had seen her in class, heard that garbled Southern drawl when she got nervous, caught the flush that crept up her neck when he teased her—harmless things, soft things. A nickname here. A grin that lasted a second too long.



She was shy. He was not.



He tipped his cup toward her, not quite a greeting. More of an offering. A flicker of acknowledgment that didn’t ask for anything in return.



“Look who came crawlin’ out the crypt,” he murmured, just loud enough to carry, voice smooth as syrup. “Didn’t take you for the type to come out after dark.”



His smile softened when their eyes met. He didn’t leer. Didn’t press. That wasn’t how you handled girls like her. You let them choose the pace.



Still, something about her pulled at him. Not just the mystery, though that was part of it. There was a weight behind her eyes that matched his in a way he didn’t like to admit. Like they both knew what it meant to wear guilt like a second skin.



Whether she stepped into the circle or slipped back into shadow, that was her call.



But if she did—he’d make room.

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Kiri Yashida
// Honey Badger
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round the perimeter of the bonfire alight in memory of Ezra Price stalked Kiri Yashida. It was an old Yashida clan custom to be extra vigilant at times of great happiness or sorrow, even to the extent of having members of the clan defer there time with such emotion to watch over the others as the celebrated or grieved. A custom that was sadly necessary when you were sworn enemies of the Hand. And perhaps necessary when one was a mutant, Kiri feared. So, she walked the edges of the fire light, watching the shadows, in case they were more than the absense of light.

A few students had stopped her in her circut, offering liquor, a hug, or whatever, which Kiri politely declined. She could use a drink, though it would defeat the purpose in her vigil and would take up too much of this illicit stach to get her buzzed like she wanted. Some seemed confused by her behavior, others seemed all too cognizant of the role she was playing. One student had offered her something in a metal vial, the contents of which smelled strange to her enhanced senses. She waved him off, but eyed him as he left. She could guess what was in the vial was something stronger than alcohol. She wasn't one to judge what people put in their own own bodies, especially at a time like this, but she did keep an eye out in case someone on it started causing problems.

She turned back the way she had come when she got closer to the large form of Baiyara. The big cat seemed to be on guard too, watching over Lu as he joined in the wake. Kiri was never sure just how intelligent Baiyara was, so she kept her distance from the jaguar out of respect she hoped was reciprcated. She paused a moment when a fresh sent came up. A tight smile passed over Kiri's face as she recognized Rogue's scent. She had worried about her roommate tonight, but the Southern Belle coming out to join in was good. Ezra had been a friend of Rogue's, so needed this. Though Kiri had thought her acting as guard was important, she had resolved to spent the rest of the night offering what comfort she could to Rogue, including sharing some sake she had hidden on the grounds.

"Good for you."
Kiri murmurred to herself, her gaze lingering Rogue's way for a moment.

A toast went out for Ezra, getting positive reactions from the assembled students as Kiri slipped back into the shadows around the bonfire to keep her watch.

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Fred Dukes
❛ Blob ❜
Fred didn’t really sit with the rest. He lingered near the firelight, half-hidden in shadow, one heavy shoulder propped up against a tree trunk, as if to prevent it from falling. His arms were folded across his chest, his jaw set, eyes painfully fixed on the flame—but they were not watching. Not really. He didn’t drink. Didn’t dare touch the Kick. It had come his way once, dangling from a finger like a sore sort of bait, but he didn’t even glance at it. He just shook his head at it, letting it drift past like the rest of that painful night.

Ezra had been his spotter at the gym. He wasn’t strong but steady, and he never laughed when Fred grunted through a deadlift or tie-down he’d placed on the gym floor. It was just, “You’ve got this, big guy,” the holding of the bar like that meant something. Now that voice was gone-with Fred not knowing what to do with the space it left.

He hated being out here, sharing grief like it was a flask. But he hated more that he couldn’t stop them. That he couldn’t fix anything. That no one could say where Ezra had gone for those seven days or what had hollowed him out so cleanly.

Fred flinched at a sudden burst of laughter. He gazed down at red solo cups and smoke as it drifted through the trees as if it had a will of its own. His stomach twisted-not with guilt-but with something heavier.

“They’re all pretending it’s not gonna happen again,” he muttered under his breath; it was not really to anyone. “Like we’re not all next...”


 
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kitty pryde
shadowcat

It was safe to say that this had been an unusual week for everyone. Though Kitty had never been particularly close with Ezra, she had felt his absence like a palpable thing across campus since he had plummeted to his death. She had been upset at the death, sure, but surely she shouldn't be as upset as she was? Despite what she kept trying to tell herself, she couldn't help but see the patterns in the missing students. When Ezra had come back as a shell of himself, even those who weren't really friends with him could tell. When she saw him around campus, he had seemed lifeless, like a completely different person--or rather, like the mere shadow of a person. Where he had once been handsome, the light in his eyes drawing in people admittedly quite like Kitty herself, his last week had been strange. It almost reminded her of when she had made the mistake of reading Pet Sematary. Almost.

Kitty pressed her lips together, trying to shake the thought from her mind. She gripped the red solo cup in her possession tighter, trying to have fun and enjoy herself. Though the tension on campus had reached a fever pitch, at least some people seemed to be having a good time. Though perhaps that was too positive of an assessment; some people were throwing themself into this party like their lives depended on it. Trying to forget, maybe, or trying to ignore the gnawing fear that one day they would be next. Kitty took a deep breath, trying to steel herself. There was no proof that anyone was next; nothing concrete, anyway. And if something did happen to her, at least she would know the truth. More than anything, Kitty wanted to find the truth. There had to be something going on here that she hadn't figured out yet. But she couldn't do anything about that right at this moment, could she? Probably not.

Still, it felt wrong to have fun at a party in the wake of such a serious event. But her misgivings should hardly stop others from enjoying themselves or simply trying to get as drunk as possible to ignore the tragic event. The last thing Kitty ever wanted to do was be a downer at a party. So she forced a smile as she turned to her friend, taking a sip of the alcohol in her cup and wishing she would have added more mixer and less vodka. There was a faint pink lip gloss stain on the cup, glittery on the white rim. She had put in no small amount of effort tonight to look cute, so why not at least attempt to enjoy herself?

Though there was another thing she was curious about that felt less taboo to mention--Kick. She didn't have a habit of indulging in illicit substances, but she wanted to know whether it was really here at the party and why anyone would risk the dangers just for a few moments of fun. She certainly wouldn't--would she?

"You haven't been offered Kick, have you?" she asked Rachel, furrowing her eyebrows. "I swear I heard someone mention it. But like, isn't it super dangerous? And addictive?" She chuckled then, shaking her head. Jeez Kitty, would you just chill? It's probably fine. It's not like anyone is going to make you do Kick if you don't want to. "Oh my god, I'm being such a worrywart. What do you think of the party so far?"
 
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Pietro was probably not going to remember this night tomorrow. Was it the best coping mechanism? No. Was he going to change his ways anytime soon? Also no. He lived fast, and he lived hard, and if anything, Ezra's death was going to fuel him to do more of that. Ezra had been a friendly presence, someone he didn't mind spending time with even if they weren't necessarily best friends, and what happened to him was downright haunting. The vacancy behind Ezra's eyes the last week before he died would haunt Pietro for a long time to come, but he wanted to delay the inevitable pangs of despair for as long as possible. Though he could outpace anyone or anything, the one thing he seemed to have trouble running from was his problems. Though that wasn't if it stopped him from trying.

Was his sister here? He wasn't even sure anymore. He hadn't properly spoken to her since Ezra's disappearance, and he had felt a rift growing between them recently that he had done nothing to repair. It wasn't as if he didn't miss being close with her, but when he got stressed, he did tend to isolate himself. Of course, he had plenty of friends, but they were more the type of friendship to shoot the shit with, not to give one's entire life's story and discuss deeper topics. The only people he found himself truly close to these days seemed to consist of mostly other members of the Brotherhood. They were the only ones who really understood him, after all. No one else truly got what he had gone through, and what he had lost.

As the cups were filled, he drank enough that he lost track of how much he'd drank, so when the Kick was passed around, well, who was he to say no? He wasn't about to be a bummer, and besides, the stuff seemed fun enough to get away with for a night. It wasn't as if he was going to make a habit of it. Might as well try it just once, just to understand why people were so insistent about getting their hands on it. He was certainly curious. The combination of things made everything appear fantastical, almost dreamlike. It was like he could control the speed at which the world around him moved--though he knew that was more due to his speed than the world itself--and it made him feel like a god. At first, he had zipped around the bonfire, stealing drinks right out of people's hands, untying the shoelaces of people he didn't like, even going so far as to trip a guy trying to be suave and watching him embarrass himself by falling on his face. He felt like there was lightning pulsing through his veins, giving him energy and life. He had so much energy, and so much time. He alternated between chatting with people, his heartbeat keeping time to the music, to speeding up and playing all manner of little tricks or running around and around the school grounds just because he could. And farther than that, timing himself as he tried to see exactly how far he could take things.

In this state, it was no wonder the alcohol was doing next to nothing for him despite the sheer amount he had consumed. Man, I need a keg stand or something. That might actually affect me a little. But the more he drank after using Kick, the more he felt like he could feel the alcohol having an effect. Maybe he was making it up in his head, a sort of placebo trick. But he actually felt something, which was more than he could usually say.

And this was the state he was in as he noticed Fred off by himself, looking quite downtrodden. In his addled state, and with his desire to forget, he wasn't thinking about Ezra at all anymore. He didn't want to think about him, or the grief and fear would set in. And Pietro couldn't let that happen. If he let all of the bad stuff hit him, he might not bounce back so quickly. And if he couldn't bounce back, what good was he to Magneto? What good was he to Wanda? His sister, who he had done everything for, until the pressure he'd put on himself had become unbearable and he'd ran from it. But now wasn't the time to think. Now was the time to party like there was no tomorrow. And Fred didn't appear to be trying to do that in the slightest.


"Heyyy Freddy!" he called cheerfully, speeding towards him. One second, he was in front of the guy, heading towards him, and in the next, he was standing next right to Fred, holding a red solo cup that had not been his originally. "Not gonna join the party?"
 
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charlie powell
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It wasn't supposed to be like this.

