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One deep breath. Then another. Casper continued running the cold water over their hands, then lifted some to their face, rubbing it across the thing. Another deep breath, pacing it. Casper still couldn’t really remember that dumb acronym Emory had taught him, but it had something to do with cold water and breathing.
They needed to calm down- Sure, there were new people, but that was just how it was sometimes. It wasn’t like it was the end of the world. They were probably really nice, and if they weren’t- like they really, really weren’t- it wasn’t like Raul would let them stay.
Casper knew Emory had said something about not being mean to himself, about being fair, treating himself like he was his friend, and for the most part, Casper had been doing really good with that, but right now it felt impossible to feel anything other than stupid.
Casper didn’t even dislike new people.
At least they hadn’t let it be obvious they were freaking out when they excused themself. Sure, that wasn’t a good response, but they still felt a weak bubble of pride at it. Finally strong enough to look at themself, Casper lifted their eyes to the mirror, and they wished they were surprised by the frizzy hair and pinkness to their eyes.
They ran damp hands through their hair in an attempt to calm it, then turned off the sink, drying their hands on the towel nearby.
With one last look in the mirror, one last shaking breath, they put on a smile, weaker than they may have liked but at least genuine, then headed back to the group.
Quietly, he returned to his seat.
They needed to calm down- Sure, there were new people, but that was just how it was sometimes. It wasn’t like it was the end of the world. They were probably really nice, and if they weren’t- like they really, really weren’t- it wasn’t like Raul would let them stay.
Casper knew Emory had said something about not being mean to himself, about being fair, treating himself like he was his friend, and for the most part, Casper had been doing really good with that, but right now it felt impossible to feel anything other than stupid.
Casper didn’t even dislike new people.
At least they hadn’t let it be obvious they were freaking out when they excused themself. Sure, that wasn’t a good response, but they still felt a weak bubble of pride at it. Finally strong enough to look at themself, Casper lifted their eyes to the mirror, and they wished they were surprised by the frizzy hair and pinkness to their eyes.
They ran damp hands through their hair in an attempt to calm it, then turned off the sink, drying their hands on the towel nearby.
With one last look in the mirror, one last shaking breath, they put on a smile, weaker than they may have liked but at least genuine, then headed back to the group.
Quietly, he returned to his seat.