EclecticSpica
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Iris Starling
“We promised to never let go.”
“We promised to never let go.”

Iris groaned, burying her face in her palms as she heard Theo shut the door after explaining himself. Right. Singing after shaving. Totally normal. Totally logical. But seriously—who hides a body like that under sweater vests and button-ups? Her mind raced, already knowing she was doomed to be haunted by that image far more than the old one she used to carry of him: glasses, sweaters, older-but-charming Theo. Maybe that was for the better. Things were getting weird anyway. Then again, dreaming of a guy half-naked, curled up next to you, was probably a pretty good sign something was already weird.
What the hell is wrong with me, she whimpered inwardly.
Her gaze dropped to her own stomach, peeking out from beneath the hem of her tank top. She squished at the soft skin, frowning. She wasn’t built like that. She didn’t work out. Her idea of exercise was lugging light fixtures up and down stairs. She was soft. Squishy. Thin only because she forgot to eat half the time. Still, since Theo had been around—always cooking, always feeding her—she had started to fill out just a little. Her limbs a bit less twig-like. Her cheeks a little fuller. Iris sighed and thunked her head back against the wall with a soft whimper.
Did he even care that I just checked him out like he was a damn library book? That nauseating swirl started again in her stomach—the same one she’d felt when he once casually joked he’d be surprised if she ever flirted with him. Iris rolled her eyes and puffed out her lips, sulking. Right. He didn’t care. And we don’t care that he doesn’t care, she scolded herself, curling her legs up to her chest, absentmindedly flicking at the hem of her pajama pants. The second he finds out Dad’s been trying to kick him out, he’ll leave—and he’ll blame me like everyone else. Better this way. No emotions. No crushes. No daydreaming about Greek gods taking showers in your bathroom, she grumbled internally. Finally, she forced herself to her feet, brushing off the embarrassing spiral.
She shifted to lean against the door, her eyes glued to the floor. “You can take your time,” she called through it, voice tight but polite. “No rush. I don’t, uh… I don’t need a shower or anything. I just woke up in a weird mood. Weird dream and junk.” She focused straight ahead, willing her brain to stay on safe topics. But her mind was betraying her so much, rattling with what she would say if she could tell him the truth.
Yeah, hi Theo. Totally normal dream, nothing crazy. Not like I dreamed of you cuddling me in bed, kissing me good morning until I laughed myself awake—only to find you weren’t there, and then felt a soul-crushing sadness I tried to fix by doom-scrolling on my phone… only to find new messages from my dad about how he wants you gone, and thinks that stupid understudy’s a "godsend." Also, pretty sure that idiot tampered with that table, and that’s why you’re stuck here. Oh, and now, thanks to barging in, I can add half-naked Theo to the list right next to dreamboat, glasses-wearing Theo. Bloody hell Theo, since when did you look like that? Iris squeezed her eyes shut and bit down on her bottom lip to suppress another groan.
Never telling the truth. Got it. She glanced back to the door listening to him shuffle as he got ready, the sound doing wonders to soothe that anxiety in her gut but it only replaced with the feeling of inadequacy.
“Um, I was also going to suggest maybe… going over some of your lines today?” she added quickly, clinging to work talk like a lifeline. “If you feel up to it. I don’t want you getting rusty while you’re out of commission.” Work. Work was safe. Work would make this awkwardness go away. She shivered slightly, hugging her arms tighter around her chest, pressing the thin tank top even closer to her body. One downside of following Theo into the bathroom? You found out real fast how cold the world was after stepping out of his steamy little oasis.