Ezra hadn't attended the ridiculously early training sessions with Scott for a week without so much as a word. It was usually Charlie who was late. They weren't super close, but Charlie had gotten used to him, used to his jabs and his offensively strong cologne. Used to the way his laugh sounded when she'd screw up, or when they'd both team up in making fun of Scott. She knew he'd wanted to be closer once upon a time, but it'd just been a fling for her years ago, before everything got... complicated. Ezra had been a good friend, and she needed more of those than she needed another person to fuck that she didn't have feelings for. He came back as a ghost, and she should've been there, done something, anything. As always, she was too busy knee-deep in her own shit to bother with anyone else, between X-Men training, classes, and doing whatever it took to get someone else whispering about her in the hallway when she walked by. Like always, she didn't notice until it was too late.

Then she was watching him plummet to the ground like he couldn't–– no, wouldn't–– fly anymore, heard his body hit the concrete, watched as the faculty scrambled to cover him with a sheet that started to bloom red with blood. Just like that, he was gone.

The Kick was making her teeth buzz. She was sitting on a tree branch high above the bonfire, close enough still to hear the laughter and the bass from the boombox, wings occasionally ruffled by the wind. It was supposed to make her feel better, and it did for a bit, but now she just felt like a live wire, hot to the touch. Her hands shook in her lap, not enough to spill the mystery drink out of her cup and onto the people below, but enough to make her consciously aware of it. If she focused, she could make out the conversations a few were having, but she was trying, if anything, to block it all out. Numb herself. It was a familiar tactic, and it might've worked if she hadn't heard what came out of Fred's mouth.

Like we're not all next.

And she was flying down, just barely missing the bonfire, feathers ruffled as she slurred her words and looked around for no one in particular—anyone to direct her pain at. "Did any of you even fucking know him?" she barked, getting nothing but blank stares and maybe a few awkward murmurings. This wasn't admiration. Her hands were still fucking shaking. "H-He didn't even fucking like this song!" she growled, turning to meet the stares of the people gathered around the fire. This was pity. She was being pitied. In a bout of frustration, she tossed the rest of her fourth, maybe fifth, cup of liquid into the fire and started to storm off, stumbling a little with no particular destination in mind. Just away from here.

 
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Fred Dukes
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Fred barely flinched when Pietro appeared beside him, though the sudden wind that came with his arrival stirred the leaves at his feet. His eyes stayed fixed ahead, locked on the glow of the bonfire beyond the treeline, distant and too warm. The crack of someone’s laughter echoed faintly through the trees—sharp, too sharp—and Fred’s jaw clenched a little tighter.

He gave Pietro a sideways glance, slow and heavy like turning a tank turret. The cup in Pietro’s hand caught the firelight, and Fred didn’t need to ask where it had come from. “I am at the party,” he rumbled, voice low, like boulders grinding under pressure. “Just not in the mood to pretend it’s a party worth showin’ up for.”

He exhaled through his nose, slow and tired. “You’re buzzin’ like a damn hornet. You even remember why we’re out here, or did the Kick clear that outta your head too?” There wasn’t anger in his tone. Not quite. Just that quiet weight Fred always carried when things stopped making sense and nobody wanted to say it out loud.

He looked back toward the fire, watching the silhouettes lean in too close, laughing a little too loud. “I ain't mad you’re tryin’ to feel somethin’. Hell, I get it. But don’t come over here actin’ like all this means nothin’. 'Cause it does, Pietro...”

Fred’s shoulders rose and fell in one heavy breath. “Ezra was a good guy. And he’s... gone. And whatever did it to him might still be out there. So maybe let people feel that. Even if it sucks.”

Then, softer, almost too low to hear: “I miss him too, y’know...”

Fred turned his attention to Charlie, who was far from taking Ezra's passing lightly as she addressed everyone present at the fire. And he hated seeing her so upset. To Fred, seeing Charlie so upset just felt... wrong. He pushed off the tree and lumbered after her, boots crunching leaves, catching up just beyond the fire‑glow; he didn’t grab her, just matched her stagger with a slow, immovable pace and rumbled, “Yeah, Charlie—I knew him. And I know this song sucks and the booze is worse, but torchin’ yourself on Kick ain’t gonna make the ghost shut up. Come cool off with me at the edge, yeah Cause if there's one thing I know about Ezra, without a shadow of a doubt, is that he believed no one deserved to be alone."


 

Anna-Marie Bayard ೃ⁀➷ ROGUE
tags: fin fin {Lu}
location: forest kickback, just outside of group

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What remained of those that were lost lingered on Anna Marie's mind like a song stuck on loop; the record scratching endlessly, turning 'round and 'round until the jump became a twitch and the urges became impulses. She tried not to linger on thoughts of death, or the missing too much. It brought with it colourful shades of pitiful nostalgia, remembering a childhood spent locked away and thinking that if anything happened nobody but her family would know-- and at some point believing that they wouldn't care if anything had happened. Then it would blossom, like a painful bleeding memory, to making ends meet on the street. How had she managed until that group home? Until the familiar loneliness of other kids who were alone; but she wasn't an orphan, left with nothing like them. She had a family. They didn't know where she was.

Maybe they didn't care.

Such thoughts were selfish, perhaps, in light of the missing at Xavier's. The dead. Ezra.

He'd been Anna-Marie's first. Far from any intimate type of first, that which she knew she'd never be afforded due to her powers, but the first mutant that she'd used said powers on. It had been one of the entry level tests that they'd asked of her upon admittance; she was mutant alright, but to what extent did her ability catch onto others. It had been a fear fall, Ezra told to soar high; Anna-Marie instructed to take her gloves off and reluctantly see if these abilities could cross onto her barriers. Risky, perhaps, though the guilt of watching Ezra's breath catch and his eyes slightly roll backward as she tapped into him. Maybe it had been intimate, in a sense, more than Anna-Marie had figured. The closest she'd been to anyone in a while. And she had flown not by much, but enough to make it clear that she could.

And it was a sort of kinship born from that sort of fire, Anna-Marie feeling some sort of debt to Ezra that needn't be paid. She hadn't wanted to latch on, to look desperate, but she had been. And he'd been open enough to accept her friendship. Small acts, mixtapes and CDs, hallways conversations or tutoring for a few of the rudimentary courses that Anna-Marie had needed to catch up on from those odd years spent without school or a home. He'd been as close to a friend, one that was genuine and not transactional, that someone like her could be afforded. The first, and one of the rare few.

It had been a rough turn around, from missing to dead. There'd been some ragged, half consumed hole left behind. She'd experienced loss and the repercussions of such as a child. Ezra hadn't been her fault, and it wasn't as if it even made sense that it could be. But she'd blamed herself. She always did.

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The firelight danced in her hazy vision, blurry tears painting a vignette around the student's silhouettes. Rogue wore the hood to her zip-up over her head, tucking all of her hair under it and trying to blend into the shadows. Her jean jacket was a warmth, oversized just slightly and ragged at the hem from wear and tear. Sporting this dark denim with a matching pair of tight jeans, Anna-Marie shifted in her boots. Though she held a cup, same as the other students, it was barely full. She didn't drink, didn't like to lose control in front of others, but it had felt wrong to not have at least a little for Ezra. Her gloves for the evening were the standard sort of semi-thick wool that you'd see in the autumn, looking less out of place than usual, at least. Her nose was red, partially from crying a bit earlier, and partially from the bit of vodka that sat at the bottom of her cup.

She hadn't said much to anyone there, just standing at the fringes, part of it all but distant enough to avoid undue conversation. Any other time and she wouldn't have minded accidentally stumbling into a talk. It was better than the awkward sort of silence that ate away at her most times, though she knew that everyone by now knew that of her. Her roommate lingered on the outskirts of the group as well, though closer to a stalking guardian than someone too afraid to accidentally brush against someone. Though Rogue was fully covered, from neck to wrist to ankle, you never knew. You could never risk it. People didn't think about skin contact like she did, didn't worry about it, didn't know how to.

Lu's toast caught her off guard, and her teary vision moved from the blistering light of the flames to his darkened figure. A million thoughts thrust through Anne-Marie at once, all of a sudden yanked back to every interaction she'd had with Ezra. There wasn't any room to laugh, as much as Lu had been right about the sort of person that Ezra was. Caught up in it all, sort of disassociating as well, she'd barely noticed the tipped cup and the verbal invitation. Her hackles rose, and Rogue's eyes darted to the others to see if anyone else would care or chime in.

There was enough distraction, it seemed-- a drug that the others were passing around that Anna-Marie wouldn't be caught dead with. Between a few more disturbances and Charlie Powell of all people throwing a fit over the music. It made sense, though; maybe that had been why Rogue was feeling all sorts of unsettled with everything. Music like it was more than a wake or a tribute, but like it was his ghost haunting the clearing.

Anna-Marie tore her gaze from the distraction back to Lu, and considering what he'd said, she sauntered quietly and quickly to a space a few steps closer. Not quite to the group, but closer enough to him for light conversation.

Pursing her lips and wrinkling her nose, she sniffed at her cup. Looking up at Lu she sighed, spinning the clear liquid with a lazy swirl.

"Had t'come," she said quietly, swallowing back a small sniffle. "Folks here knew Ezra, 'least a 'lil. An', if anythin', it's better than hauntin' our rooms 'fraid of what else is hidin' in the dark. Maybe I ain't so keen to stay in it if it stays meanin' bad things are lurkin'. We... need each other."

She sucked in through her top teeth and reluctantly took another small sip of the vodka. Choking it back her eyes brimmed again, this time with the stinging sort of tears and half of a gag.

"I-Ugh, hell... Hey, y'ain't had any of that Kick shit, have 'ya? Tell me y'didn't." Rogue grimaced in a low voice, sparing half a look to the others of the group.


