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"It's raining again..."
Wet hair slicked down the side of Irena's ears. She had a green hood to wrap around her bespectacled face, but instead she chose to wallow in the coldness of the raindrops. In fat heaps they slipped through the evergreen branches surrounding her from all sides, their rhytmic pitter-patter breaking against her silvery scalp. She was visibly shivering.
"The ditches will be leveled like this, then what will we do?"
She bit the underside of her thumb, strong enough for it to bleed. The Sun had already settled beyond the horizon, leaving only the residual afterlight to illuminate the densely wooded scenery. If the stars were already visible; no one could know; on account of the sombercoloured veil hiding them away. The evening was hazy—incredibly hazy. Before she knew it, the blood from her finger had been washed away and evaporated with the rain.
She squatted in the dirt, watching the steam rise in thousands of smoky pillars. Her eyes were red, but she had no idea whether she'd been crying.
"To think that I'd be the one sending Humanity to an early grave... You must be disgusted with me."
"You're being unfair."
"Huh?"
A second voice joined the previously one-sided conversation, coming just from behind her back. Recognising the voice almost instantly, Irena didn't bother lifting herself up or even turning to face the speaker, smiling weakly under her glasses. She had sneaked out to quite the out-of-sight spot, but of course she found her anyway. Sighing, the Commander addressed the woman currently looming over her.
"Misha, I guess you noticed I slipped away. You shouldn't worry about your superior like that, it's not part of your job description. Besides, don't the soldiers deserve more of your attention?"
"What a crybaby you're being, everyone knows you're no good when you shut in."
The gentle-looking girl leaned forward, softly wrapping her arms around Irena's neck and resting her chin on top of her head. The cold rain made it so that neither felt noticeably more warm, but Irena's world suddenly became far quieter and... even peaceful. Now that the raindrops weren't breaking directly against her temples, her focus was brought fully to Misha.
"Here. You're being too hard on yourself, see?"
Before she knew it, she felt Misha's hands wrapped around hers, offering no resistance as she was led towards a nearby stone.
"You can't lift a boulder like this alone, right? It's far too heavy." To add emphasis, the squad leader draped Irena's fingertips against the bottom of the rock. Were her hands any softer, she might've flinched at the sensation; it had a very unpleasant and rough texture; and was impossible to move.
"Misha, this—"
"Shhh. It's alright. All of us face a boulder like it at some point in our lives. That's why we need to rely on others, because only then can we share the burden and succeed. Just like this—oompf!"
She grabbed the moss-haired belly of the stone, prompting Irena to follow as they both made an effort. Surely enough, the boulder gave way—admittedly slimy and gross—and the two quickly set it aside. The commander's eyes narrowed in annoyance, though a single peek at the girl's self-satisfied face instantly wiped it away. It was time to put an end to the lecture.
"Instead of blindly moving forward and fighting alone, we should confide in those we care about and face the problem together. Or do you want to drown here like a turkey in the rain?"
Irena rose up, shaking the other woman off from her shoulders. With Misha gone, the thundering noise returned right away.
"You learned that from her, didn't you? Ever since then, you've been growing and matured into an amazing leader. It's always felt like it should've been you. No, it was meant to be you, the situation we're in proves that."
"You're wrong," Misha shook her head. "Even with how everything turned out, I still respect you. We've lost hundreds of soldiers, but you're still capable of moving forward. If that was me... I would just freeze up and die."
Irena knew what she was trying to say. She knew that she didn't mean anything bad or accusatory, but in spite of that, she couldn't help but feel like she'd been called uncaring or cold-blooded. A frown began forming across her face.
"Have you been crying? Your eyes are like a cadet who's just entered training. Hehe, like Strom."
"So you noticed that too... I'm sorry, that's my failure as a Commander."
"No, I think it's beautiful. That you can cry and still find the strength to move on. I can't do both of those at once either."
"...It's getting dark. Let's tell Romani to light the reconnaissance fires."
"Right you are!"
Within the camp...
Dozens of hastily constructed tents, wildly scattered wagons and improvised shacks clustered together at the center of the forest. Protected not only by the closely-knit trees, but also artificial ditches several meters deep and lined with sharpened stakes, the reminder of the Survey Corps was getting ready for nightly watch. Devised in a system of juniors first, seniors third and second, the alloted time for each soldier to serve as sentry had stayed the same ever since it was first announced. Similarly, it was always the duty of the lower ranks to light the 'watch-fires' before their duty began.
Spread along the borders of the ditch-surrounded forest, these fires were rudimentary Titan control, making sure that no second night-time ambush would take the Scouts by surprise. Once they were lit, all noise and activity would have to be kept to a minimum, so the soldiers all hurried to finish their meals on time. Berries and gruel, rat meat and gruel, rat meat and berries; it was already getting boring. The Commander may have spared the rations of the fallen officers as a way of boosting morale on the first day of the encampment, but even that effort was in vain if dried gruel was seriously all that remained.
Nevertheless, it was deathly important to fill one's gullet. Going to sleep hungry was suicide in a sitation where any number of threats lurked right under your bed. Titans, snakes, exceptionally moody squad members... all kinds of horrors stalked the dark nights and misty mornings.
"Oye! You lot ready or what? I've been watching you guzzle gruel for an hour now and it's seriously unappetising!"
A strong voice shook the campsite, coming from a branch overlooking the Commander's tent. As expected, the Commander's tent sat right in the middle and was flanked by everyone else's, while currently above it shouted the stout and cynical Romani Trott. The squad captain held a blade above his head, waving it to get everyone's attention.
"Assemble into teams like always! Ten members—three teams, make them however you want. One will tackle the north-west, another goes north-east and the laziest team can have the south all to themselves. Light the fires in your designated area and then keep watch in groups of two per fire, got it? Get on it then!"
The man turned around, jumping down from the tree-branch. Unwittingly, a small yelp left his mouth as he landed on his injured foot.
"...and don't you dare die while you're at it."