NihilisticDespair
Psychotic and a little bit deranged ;3
Hello all, you can call me Nih. =3
I am a role-player and writer of many years and am always eager to find new partners to get awesome, new stories going with! My cravings are rather specific as I have quite a few partners already and am now just in the process of filling in gaps with things that have petered off and died (which, FYI, doesn’t bug me just let me know your interest has waned! I can be extremely accommodating and understand completely if a muse has died. I might even offer another RP scenario if our writing clicks but that particular story just didn’t. =) )
· Literacy and detail. I’m an immersive writer who likes to feel transported to the place I’m writing about. I do my utmost to describe scenery, weather, wildlife, on-going back-ground events as well as all the character nonsense. My posts can get lengthy due to this so obviously I’m looking for people who either enjoy this style of writing, can emulate it themselves or long to do so. I love helping new writers learn if they truly wish to learn and I myself never speak in absolutes. Writing, like art, is too subjective to do so.
· Adult writers, mainly because...I’m an adult and prefer interacting with other adults. I’m also a HUGE psych-horror buff so adult themes, gory details, insanity, torture, abuse, drug-use, depression, suicide – these are all things I have written and will continue to write. It’s what I love, what can I say?
· Diversity of characters and interests. I have a wide, wide, wide cast of characters I can pull from (that’s what happens when you spend more than 14 years writing, developing and role-playing) and expect a similar level of diversity from my partners. If you’re struggling with this and need help message me anyway! Having been a GM/DM for more years than I care to admit I have all sorts of tips and tricks for helping flesh characters and biographies out. Plus I have an endless slew if ideas, I’m always secretly plotting and designing new character models. lol
· A certain level of activity* and excitement because to me…this reflects your level of interest. If you don’t sound as excited as I do to start the role-play there’s a good chance it will eventually wither and die and I’ll eventually cut it off. I’m not adverse to trying to fix whatever isn’t working but if our styles just don’t mesh, it’s not a huge deal. Not every writing style melds well with another, it’s just luck of the draw, sometimes. As for activity, if you could (*nothing is mandatory) post once every day or even every two or three (or even four…) days I guess I can survive. lol xD – I’ll be more apt to be more forgiving to stories and characters I’ve become truly dedicated to, so never be afraid to message me and ask if activity might be an issue. I’m open to sucking it up if I find another writer I really want to interact with. ;3 (Especially since my health might steal me away for days at a time! GASP! This is a risk when writing with me but I do my best to stay on top of things! I’m more stable these days and role-playing really helps me cope but I can have bad days too, trust me. Thus…I must be forgiving of other people’ schedules despite my want for the RP to move faster. ^-^)
· OOC chatter because I love it. I wanna’ get to know you AND your characters. Our differences, our similarities, everything. The better friends we become the better chance the role-play has of enduring, this has been my experience, anyway. =)
· (If/when applicable; I never demand romance it should occur naturally.) M/M pairings, the occasional M/F and romance which is realistic/believable. I’m not adverse to doing F/F it’s just never turned out well for me. Had a lot of bad experiences with people that just wanted an excuse to rub 8008s together. This is not what I’m after. I’m after deep, psychological experiences, trauma, conflict, eventual healing but NEVER pure smut or fluffy romance (though tender-hearted under-tones may occur on occasion).
· Willingness to help move the story and offer plot ideas because I am NOT GMing this for YOUR benefit. We are telling a cooperative story and each contributing ideas and circumstances to help shape the characters’ paths and the world they exist within. If I start to feel like I’m GMing I will complain. If it happens again the RP might get dropped but I’m open to helping someone out if they’re honestly just having trouble doing so. Like I said, I have plot ideas aplenty.
· People who will bug me if I fall behind! Sometimes I have a nasty habit of reading a role-playing PM and then not responding right away and then forgetting to mark it as unread again…yeah, I know. Stupid. That or I just get an influx suddenly that forces one to get set aside inadvertently – things can happen! Bug me, poke me, throw rocks at me, choke me, taze me – I don’t care! Just remind me I’m being dumb and need to pick up my stupid pace! =D (I have Discord almost specifically for this reason. lol)
· People who won't trouble me with face-claims or pictures in their posts because I'm a writer looking to use my words to paint the picture for you. Using pictures defeats this purpose. However, if you draw your own characters, I fully support this! If you use face-claims for yourself, fine; just don't show them to me unless they're actually drawn and they're actually of your character (not a copy-written one or something from an existing anime/show/book/movie/etc.).
So, if you managed to get through that wall-o-text then you’re ready for the pot-o-plots! ;3
1) Wild City – New York City is alive and not just with humans. Werebeasts, shape-shifters, elves, fae, dragons, vampires, golems, gargoyles, demons, angels and anything else you can imagine walk right beside you every day; you probably just never bothered to notice. Well, suddenly your character has been violently thrust into the occult/supernatural and in a way which may very likely get them killed – or worse… Enter MY character (which could be any number of the aforementioned things) who, for whatever reason, is willing to help yours out of the dangerous spot. What they want in return? That’s hard to say. (This could go lots of ways but I’ve always loved this rough scenario!)