 
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Despite the seriousness of Fred's words, Pietro was having trouble following along when the guy talked so slow. He could feel the Kick in his teeth, the bones vibrating together inside of his mouth. What had been pleasant static at first was cranking up further, taking more and more of Pietro's attention away from what was happening right in front of him. He knew he should be listening to his friend, and he should really care what was happening, but in his current state it was hard to focus on or care about anything. Why would he, when he was so fast and the world was so slow? With a flick of his fingers, everyone became living statues, and he was the sole moving being. But no, he should listen. Sober Pietro would be listening. But god, he had tried so hard to distance himself from what was happening, why was Fred bringing it up again and making him remember? He really didn't want to remember the way Ezra's body had looked before the teachers covered it with a sheet, the vacant, empty, unseeing look in his eyes that Pietro was able to sit with for a long time while everyone moved a snail's pace. He remembered. And remembering hurt.

His heart began to pound in his chest, beating faster and faster like a hamster in a wheel. He almost didn't catch the end of Fred's statement, feeling like dozens of buzzing hornets had invaded his body, feeling on edge, feeling so muchsofastwhycouldnthestopitanymore. He felt electric, he felt on fire, he felt crazy, he felt saner than he had in his life.

Charlie's words knocked him out of his stupor momentarily, clarity returning in time to hear her short tirade. He blinked tooslowtoofast as the world continued to move slower than his body did. He frowned. What right does she have to claim we don't care? What right do any of them have? None of them have the time that I have; none of them could have saved him as quickly as me, and I was still too late.

It was funny, almost; for a speedster, he was always late when it counted most. What a cruel joke. Without even realizing it, he was next to Charlie, wondering how he'd got there and when. Is this what normal people feel like when they're drunk? He didn't know what to say, so he hurried back to Fred's side before scarcely a moment had passed. But the breeze in his wake would give him away if Charlie was sober enough to notice. God knew Pietro would not have. So in a blink he was back at Fred's side instead, mouth twisted downward as he tried to keep himself somewhat sane. Was the Kick a mistake? No way he would admit it if it was, being a stubborn sort of person.

"Why would anyone want to cool down?" he asked them both, brows furrowing in equal parts annoyance and something else he couldn't quite place his finger on that felt a lot like anxiety. "Why slow down, why cool off, when you can go so fast? Because everything else is so slow and we're so fast and when you're fast you don't have to feel anything. Don't you get it, Freddy? Don't either of you get it?" He was talking at a speed that was probably only semi-coherent now. He thought he had felt the Kick earlier, but now it must be hitting its peak, and though he thought he was talking perfect sense, to everyone else it was clear that the Kick was really in the driver's seat now, not him. "You can feel all you want, but I can outrun it! Caring about people doesn't mean you have to suffer for them. Wouldn't Ezra want us to be grateful we're alive?" Then he laughed, a sharp bark of a laugh, bordering on hysteria. God, he needed better coping mechanisms.
 
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u stayed by the edge of the clearing like he didn’t belong to it. The shadows welcomed him better—he was made for them, after all. Everything about the bonfire felt wrong tonight. Too loud. Too warm. Too many people pretending not to grieve by doing it poorly. They drank, passed the bottle, passed the flame, and played music like memory could be lit on fire and burned away. He was guilty of this, and deep down, he knew Ezra deserved better than this.



He didn’t even know if he liked Ezra, not really. They’d spoken in passing, trained together once or twice. Still, something about the boy’s death didn’t sit right. Maybe it was the way it happened—too fast, too unresolved. Maybe it was because Lu had seen bodies before. Had seen death up close, held it, caused it. And this? This didn’t feel like something natural. It felt like a message, and everyone here was pretending they didn’t read it.



Mutants weren't safe. Not even at the one place they should have been.



He took a swig from his cup. There he’d gone thinking again.



The flames were lower now, the bonfire’s manic energy starting to ebb into long shadows and slurred murmurs. The bottle had made another pass. The kids closer to the fire were leaning into the edge of something—grief, freedom, maybe both—and Lu could feel the crackle of it along his skin, his senses still lit up from that first hit of Kick. It still hummed in his bloodstream, electric, but duller now. Less like a scream. More like a warning.



He watched Charlie crash and burn like a drunken meteor, and something inside him tensed, a jagged sympathy he didn’t have the words for. Ezra had meant something to all of them in different ways. None of it neat. None of it simple. There was no script for grief, no one way to mourn the first person you lost in a place that already felt like a halfway house for broken things.



Lu hadn’t seen her in years, since they were kids trailing behind their parents at dull galas and empty estates, a pair of wild things disguised as heirs. She’d vanished from that world like smoke through fingers, long before Lu knew how to miss people properly. Now she was crashing like a comet, feathers ruffled and voice sharp, flinging grief like knives in every direction. It was hard to watch. Harder not to.



He didn’t chase after her. Charlie was grieving and sometimes, the face of Lu Bashenga had a tendency to do more harm than good.



Then she stepped closer.



Anne-Marie.



He breathed her in, and for the first time all night, jokes and tangents aside, he didn’t feel alone.



Quiet like a prayer, her approach was easy to miss if you weren’t looking. But Lu was. Had been. Since he saw her silhouette on the fringe, a ghost refusing to vanish. Her voice was soft, but it hit harder than most shouting did, all accent and ache. He turned toward her, slow and deliberate, like he didn’t want to spook her. His hood stayed up, but she could see the way his mouth twitched—half smile, half something older and more tired.



Needin’ each other,” he echoed, voice low, touched with warmth that wasn’t just the whiskey. “Guess that’s the part they don’t teach at orientation, huh?”



His eyes scanned her face, not lingering in the way some boys did, but taking note. The flushed nose. The gloved fingers curled around a barely touched cup. The tension in her shoulders, like she was holding back more than words.



He didn’t push. Just listened. Until she mentioned Kick. That’s when the half-smile faltered. Her question came quiet and sharp.



“Hey, y'ain't had any of that Kick shit, have 'ya? Tell me y'didn't.”



Lu exhaled through his nose, rolling the cup in his hand. There was the beat when he could’ve lied. Could’ve shrugged it off.



But he didn’t.



"I did," he admitted, eyes still on hers. "Earlier."



There was no shame in his voice. No bravado either. Just the kind of honesty that comes from someone who’d already made peace with the choice.



"It’s not what they say. Or maybe it is, and I’m just built differently," he said, letting a faint grin curl at the corner of his mouth. "It doesn’t make you lose yourself. Not for me. It just... sharpens the edges. Brings everything closer."



He tilted his head slightly, and when he looked at her, there was something deeper in his eyes—animal, ancient, but calm. She smelled like cold metal, wool, and something warmer underneath. It was subtle, but Kick had tuned his senses sharper than usual, a heightened unison between his X-gene and the heart-shaped herb. The world had edges. Details. Her heartbeat. The soft scuff of her boots in the dirt. The way her voice caught just before she spoke.



"I can smell the vodka in your cup. The laundry detergent you use. The tears you tried to wipe away earlier when no one was looking. It’s not creepy, I promise—it’s just... there. Like the world’s volume got turned up."



He leaned in just a little, not enough to cross any lines but enough to let her feel how still he could be. How aware.



"You don’t have to worry about me losing control. If anything, it’s like I’ve never felt more in it. Everything’s just... vivid."



His voice dipped lower, velvet-soft now.



"Especially you."



He let that sit for a moment—not a threat, maybe a flirt, really, but also a confession. Something vulnerable beneath the polish. He couldn’t help it.



"Don’t worry, I’m not here to sell it to you. You know what’s right for you. But for me? It didn’t feel wrong. It felt like... me, with the lights on."



He finally took a sip from his cup, small, steady, unfazed. Then his gaze slid back toward the fire, the others, the weird quiet that had settled in the group. He looked down at her nearly empty cup and his brows lifted with a faint breath of amusement. “You brave enough for a refill? Vodka’s trash. I’ll grab somethin’ smoother.”



Lu stepped away, shoulders loose but head still bowed just slightly as he moved through the half-light, as though the weight hadn’t quite lifted from his back. He passed by Baiyara, the great jaguar keeping an eye on him the way she always did—silent, regal, watchful—and gave her a brief look that passed between them like a shared memory.



As he returned, a quiet figure caught his eye across the firelight. Kiri Yashida, on her silent patrol. Stoic, razor-eyed. He dipped his chin to her in subtle respect, not a call for her attention, but an acknowledgment. She was doing what she did best: protecting. Even if most didn’t notice. Even if it went unthanked.



He handed Anne-Marie a fresher cup, something warmer with a sweeter burn, and leaned slightly toward her. Close, but careful.



"You were close with Ezra," he said, more gently now. "I didn’t know that."



He didn’t press her for more. Didn’t ask for stories or explanations. But there was a warmth to the way he said it. Like he saw her clearer now. Not just because of the Kick. Because of what she chose to share.



"I’m sorry for that. For what it took from you."



Her full name lingered on the edge of his tongue, but he didn’t say it. He respected the silence she kept between pieces of herself.



Instead, he offered something else.



"If it gets too loud in your head, or too quiet in your room—either way—I’m around. You don’t have to talk. I can sit with you, no questions. Or walk you back if the dark feels heavier than usual."

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Ghosts loomed in the firelight, forgotten promises, burdened vows, cinder-stricken on tongues swollen from alcohol and tears, salt that pressed into the seams of bruised throats. Remy had seen this before, the undulating sorrow that tormented and vexed innocent hearts—hearts that didn’t know how to beat anymore, how to reconcile with the fact someone died and how to perceive beyond the pulse that was slowly ticking away. Yet he kept himself close to the centrewarmth seeped over his exposed arms, sentimentality washing over the battered skin with words that Remy didn’t know how to say himself. A step forward. One brush of his toed boot into the dirt. He could be closer to the flames, cackling, tittering with tiny spurts and kindled regrets. Blathering with the twine of laughter, forced and inflicted, a measure that protected nobody and everyone at once, a symbolic wave where everyone was drowning.

Remy was content to steady himself as an anchor, watching, observing, losing himself at the stroke of the bonfire, bejewelled eyes lost beneath the churning of clogged heat and sweat. Something was being passed around him, elevating the laughter into a sharp crime, a crescendo that battered away bad feelings and cheap thoughts. Remy would have been the first one to volunteer himself with any new experimental concoction, the first one to hulk something down his throat, heaved through constricted fingers because he didn’t know any better. It might have helped him enter the haze, be one with the fog, be another nameless face in the crowd who abhorred the system but was chained all the same. Chained to the expectations and chained to the obedience that came with living. Conditioned. But awareness was another fuckin’ thing entirely, and Remy wanted that for himself. To be aware of the circumstances that could claim him and the edge he was moving on.

Remy liked to think he was everyone’s friend, everyone’s party companion, sociable link and connection. That he could have spotted the signs earlier, could have seen something, anything, to prevent the flood that was now conspiring on weathered wood and gnarled eyes, twisted at the crook, the crease where the eyelid met the skin, and people failing to disguise that with the new drug. It was apparent. Could he have done something? A carrefour of compassion and reason? Or was Remy complicit as everyone, waddled in ignorance and confessed lives that orbited a league of trauma and concealed secrets. His lips quirked down at the notion, latching his teeth ugly, forced through the smile that was his weapon for every occasion. The truth was— he might not have known, but there was the unknown. He didn’t know. It was a crime that paralleled together, they should have and could have, weaving together to a blanket that nobody could feel. Remy dug around in his pocket, searching for a coin, a double-sided nickel, smudged with tiny flecks of blood. It was weighted in his palm, thin and small. Remy offered to the sky, swinging his arm up, and leveraging his powers as a small droplet, converging around the coin, slicked in purple oil and ignited. It soared against the sky, a tiny asteroid in purple and pink, dusting against the hollowed horizon and vacant sky.

A firework that exploded, with Remy offering two more into the explosion, more coins, seared with energy and action, riddled into a heavy detonation. He might have been clueless, but he could propose his celebration, coloured fireworks that he accelerated into existence, heads and tails swallowed up into the cosmos that doomed them all. “I’ll listen in the next life,” Remy muttered, his voice pallid and sickly, musty with tears he wouldn’t shed in a space of strangers. Strangers who knew a lightweight version of him. “You.” Remy grabbed someone, his fingers winding around the elbow of a drunken asshat, knocked off his arse and sunken into a pleasurable vice that Reny desired. “Whatever you got, s’il te plaît, for me?” He asked, and a small vial was presented, encapsulated wonder that had everyone kicking up a fuss. It was tempting, swirled, pretty and just the right thing to soothe aches and nightmares. “A good one, aye.” Deciding the best way to drink with someone else, and that someone else was a remedy on her own— Rogue.



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Between the loud noises and the off-key singing, it’s a wonder Lorna hadn’t turned back the moment she stepped into the clearing.

Ezra. She can’t say she ever really knew the guy, nor did she ever make a point to- but he was hard to miss, those obnoxious lot training to be the next heroes always were. True to form, he captivated a lot of people, in his last moments- and even in death. Lorna gritted her teeth. Is this the future the Institute, no, the Professor promised them? Another mutant slapped with the ‘Dead Kid’ label alongside thousands more of them? Then what? their response is to assemble a glorified group of snot-nosed teens to pose and be their heroes. Lorna knows what that label really meant, they’ve pretty much marked their gravestone.

She's lost her appetite for drinking, smoking, sucking, or whatever, so when someone nudged her to offer up something, she instinctively raised a hand to refuse it, until the thrum in her palms confirmed the material. Without moving, she pulled it free from the guy’s grasp, small cold metal meeting her palm. “Hey- hey! What’d you say this was again?” earning her a whisper, “Kick.”

Huh? Is this some fucked up concoction one of them made?


Lorna wasn’t the type to say no to a distraction, the material of it also meant she could easily snag more for her— but today she hated the idea of it, she thought about the strangeness of the whole thing. Lorna scoffed, bitter that she must be losing her mind. On some other day, this would’ve been a treat. She eyed the vials littered around the other students, and before changing her mind, focused and tried to locate the bulk, the buzzing felt way too disorganized, scattered all around the clearing.

Frustration filled her, so she did what she did best. Lorna walked around the crowd holding her palm out, emptying the pockets of the few students she sensed had an unopened vial. By the time she was done, she’s amassed her very own collection, snug deep in her pockets.

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She was too far in her head to take notice of anyone in the crowd the whole time she was there. Until she heard the sudden commotion, “Did any of you even fucking know him?”

Lorna turned, the bright fire did little to hide her silhouette, Charlie. Of fucking course.

The obnoxious students were always hard to miss, but this one? Charlie had always been intrusive, and a lot harder for Lorna to ignore. Despite the obvious rift between them, Lorna had never seen her act like this, anger doesn’t really suit her.

Lorna’s attention drifted away from the noise. She’s made her peace, and Charlie’s not her problem anymore.

Within a few paces, her body betrayed her, and feeling irritated (moreso at herself) she clicked her tongue as she stalked back towards the stumbling figure, who somehow had Fred by her now- and beside him and her, a blur of movement that signaled to her that Pietro was also in the mess. Great, a crowd was just what she needed.

She continued her reluctant stride, her steps slowed as she approached, realizing that Pietro was actually… talking? Or at least attempting to. On a good day, it meant he was already quick and barely coherent. Tonight, she could scarcely make a word out, he let out a sound akin to a long gasp that she thinks was meant to be laughter, followed by a strange yelp from most of the students walking past, since- just to their luck, someone thought three consecutive fireworks exploding in the sky would be in their favor. Her fingers traveled up to touch her brows before looking around incredulously.

“Th’fuck is everyone’s deal right now?”

She raised her brows at Fred, who was the only one of them that didn’t look completely out of it, all things considered. Her squinted eyes finally adjusted to the firelight behind them, and her gaze landed on Charlie.

Her usual, infuriatingly effortless, presence was gone, replaced by something tighter— the wings drawn in, and her feathers looking unusually ruffled. Even with her vision obscured, Lorna could see the tension in her shoulders and her faraway gaze. Lorna immediately locked her arms across her body, fearful that her hands might do something stupid.

She tapped the edge of her toes on the ground, “You, uh, good?” She addressed Charlie and kept her voice as flat as possible, refusing to betray any hint of intention.
































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Anna-Marie Bayard ೃ⁀➷ ROGUE
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Lu’s presence was something closer to a comforting wall; the type you sleep next to when you’ve spent most of your life afraid of open doors. Yet, as their interaction furthered, Anna-Marie was sure that the steadfast wall he represented held an edge on the other side. Spiraling, precarious and laced with that Kick. For as sure as Olumide seemed, and he sounded sure of himself, she couldn’t chase away the eeriness that came from interacting with someone who wasn’t… there. She’d encountered kids before on a plethora of substances, all in their various states of here and there, and it hadn’t felt right talking to them either. Like you were seeing past the person, to the rotted core beneath; exposing whatever was in, be it the good or the bad.

The eye-contact was a staggered realization that she was corporeal and present, as much as she wished she could snatch Katherine Pryde’s powers and disappear at will. Lu made it clear that the Kick he’d taken, earning a slight eye roll from Anna-Marie, had simply heightened his senses. But this time, instead of seeing past that person in their inebriation and drugged out high, she felt he could see through her.

Sobering indeed, as much as the little bit of alcohol had managed to cast a glow on her. His further comments on things that no normal person, mutant or not, would regularly be able to detect made Rogue’s hackles rise further. She tried to keep her heart still, posture unbothered, since it seemed that he would sense that sort of thing. She liked Lu. She didn’t want one uncomfortable interaction, heralded by her inability to want to be seen any closer than a good six feet, to ruin another relationship.

Though Rogue hadn’t had any Kick, didn’t feel a need to drink beyond measure or smoke or shoot or anything, her addiction was evasiveness; the unyielding need to hide when seen. Sympathies were threats, in most cases. The pressure of Lu’s words went over her head, flirtation missed by Rogue’s ever-blinking eyes as she sought to stabilize her rapid heartbeat. She swallowed deeply, burying her face in the last bit of vodka. It burned her nose and throat, but she avoided the urge to gag again.

There wasn’t much to say after Lu’s rhapsody, but she felt a shrug rise when he spoke fully to his thoughts on it.

“Well, I… s’pose... But, it’s just… Hell, anythin’ that’s messin’ ‘round with our powers can’t be good. You don’t go washin’ in a river expectin’ to get a stain out, y’know?” No doubt it, in fact, didn’t make sense but she relished in her own analogies nevertheless. The offer of a second drink was almost a no, that she didn’t want to push herself, but he’d offered something sweeter and smoother and that made it more palatable.

The space between them grew, Anna-Marie thankful for it as she let loose a breath she didn’t think she’d been holding. Her eyes travelled over the group that had formed, digging in to the motions of each smaller subsection; trying to pick apart where and what everyone was doing… and most of all how she could get out of there. It had been a mistake, no doubt, to show up. As much as she relished in the liveliness of everyone around, or of the palpable sadness of those who mourned Ezra.

She was somewhere between, as usual, and felt even more out of place with it.

Plus, with Lu’s increased scrutiny (and she could swear she saw Kiri somewhere in passing), Rogue wasn’t feeling all too pleased with not blending in as much as she’d anticipated. Along with the fallout from Charlie’s mourning, hazy lash out, she saw a passing blur. The energy was strange here, and she knew it would get worse the more that people smoked and drank and did whatever with the Kick she’d heard whispers of.

Bright lights caught her eye, a stubborn spark that jerked Anna-Marie’s head up to see. Familiar in hue from passing, yet again, there was an itch of recognition that didn’t strike too hard to the core. Strangers were more familiar, in a way, than those who knew each other more intimately. The more you knew about someone, the harder you fell when you stumbled in their high esteem.

She’d no doubt made such a mistake in getting to know Ezra. Why get to know anyone when people died?

Lu confirmed these suspicions, that getting to know someone held a bit of pain to it, when he returned with the drink and she sipped it plainly, trying to not let his assumptions rock her too hard to the core. Charlie’s outburst seemed reasonable now, in comparison to sitting around and letting people realize that you knew the dead guy… and well, at that.

Though he pried at a reasonable, careful level and didn’t dig too deep, Rogue already felt that she was far too visible and vulnerable. She shook her head at his offer, a slow smile curling as she looked away.

“I ‘preciate that, sugar, but I’ve walked through the shadow ‘otha valley plenty, an’ I’ve still come out jus’ fine.” Rogue’s gaze slipped up to lock onto Lu’s, one eyebrow raising. “But sure, if I’m needin’ a prince an’ his big cat to keep me company, I know just who I’ll ask.”

Her words hadn’t meant to come out so harsh, and she swallowed them back with another sip of her drink. Maybe it was the alcohol. Maybe she was doing the sort of self-sabotaging that she was good at.

“Thanks. I’ve got’ta… uh… Little lady’s room. Or walk. I dunno. But I… I’ll be fine. It ain’t ‘bout me. Mind you and yours, ‘specially with this Kick goin’ ‘round. There’s bound t’be someone who ain’t gonna take it well.” Anna-Marie tipped her cup to Lu, gloves clenching against the plastic a little tighter. She bit back at her cheek, turning on her heel and adjusting her hood.

Catching hellfire eyes she made her departure, chasing shadows into the dark while she tipped her head back for another sweet mix of what had to be gin and something.


 
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he bonfire reflected in Rachel Summers' eyes seemed to twist and contort as she stared at it. She could hear them. Hear them all. People tended to think their thoughts stayed in their heads, but they didn't. Thoughts and emotions spilled out and lingered in spaces, leaving stains upon the astral fabric of the world. This night, though the buzz of the Xavier Students was loud, their thoughts were louder. Lu's grief mixed simutaniously amplifiied and damped by the alcohol and Kick in his system. The hints of concentration and anger from Kiri. Fred's distaste for the situation. Kitty's concern for those around her and for being a worrywort. The blur of energy trying to mask what was underneath that was Pietro. The anguish from Charlie the Kick couldn't drown out. Rogue's fear and guilt hanging off her her like an old coat. An aura of watchful and knowing calm that dipicted Remy, though questions bubbled up behind his eyes.

Rachel paused a moment, focusing on one mind in particular. Lorna Dane, her roommate, was in the crowd. Her frustration for the situation was palpable to Rachel's telepathy. But that was the thing about Lorna's mind, or at least what Rachel could percieve of it. It was...like watching a bird fly past a tree, but it came out the other side a second or two after it should have. Lorna thoughts had this feeling of delay, like it had to travel over seems and hidden depths that give them a choppy feel. If Rachel still had her full power, she would have tried to delve deeper, but this was the best she could do. She thought of bringing it up to the Professor, but she might get another lecture about how she used her powers.

Rachel knew she shouldn't be listening to the others' thoughts. She knew how to shut them out, lowering the mental voices to murmurs that were all but inaudible. Back when her mom was actually her mom, she had taught Rachel about respecting other people's privacy. But Rachel doing it. Part of it was old habits of watching for danger from stray thoughts she could pick up on. Though, here and now, she felt it was her duty. To feel what everyone else was feeling here and now. Share their load. In her life as a hound, she had felt many people's last moments, often twinged in dread. Now, she was here with the mourners. The collective sea of each individuals feeling their grief, sharing their pain and love both comforted Rachel and broke her heart to its core.

"Hmm?"
Rachel said, her focus swimming back to her body's here and now, registering that Kitty had said something to her.

Kitty had been the one figure from her past, everyone else's maybe future, that Rachel had let herself get close to. Future Kitty, or Kate as she went by then, had spearheaded the plan to rescue Rachel from the Sentinels and helped her put what bits of her life that survived in that hellish time back together. Though Kitty was younger here and not quite grown into her confidence, her kindness was still a comfort to Rachel, especially in times of confusion.

"Kick?"
the red head asked, turning to Kitty and replaying her friend's words in her head to get back up to speed.
"No, I stay away from that stuff."


Truth was Rachel wasn't even drinking. She was too afraid of what she might do or say when she was under the influence of anything like alcohol, let alone Kick. Plus, the thought of any loss of control over herself sent a jolt of fear through her. She would never allow that to happen again. Not even in small ways.

"You think it's getting out of hand?"
Rachel asked, glancing around at the crowd before giving Kitty a mock stern look.
"And don't call yourself a worrywort. That's my job."


Before Rachel could answer Kitty's question, Charlie flew down and caused something of a scene. Soon, she was surrounded by three other students trying to varying degrees to help her.

"Vibes are kinda all over the place, if I'm being honest.
Rachel finally replied to her friend.
"You might need to be a voice of reason over there."


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Kitty didn't disagree with Rachel. The vibes tonight were...weird. She could hardly blame people, though, considering this whole shindig was only happening because of Ezra's tragic death. It wasn't even as if she were close to him, but she still felt his loss like a physical absence. It almost felt like a loss of possibility? A loss of potential, maybe? She wasn't sure how to word it exactly, but she had wanted to get to know Ezra, learn what made him who he was. God knew as one of the more recent additions she needed all the friends she could get. But now she would never get to know him, would never spend time with him, would never help him on an assignment that he had left until the last minute. If she was imagining all the things she missed out on with him--selfishly, really--then how must the others who were close with him faring? Badly, if Charlie was any indication.

The Kick and alcohol couldn't be helping anything; Kitty had a cup of vodka lemonade herself, but it was more full than not. She wanted to keep a mostly clear head, in spite of the temptation of drowning her worries in alcohol. She had never been the type to do that, and she wasn't about to start tonight. Her getting drunk right now wouldn't help anyone, especially if she wanted to attempt to be the voice as reason as Rachel had suggested. She could certainly try. But would anyone even listen? Most seemed too far gone to care.

As Charlie had her outburst, two people--no, three, she realized as she clocked the blur next to them as Pietro--had rushed to speak to her. Kitty felt a pang of sympathy; Charlie had been close to Ezra, and here she was watching people party and do drugs like there was no tomorrow. What good would throwing herself into the fray really be, though? She was sure she could help one-on-one, but with everyone else there, she didn't want to make things more complicated. As what seemed to be fireworks went off, she flinched. There was certainly a lot going on that night; things were slowly devolving into complete chaos. She took another slow, hesitant sip of her drink.

"I'm just concerned about everyone," she sighed. "Doing Kick can't help the state everyone's been in, since, well, y'know." She danced around the words, afraid that saying what had happened would just make everything more real again. Like putting a period of the end of the sentence. Ezra's dead, so long, end of story. She knew he was dead, had accepted it, but she wasn't ready to admit how much it affected her and the potential implication that someone else would be next. She swallowed. "You really think I could help? I, like, barely knew him. I don't want to make things worse with Charlie and the others." Besides, as someone who only knew Ezra in passing, is it really my place to intervene?
 
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Fred's words sounded like something underwater, and she was about to drunkenly tell him to fuck off when three loud pops snagged her attention. Too loud. The Kick was making her heightened senses even more sensitive, and she winced, crouching down to clutch her hands over her ears, wings wrapping tight like a cocoon around her body.

"Shut up, shut the fuck up, s-shut up!" She slurred, like this was a bad trip. Charlie wished it were. Bad trips she could handle, not some fucked up wake. Her eyes squeezed shut so hard she saw spots, willing herself to wake up tomorrow morning, see Ezra at training again, and challenge him to some stupid race. She'd lap him, he'd make some jab about her love life, and they'd smoke. If only it were a bad trip and not some ominous fucking--

The breeze picked up next to her; she'd think Pietro might've been there if she hadn't known any better. It was probably Kick, fucking with her powers some more. Couldn't they all leave her alone? Ezra might not have wanted anyone to be alone, but he'd always been the lovesick puppy type, all people pleaser and no bite. Some people deserved to be alone. Especially people who were supposed to be the best, supposed to save people, supposed to--

A familiar voice cut through and made her body go rigid. The last thing she needed right now was Lorna Dane, staring at her with eyes she knew could see right through. Her hands shook more, hidden behind her wings, and her stomach lurched. "I'm f-" bile rose in her throat, burning, making her eyes water as she swallowed it down and surged forward again, stumbling before getting her footing and managing to get away from the crowd she'd amassed. On any other day, she'd preen under all the attention.

She was finally a reasonable distance away, stomach rolling before she leaned over against a tree and heaved, spitting on the ground when she was done. Tears stung her eyes, and she wiped furiously at them, shaky hands bracing against the tree as she stood up and let her wings sag. The bass from the boombox was barely audible anymore, relieving her only slightly. Then, she became aware of a presence still following her, immediately turning to identify her stalker. "Fred, I said I was fucking-" she saw green hair and stopped short. "...Fine," she deflated. Why was Lorna still here? Clammy hands clenched at her sides, and she looked away sheepishly, teeth still buzzing. Everything felt so raw, she felt like she could fly around the world and then some, or make some other decisions Scott probably wouldn't approve of. "I look good to you?" she muttered, not meeting her eyes. Instead, her gaze traveled over the scar on Lorna's jaw, jagged, the rest hiding behind the collar of her shirt. Shaky hands twitched, and she clenched them again, wings drawing close like she wanted to disappear. There wasn't any malice behind her words, which was unusual for the two of them as of late.

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he rhythmic sound of fists on reinforced polymer echoed through the Danger Room, dull thuds that marked the passing of time better than any clock. Scott’s knuckles were already split, blood smeared across white wraps and burning with every strike. The room had been set to passive—no projections, no threat simulations—just empty space and silence. That was how he wanted it. He didn’t want distractions. He didn’t want excuses.

Sweat soaked through the back of his navy compression shirt, his breaths sharp, jaw clenched. The memories came anyway.

Ezra, in his hover stance, grinning despite the wobble in his flight path. Charlie laughed, lazy and dangerous in that way she always was, calling corrections from below. Scott barked orders that were only half-serious, trying to act the stern mentor, trying not to show how much he cared. Ezra had heart. Too much of it, maybe. Enough to make Scott soften in the end. Enough to make him feel like a little brother.

And now he was ash and memory.

Scott should’ve known. Should’ve seen something in Ezra’s eyes when he came back. Something frayed. Wrong. Instead, he had dismissed it, told himself students needed space. Told himself the real fight was out there, where he and the rest of the team had been chasing ghosts through warehouses and dead-end leads. Mutants going missing. Students. Civilians. Names on lists and not enough evidence to build a case. Xavier had reassured him, told him they’d find the source. A dream fulfilled. But the trail had always gone cold.

And now Ezra was cold, too.

Scott’s next punch hit harder than it should have, sending a crack through the polymer casing. The jolt rattled through his arms, grounding him. Guilt was corrosive. He couldn’t train hard enough to sweat it out. He didn’t plan to go out to the woods. He wasn’t in the mood for firelight elegies. What did they know of grief?

He was halfway through the locker room when the crash sounded.

It echoed down the corridor like a blast, students yelling, the unmistakable hiss and crackle of fire. Scott broke into a sprint, boots thudding hard against the tile. His belongings were long discarded now. The air grew hotter as he turned the corner and came face-to-face with chaos.

A student—Elijah Ramesh, sophomore, registered pyrokinetic—stood at the center of the foyer, arms outstretched, panic in his eyes. Fire surged from his hands in wild, uncontrolled bursts, licking up the walls and setting a bench ablaze. Other students ducked and scrambled for cover, one dragging another by the collar behind a column.

“Elijah!” Scott barked, voice like a whipcrack. “Stop—”

But the boy didn’t hear him. Or couldn’t. Flames flared out again, uncontrolled, threatening to crawl up the nearest tapestry and catch on the wooden beams above.

Scott didn’t hesitate.

He reached up and tilted his ruby quartz glasses just enough—one sharp angle—and a concentrated beam of concussive force shot from his eyes. It struck the floor in front of Elijah in an explosive burst that knocked the younger boy back into the wall, the flames sputtering out with the impact. He groaned, dazed, a singe mark across his sleeve. No serious burns. Just shock.

Scott crossed the room in three strides, grabbing the front of Elijah’s hoodie and hauling him upright. The boy panted, shivering even as his skin steamed. A vial clattered out of his jacket and rolled toward Scott’s boot.

He didn’t need to guess.

“Kick,” he muttered, crouching to pick it up. “Damn it.”

He turned on the student’s friends, who were frozen in horror.

“How many of you took Kick?”

One of the boys swallowed hard. “Just a hit. After Ezra... we needed something.”

Scott’s jaw tightened, a bitter knot forming in his chest. Needed something. That phrase echoed hollow in his mind. They were trying to outrun the pain. He understood that too well. But this? This wasn’t healing. This was running straight into the fire. “You call poisoning yourselves a tribute? Ezra’s gone because of things worse than grief. And you think getting high is the answer?”

Another kid muttered, “It made the pain stop for a bit.”

Scott’s voice dropped cold. The weight of responsibility pressed down on him. I should’ve done more. I should’ve seen this coming. “Stop. This isn't a tribute. It’s self-destruction. And if either of you so much as look at another one of these vials, I’ll bury you in demerits so deep you’ll be scrubbing floors till graduation. Take him to the infirmary.”

They scrambled, lifting their friend and hauling him away, still weeping.

Scott held the vial to the light. It shimmered with an oil-slick gleam. His jaw clenched tighter.

He pressed the comm on his wrist.

“Kiri. It’s Scott. I’ve got something. Kick. Kid lost control—nearly burned down the front foyer. I’lll meet you in the forest. Bring your nose. Maybe your claws.”

He clicked off before she could respond, already heading back to his dorm. The vial burned cold in his hand.

In his room, he peeled off the soaked training shirt and washed the sweat and blood from his hands. A mirror caught his reflection, unshaved, dark circles under his eyes, the face of a leader slipping. He threw on a jacket and checked his glasses again.


Outside, the air bit cold, the smell of smoke still clinging to him like guilt. The glow of the bonfire pulsed in the distance, warm and wrong. His boots crunched across dead leaves and pine needles, but each step felt louder than it should’ve been. He hadn’t wanted to go. Still didn’t. His instinct was to stay back, to control what could be controlled, to contain. You could handle grief that way—box it in, tape it shut. Rules gave it shape. Letting it breathe meant letting it spread, like smoke. Like flames. And Scott was tired of watching everything around him burn.

He stepped into the clearing anyway, a stiff silhouette in a letterman jacket that still reeked faintly of scorched wood. Fred’s voice rumbled like a fault line, barely keeping the quake at bay. Pietro—fidgeting, volatile—broke through the tension with a tone too fast, too bright, trying to keep the fire from turning on him. Charlie stood nearby with Lorna, tension carved into her posture. It wasn’t hard to see the crack in the scene. This wasn’t mourning. It was pressure. And something was going to blow.

They were all too young for this. Too human. Too breakable. No amount of training made this part easier. They weren’t just students, not anymore. They were carrying coffins between missions.

Pietro’s voice cut through the air like a blade:
"Wouldn’t Ezra want us to be grateful we’re alive?"

Scott’s expression tightened. His throat felt dry, but his jaw locked, hard enough to ache. Pietro’s words hit sideways—raw and almost right—but wrong. So fucking wrong in this moment. Grateful? Ezra had been dropped. Like trash. Like a warning. He hadn’t gotten to say goodbye. None of them had. And now here was his roommate—his roommate—skating through grief with Kick still bleeding through his system like a high-speed shrug.

Scott moved faster than most could track, not running, but with that heavy, unwavering intent that didn’t need speed to strike. He grabbed Pietro’s wrist, hard, and didn’t let go. Not immediately.

“You think Ezra would want you high out of your damn mind?” he snapped, voice low, sharp. “He wouldn’t even look at you like this.”

The grip tightened just slightly. “And I shouldn’t have been able to catch you. You’re slipping, Pete. And you’re too damn fast for that to not get someone killed.”

He let go finally, his palm hot from the contact. Scott took a step back, scanning the group in the wavering light. Their eyes reflected grief, but they weren’t tears. They were embers. They were fragments. The kind of things no training session had ever prepared him for. He exhaled slowly, like the breath alone might carry something useful with it. It didn’t.

His gaze swept the group again, Fred’s hunched frame beside the fire, Pietro’s skittish pacing. Past them, they landed on Charlie. A closer look revealed her slumped figure like gravity was pulling her down harder than everyone else. Scott’s gut twisted. The sharp kind. The kind he’d learned to ignore in battle, but never could when it came to the kids. Not the ones who trained with him. The ones he loved.

He didn’t remember walking toward her, only that the distance closed too fast and not fast enough. The smell hit first: smoke, acid, the chemical tang of Kick still clinging to the air. She looked like she’d folded in on herself, wings tight, face hidden. The anger surged up, uninvited. Not at her, not really. At the whole damn situation. At the fact that grief was chewing through them like rust and he couldn’t stop it. That she’d let it take hold like this.

“Charlie,” he snapped, harder than he meant to, but not hard enough to stop. His voice was sharp, slicing through the night. “What the hell are you doing out here?”

She looked like she could barely stand, and for a second, he wanted to shake her. Not out of punishment, but to remind her she was still here. Still alive. His jaw clenched, scanning her. Her hands were shaking. The way her wings wrapped around her wasn’t dramatic—it was defensive. Scared. And the nausea, the twitching, the fevered look in her eyes, he’d seen it before. Too recently.

Kick.

Scott’s chest tightened. He couldn’t lose another one. He wouldn’t.

He stepped forward, slower this time, the edge in his voice lowered to something rough and worn. He didn’t know how to reach for comfort without sounding like a commander. It wasn’t in his nature. Not like it had been in Ezra’s.

Scott did the only thing he could think of—he took off his jacket. Shrugged it off, slow and steady, and gently draped it over her shoulders. Not a word. No grand gesture. Just warmth. A shield. A tether to reality.

His hand hovered behind her back—not touching. Just enough so she’d know: he wasn’t going to let her fall.

He wanted to say something that would fix it. Some leader-worthy, Xavier-approved sentiment. Something that wrapped grief in clarity. But the words wouldn’t come. Not any that would matter. His mouth opened, then closed again. There was a roaring silence behind the ruby of his glasses. It made them look darker somehow, the ruby glass catching the flickering light like blood caught in crystal. Everything was red lately—rage, loss, guilt. A line between him and the world. And lately, all it let through was blood and flame.

“Lorna. Fred. Let’s get these two to the infirmary.”

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Pietro's eyes locked on to the spot where Scott held him by the wrist, narrowing at the gesture. He had barely noticed his roommate approach in his current state, way too out of it to pay attention to his surroundings beyond the people he was already conversing with. But despite his annoyance at being caught like that, something about Scott's unyielding grip drew him back to reality; a physical tether he couldn't just ignore. He noticed, belatedly, that Lorna had also joined the group, looking at Charlie in an almost wary way, like she was afraid to betray her true emotions. Is that how people were looking at him, too? Like he was fragile in the way a bomb was fragile, like he might snap at any moment? Would he snap at any moment? He was already volatile on the best of days, and with him starting to lose control of his own speed, that could escalate into something serious. Normally, he didn't care for Scott's lectures and would actively make him of him, but maybe he had a point.

Still, his insistence on the straight and narrow was a bit infuriating. Why does he get to be so judgmental? Sorry if we can't all put our emotions away in little boxes until it's convenient for us, Scotty. He scoffed, turning away the moment Scott let go of his arm, moving it back to his side with an aggressive speed that would barely be registered to the others. He had to force himself to slow down a bit, to keep pace with the world, even though it was practically effortless to glide through the too-slow movements of everyone else. He had half a mind to run off after Scott turned his attention to Charlie, but something that he said stuck, having struck Pietro right in the heart through his cheap haze of nonchalance.

He wouldn’t even look at you like this.

He felt hot shame creep up his neck, turning his already mangled, messed up insides into a dreary slush. Who was he becoming? The Kick told him he could be a hero, a god, he could be more than the small-minded fools at Xavier's would let him become, but the voice of Kick sounded eerily like Magneto. Scott didn't understand. He never understood. Not everyone could play the hero, bottle it all up until they could let out their rage in a healthy way. After tragedy struck and people put their broken pieces back together, some people were never the same again. Some people put them back together wrong, and Pietro knew he was one of those people. Why else would he keep avoiding the truth? Why else would he be getting fucked up on Kick instead of mourning his friend?


Fuck this. Like I'm letting Scott tell me what to do. I'm not one of his precious fucking X-men.

"Infirmary? Really?" he asked, sarcasm heavy in his tone as he deliberately slowed his pace to match Scott's, fully aware of the pounding in his chest and the rising tension in his body, like a guitar string that was too sharp, tight and ready to break. "Since when are you the boss of me, Scotty boy? Last I checked, I was doing fine. Great, even. Why are you sticking your nose in everyone else's business?" Even maintaining his pace to be level with that of the outside world for a minute or two was getting difficult, his body wanting the high of moving so fast that everyone else may as well be stone. But like hell he would admit it. Sure, he could have run away, evaded Scott and his cronies without even trying, but there was a part of him that wanted to be caught, that wanted the chase to be over already. Deep down, he knew he wasn't doing well, but when he thought about it too long, the denial fought back, a rising tide that would make him crack if he simply gave in. If he had to sit still and truly grieve Ezra, then he would have to face everyone else whose face haunted his past. He would have to face the distance he'd been putting between himself and Wanda. And he couldn't do that; not now, not like this.
 
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Jean stared at the open fire, entranced by its flickering as she held a red solo cup filled to the brim with a Sprite. It wasn't as if she was afraid of drinking something harder. A little hair of the dog wasn't a big deal. But she was still rocked by what happened. It was her luck that Ezra would do something as heartwrenchingly serious as claiming his end on the day and hour of her training with the Professor.

His emotions still burned like a hot brand on her mind. Ezra was so at peace with the decision, yet scared and alone. The fact that this was his final option--his only option--made Jean furious. She sipped her drink while brushing her crimson fire hair out of her eyes. Did it matter if tears were forming at their corners?

She always made an effort to do a flying session with the kid. Initially, He was hesitant, not knowing the extent of his gifts. At first, he was clumsy and uncoordinated, landing haphazardly on his face quite a few times. Sometimes, Jean wished that Charlie could take over...or that Scott's secondary mutation was levitation. Now, she wished she'd been more confident about opening her mind to everyone. Of course, she was going to feel guilty that she only felt his death and not what led up to it. What was happening to these kids? So young to be taken away, Jean wondered if the KICK epidemic had anything to do with the disappearances. She feared that they would reappear in the state Ezra was in.

She wasn't drinking out of respect, but she was tempted. She knocked back the rest of her soda, its aftertaste suddenly too sugary for the occasion. She opened her mind, sure not to intrude on anyone else but her intended subjects. It wasn't long before she found them. It was quick and to the point. She was even less confident of her telepathy in the moment, especially with the strong sense of grief that permeated the seams of her control.

"You should be here."

The tone was stern, not bitter. It was up to Charles and Scott to grow some balls and get out of their heads. After the short mental transmission broadcast, she quickly returned her mind to its own space. It was stressful being there, but she'd manage. Crumpling the cup in her dominant hand, she pulled her windbreaker sleeve with her other hand as she approached the nearest people to her. Kitty was in the middle of an anecdote about whether she could have helped the departed kid. Jean's actual hearing was as precise as her telepathy, and she was always ready to lend an ear to anybody.

Kitty was talking to Rachel, who seemed to prioritize avoiding Jean. She didn't mind. With the state of things, Jean wouldn't be too trusting if she were new herself. Making sure Kitty knew it was her, she briefly hugged the girl and meekly waved at Rachel. After a few seconds of resonating silence, Jean threw her cup at an adjacent trash bin. She missed, but then used her telepathy to place the used cup where it needed to go.

"Fuck, this is hard," she blurted, letting the moment be punctuated by her silence. When she spoke again, it was with a throttled fervor. "When will the world stop being such...complete and total garbage?" she questioned as she placed the trash on the other refuse. Her eyes stung as she stared at the empty space on the ground, wondering if Ezra had something good to fly toward now.

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Fred had stayed quiet through all of it—Pietro’s manic monologue, Charlie’s spiral, Lorna coming in defensive, and Scott’s righteous stormcloud of responsibility. He was not really the kind to intervene unless he had to. But now stumbling on brittle sarcasm and unraveling bravado, Pietro's voice finally snapped something in Fred. Not loud, not explosive. It was just done.

He shifted his weight with a slow exhale that seemed to make the leaves crunch a little louder beneath his boots. Then, turning to Pietro and looking him straight in the eye someone who knows too much about pain posed as pride:

"You ain't fine, man. You're not even close."

No bit of disdain, and no voice raised. Just the barest truth.

"You don't have to like Scott. Hell, most of y'all don't. But he ain't wrong."

Fred gave a glance toward Charlie, still half-wrapped in herself, then back at Pietro. His voice remained low and firm.

"If you keep running like this, you won't make it. You'll burn out before you ever get where you're going and I'm tired of diggin' holes for friends who thought they were 'doin' great.'"

Slowly and deliberately, he took a step backward.

"If you don't want help, fine. But don't stand here pretending like grief is some sort of thing you can just outrun. It always, always catches up with you."

He let the words hang for a second before glancing at Lorna and Scott. He gave a small nod without any verbal cue to move on. They just began to move at the measured pace only an immovable presence could muster.


 
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// Honey Badger
K
iri was nearing Baiyara again from the other side when her communicator crackled to life.

“Kiri. It’s Scott. I’ve got something. Kick. Kid lost control—nearly burned down the front foyer. I’lll meet you in the forest. Bring your nose. Maybe your claws.”


Putain. Of course stick-up-his-ass Summers caught a kid on Kick. Of course, it was good that he was there to help the kid that lost control, but couldn't it have been McCoy, who would have handled this gentler?

"I'm already here, Summ-"
Kiri said into her comm, but Summers had already clicked off.

She looked up into the eyes of Baiyara. Again, she wasn't sure how smart the jaguar was or if she would even listen to someone other than Lu. But she had to switch focus and she didn't want to leave the perimeter unprotected.

"Hey, Baiyara."
Kiri greeted, wishing she knew some African dialects in case that's what the jaguar responded best to.
"I need to go take care of something. I need you to keep watching for trouble. Okay?"


Unsure of what an affrimative response from a big cat would be, Kiri just had to trust the mystical beast was smart enough to understand. She headed into the circles around the bonfire, letting her nose lead her. She came up on two students trading a vial.

"Fun's over."
Kiri said in a low, authoritative tone.
"Faculty will be out here soon, just hand the Kick over and walk away."


There was some grumbling, but the vial was surrendered. Kiri had discreetly rounded up another couple of vials when Summers showed up. She had been keeping an eye on the confrontation between Charlie, Duke, Lorna, and Pietro. It was somewhat concerning, but Duke was a solid guy she trusted to try to keep things from getting out of hand until she could intervene. With Summers arriving, she figured that situation was in good hands. Though she doubted she would ever tell Summers that.

Her next stop on the scent trail led her to Lu, Remy, and Rogue. There was a little extra lingering look at Remy. Rogue deserved to have someone who would make her feel safe and loved, and Kiri had views on if the cajun could provide that.

"Hey."
Kiri greeted, giving Rogue an encouraging smile before continuing on to the whole trio.
"Just coming to check on people. If anybody has anything that they don't want found on them by a teacher, you might want to give it to me now."


She looked directly at Lu for that last bit, the scent of Kick strong on him.

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LOCATION. BONFIRE IN THE WOODS
Bobby was on fire.
More specifically, one arm elbow-deep on fire. Flames licking up past his wrist like they were trying to shake his hand; which would’ve probably been a bad thing if his nerves were the normal sort, or if he, y’know, felt anything these days. But all he felt was the cold, and besides, everything had already started to blur the second Kick laced itself into his bloodstream and turned his thoughts into glow sticks; all bright, bendy, and impossible to hold onto for more than a few seconds before they snapped.
A ridiculous, glittery giggle burst from somewhere in the pit of him and spiraled upward like it didn’t care about dignity or physics or who the hell Ezra Price was, watching as his sleeve finally surrendered with a soft whoosh, going up like tissue paper at a magician’s table.
“H-hey—quit it,” he slurred, slapping at the fire with his other hand, as if that would prompt it to hastily take its pesky flames back.
He laughed; it was the kind of laugh that had his fellow students react the way they always did: with a mix of scattered laughter at yet another one of his antics, flush with side-eyes and deeply concerned silence masquerading as not my problem.
When the flames climbed far enough his sleeve to nip at his shoulder, he gave a theatrical yelp, and in one smooth, drunken shrug, Bobby pulled his whole shirt off and tossed it into the bonfire. “An' there she goes! he whooped, bare chest steaming in the chill that only he seemed to feel, even with fire crackling six inches from his face. “Who said this fuckin' funeral had to have a dress code?”
No one really answered him, much like how no one really said the word suicide out loud, but it sat in everyone’s throats anyway, replaying the sequence of events in their heads. Seven days gone, one day back, and by first period, Price had stepped off the edge of Xavier’s roof like it was a diving board, leaving quite the splash and splatter behind.
And Bobby should know; he’d been in his room next door, headphones on, sure, but not loud enough to miss the ice crack; the wheels squeal, and the deafening silence that spelled the end of the life of what his father would surely call a freak of nature. It was all the same sound now anyhow; Ezra’s fall, the crash, the cold; all tangled up in Bobby’s head until he couldn’t tell which memory belonged to which moment; until every thud felt like it echoed from all ends.
He wobbled on his feet and blinked into the flames, baby blue eyes glassy, as if the light had carved out some ancient glacier behind them. “This one’s for you, bud,” he murmured, softer now, lifting his can of cheap beer. He tipped it back and drank, throat chugging up a storm as the fire popped, a single ember leaping out like a warning shot, and Bobby grinned as though it had told him a joke.
The punchline? That Ezra’s room had been right next to his. Right there; one wall, eight feet, a shitty heating vent that rattled when it got too cold, like maybe even it was trying to raise the damn flag; and Bobby hadn’t noticed a damn thing.
Not when Ezra finally came back quiet as a doormouse, drifting 'round like a song half-remembered but you can’t bring yourself to hum anymore. Not when he stopped laughing at Bobby’s jokes, which should’ve been the first red flag, because Bobby could always get a laugh, even when it was cheap, even when it was mean, even when it didn’t land right, he always got something, but Ezra just stopped responding, like the signal was cut, like he’d unplugged from the rest of the building and no one had noticed except the lights still worked and his door still opened, so everything must’ve been fine, right?
And Bobby, God, Bobby had been so caught up in his own shit, with the cold crawling in deeper by the day that he barely even registered the way the headline had slipped out from under the mattress, didn’t notice until Ezra was already in the room.
He’d just walked in, coming to borrow something or say something or nothing at all (Bobby really couldn't remember) and then he spotted it. That cursed scrap of newsprint, half-jutting out from beneath the bed like it wanted to be found, like it had finally gotten tired of hiding right around the same time Bobby had gotten tired of pretending it didn’t matter, sat in plain sight: ‘Freak Ice’ Blamed in Kingsville Knights Crash, Authorities Say.
Ezra bent down and picked it up, and Bobby swore he saw the way the senior's eyes caught on the word freak ice, the way they lingered just a beat too long on the phrase. Bobby lunged for it a second too late, too obvious, too fucking guilty, babbling something about old papers and packing and no big deal, snatching it back like a kid caught with a porno mag and stuffing it under the bed before it could breathe another second of truth into the room.
The older boy didn't said a word. Just watched him, eyes soft and too tired for someone his age, like maybe he knew exactly what it felt like to keep living after something should’ve killed you; and worse, to not be sure if surviving was the miracle or the punishment.
“I’m the—hic—Iceman,” he slurred, stumbling a little as he turned away from the fire. “Cold as ice, baby... willing to sacrifice our love...” He nodded his head to the famous '77 song. “Never take advice... someday I’ll pay the price—I know,” he crooned, off-key and grinning like a madman.
He laughed a final time, loudly and breathless, then tipped backward into the grass as though gravity had finally decided it’d had enough of him, limbs splayed wide as smoke curled around his chest.
“Sorry, Ez,” he murmured to the October night sky and the blinking stars. “If I’d... noticed sooner... that you were burning out... maybe I could’ve cooled you off...”
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Rachel Summers
// Askani
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achel watched the continuing scene unfold centering on Charlie. She had seen ones like it play out too many times. Another dead friend. Another mutant purged. No, that wasn't right. At least the Sentinels did the killing themselves. Whoever hurt Ezra left him to take his own life in response. Whatever sick freak did that would have that repaid ten-fold, that Rachel swore. For a moment, though she was no longer looking directly at the fire, fire smoldered in the red head's eyes. But she blinked it away as she forced a form of composure on herself. She carefully withdrew her mind's eye from the astral aether, putting up the blocks and defenses she had to quiet people's mental voices. Their emotion flooding her head wasn't going to help her control, nor did she want to risk her mounting anger bleeding into the minds of others. That could be just the match needed to set off this powder keg.

Her mind returned to the conversation at hand and Kitty. The suggestion that Kitty go intervene with Charlie was perhaps too much. Kitty was a compassionate person who Rachel had the confidence in to let that shine through, maybe getting someone stuck in grief a life line to hold onto. But such an action wasn't easy, and Rachel had to keep reminding herself Kitty was still relatively young.

"Maybe it won't solve things."
Rachel replied, rummaging through her mind for something insprational to say in a moment like this. She could remember her parents making this look easy.
"But sometimes you can do a little things that build up to something big."


Before Rachel had to figure out what to say next after that line, a familiar figure entered the fire light and engaged with the argument starting. She nearly flinched when she caught Scott Summer's tone of anger mixed with concern. Memories flooded her brain of her father, that tone ringing out as he read her the riot act for sneaking out of the haven, just a few days before the final Sentinel attack. Rachel quickly turned away from watching Scott call Lorna to help him get people to get checked out, a few tears welling up in her eyes. She was usually better about this, but the raw emotion she had been letting drift through her around this bonfire had left her vulnerable. Even so, this was part of the reason she had avoided contact with Scott as much as possible. He couldn't know about her, and she couldn't fully trust herself not to give everything away.

"Sorry, smoke in my eyes."
Rachel managed to say to Kitty as excuse for her reaction.

What happened next was a fantastic distraction from Rachel's faltering and perhaps the worst thing to happen for her in this moment. Jean Grey's presence, which had been part of the kaleidoscope of mental signatures around the fire now seemed to fill the world as she came close and hugged Kitty. Rachel looked back with a somewhat stunned look to see Jean's little wave to her.

Mom.

Rachel looked away again, her mind kicking into action. Her shutting out the thoughts of others had been the equivalent of closing windows and curtains of her mind. Now, she was boarding up those windows, and moving heavy things to reinforce them. While she felt being around Scott could be dangerous, Jean was worse. The older telepath probably wouldn't go digging through Rachel's mind, but the former hound couldn't risk even a hint of what was in her mind to be seen by the past version of her mother. She still wasn't sure how dangerous knowledge of the future she came from would mess things up here, but was sure as hell she didn't want to risk it. And she would rather die then let Jean see the memories of the people she had helped the Sentinels track down. If her mother, no matter the age, looked at her with any of the loathing she could still sometimes see in the mirror for herself because of the blood on her hands, that would be worse than any death.

So, Rachel kept quite, desperately trying to keep from crying more while Kitty and Jean talked. The words "don't get involved" repeating over and over in her head. Her fear of Jean finding out about her had driven her to active avoidance. Rachel could tell Jean had noticed this, which made things worse. She didn't want to do this to her mom, but couldn't see another way. So, she just stood there, as close as she felt she could be with either of her potential parents, wishing in her heart she could have gotten a hug like Kitty got.

A laugh and a thud broke Rachel's twisted reverie. Someone had tripped and was laying sprawled on the grass. Old habits from better and worse times kicked in with Rachel darting forward to check on the fallen student. She recognized Bobby Drake the instant she leaned over him. Though she had locked up her mind from intrusion, it didn't take a telepath to sense the pain in the frosty mutant's murmured apology to the departed.

"Hey, it's not all on you."
Rachel said to Bobby as she knelt down beside him.
"We all missed it."


She reached for one of Bobby's hands to give him something reassuring to hold on to, if he let her.

"We all missed it for him. But we won't miss it for each other. We gotta keep going. For Ezra. For others we've lost. For each other."


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// cyclops
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he silence after Fred spoke wasn’t empty. It was loud.

It rang in Scott’s ears like an aftershock. Not just because Fred had said it, but because it was true. Brutally, quietly true. And coming from Fred, the one person in this whole goddamn mess who didn’t talk unless it mattered, it landed with the kind of finality you couldn’t argue with. Scott didn’t flinch. Didn’t move. Just stared at Pietro, his jaw tense, hands curled halfway into fists at his sides.

Pietro’s sarcasm wasn’t fooling anyone. Not anymore. Scott could see the burn behind his eyes, not just the Kick, but the fear. The denial. The panic of someone trying to outrun their grief like it was chasing them with claws. And it was. Grief was tireless. It didn’t slow down. It didn’t miss a step. And even someone like Pietro — someone who could blink through time and leave everything behind — couldn’t outrun it forever.

Scott saw it in the tremble in Pietro’s shoulders. In the way he paced like the earth was too slow beneath his feet. In how fast he’d snapped when Scott reached for him, how easily he had defaulted to attack when it wasn’t even a fight.

You don’t lash out like that unless you’re cornered.

And Pietro was cornered, by guilt, by pain, by whatever hollow promises Kick had whispered in his ear when the grief got too sharp to breathe through.

Scott exhaled slowly. The heat in his chest wasn’t rage anymore. Not really. It was grief dressed in armor. And somewhere under it, shame.

Because Pietro was right about one thing.

Scott didn’t bottle it up for noble reasons. He did it because if he didn’t, he didn’t trust what would happen. Not just to himself, but to the people around him. He’d been taught his whole life that losing control meant hurting people. Burning things down. Blowing holes through walls or friends or moments that couldn’t be stitched back together. There was a mother he could never have again, because of power behind those eyes.

So he kept it buried. Tidy. Like a checklist.

But these kids didn’t know how to do that. And maybe they shouldn’t have to.

Still… what did Pietro want from him? A pat on the back? A sorry, kid?

Scott stepped forward again, slower this time. Measured. Charlie still balanced over his shoulder.

“You want to know why I stuck my nose in?” he said, voice low. He didn’t raise it. Didn’t need to. “Because I already failed one kid who thought he was ‘doing fine.’ And now Ezra’s gone. I’m not about to lose another.”

He paused, watching Pietro’s eyes flicker — a thousand thoughts flying past too fast to name.

“You can be pissed at me all you want, but if you think I’m going to stand here and watch you crash and burn just to make a point about not being one of my ‘precious X-Men,’ then go ahead. Be mad. But don’t act like you’re the only one who lost him. And don’t act like you’re untouchable just because you can’t stand still.”

His voice caught, just for a second. He pushed through it.

“You’re not the only one who feels broken. You’re just the one pretending it makes you bulletproof.”

Scott’s hand relaxed at his side. No more commands. No more lectures. Just truth.

Then he turned to Fred — met his gaze — and gave him a nod. Not just in agreement, but in quiet thanks. He didn’t say it. He didn’t need to. But Fred had said the one thing Scott couldn’t say out loud without breaking.

I’m tired of digging holes for friends who thought they were doing great.

God, wasn’t that the truth.

Scott’s eyes fell back on Pietro. His voice, when it came again, was quieter now. Strained.

“Come with us. Or don’t. I’m not dragging you. But if you’re still here when you fall apart, and you will, at least you’ll have someone to catch you.”

He stepped past him, jacket still gone, boots crunching in slow rhythm with Fred’s.

The fire behind them still burned, but the heat was colder now. Like it wasn’t just for mourning anymore.

It was a warning.

Scott didn’t look back. Couldn’t.

Each step away from the bonfire felt heavier, like the forest floor was pulling at his boots. Like the grief wanted to drag him back and bury him next to the ones they’d already lost.

Pietro was cracking. Charlie, barely holding it together. Fred, carrying too much in silence. And him trying to keep them all from shattering while the foundation crumbled beneath his feet.

He wasn’t angry anymore. He was tired. So tired.

And underneath that? Lost.

Without thinking, without needing to say it aloud, he reached out the only way he knew how—quietly, invisibly, internally—to the one person who’d always caught his thoughts before he even finished forming them.

Jean.


The word wasn't sharp or urgent. It was small. Frayed around the edges. A whisper buried in the storm.


‘I don’t know if I’m doing this right.’

He didn’t know if it reached her.
But he hoped it did.
Because she was his anchor.
And tonight, he needed one.

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