2) Anything and Everything – Your character has lived a normal life, had normal expectations and normal goals that they achieved all quite…normally. Unfortunately…just as your character enters the work-force, fresh out of college, set and squared away with their very own apartment…something goes terribly wrong. Unknowingly they’ve moved into a building that houses not only a den of vampires but a coven of demon-worshipers. As eerie things begin to take place around your character’s apartment they feel compelled to investigate as odd noises begin erupting all over the building. Their timid investigation leads them to the basement where a ritual is in the middle of being performed – one you interrupt and abolish by merely being there. In anger the cultists and vampires move to attack but are destroyed in the failed ritual which leaves naught but a demon djinn behind, in need of a master and having none but your character to fill that role. (Figured this could be fun to try.)
3) Cursed and Accursed – Curses are a terrible thing to bear, more so for those whom never deserved them in the first place. Your character suffers from a terrible curse which forces them into hiding from the average person. My character suffers from something similar and continues to seek a cure despite the dwindling sense of faith. Can two helplessly broken characters help salvage one another’s souls despite their own dark limitations? Or will they be consumed by their demons and fall victim to the same fate as so many before them? (I’d prefer this in a medieval-fantasy setting and things may get pretty specific.)
4) Behind Chamber Doors – Two kingdoms on the verge of war reach a tentative agreement due to the fact a third force is soon approaching. Needing to establish a sense of security from the encroaching enemy force the two otherwise unfriendly partners band together but not without stress or struggle. The agreement was made based on a marriage arrangement between the eldest son of the sly gypsy country and the upstanding eldest princess of their posh neighbors. Everything appears to be going well until the gypsy prince realizes, upon his visit to the castle, the woman has a younger brother. A handsome, available younger brother… The gypsies are known for not only being poly-amorous but also non-distinguishing as-per-gender. The gypsy prince soon becomes obsessed with the younger brother, pulling him into a sordid affair which could destroy both families should it come to light. With war looming so close and from an outside source they can’t afford to let anyone discover their torrid romance but find it increasingly difficult to avoid one another the closer it comes to the proposed date. Will the pair be able to pull away from their families and duties or will they be forced to break once the marriage takes place, forced to hide what they truly feel for one another? (Medieval-fantasy, lots of wiggle-room for drama, trauma, war or anything else.)
5) The Perfect Stranger – A young college student floundering in debt finds himself evicted by his very angry landlord after five months of not being able to pay rent. With panic slowly setting in as he gathers his belongings and heads for the streets, he just about crashes to rock bottom when he suddenly meets a handsome stranger. The stranger is charming, concerned for the student and eager to offer his help; even opening his home to the young man in a show of what appeared to be genuine kind-heartedness. This charming demeanor melts almost instantly once the stranger has the student trapped in his home; a tale of horror about to begin from behind the sound-proof walls. (Modern-realistic or modern-fantasy. Heavy psychological themes.)
6) The Summoners of Brudala – Political tensions are on the rise within Brudala, the city of sorcery. Since time immemorial the grand city and its many colleges and guilds have dedicated themselves to the nurturing of summoners; an order of magi capable of bartering with spirits to borrow their power. For generations young summoners (whom often discover they were summoners during early-late child-hood, sometimes as late as early 20s) have been sent to these establishments to help them better control what could be an immensely destructive power. This training serves two goals, one: the ability to control their power and not be dangerous in public and two: to prepare them for a mission bestowed only upon a chosen few. The fires of the Great Shrine have gone out, the land is slowly heading towards decay. While the common folk seem to be mostly unaware of this the magi orders are flailing for solutions. Only summoners can re-light the fires of the magical landmark, using the arcane energy of a beast of flame they bonded with to do so. Problem is…most of the fighting-aged summoners are gone; dead from battle, age or withering and no longer able to fight. This duty must fall onto a group of young summoners and with time running out…they can no longer be picky about their choices. A series of final tests has been devised to help select potential subjects for the extremely dangerous mission. Many wish they wouldn’t have to ask something so grave of summoners so young but there is little that can be done now that the land has begun to die. (Medieval-fantasy adventure.)
7) Digital Degradation – A popular MMORPG has taken the world by storm, selling millions of copies world-wide and attracting a wide gambit of players. The fun, adventurous game-play and cooperative questing made it an instant favorite among socialites and introverts alike, new expansions drawing in even more players and fan-base. But something goes terribly wrong (or perhaps terribly right) and when a strange partition of the game program is lifted, allows arcane access to a user’s mind, transporting their living consciousness to their fictional avatars. Users don’t realize it but this has been a part of the program all along, an effort to trap mortals within the game and feed off of their energies. This electric form of magic is sinister and many have found themselves unable to log out due to the fact they now reside within their character’s fictional bodies. Life seems much the same within the mystical program, the characters suffer from hunger, fatigue, weather and anything else in a normal realm; the only difference is…they’re in a body they designed. Some are bound to quail and long to go home, others might feel it a blessing since their real bodies are broken and useless – so which are you? (Modern-realistic with fantasy themes in-game. This is totally open for doubling/multiples since we could easily have a pair in-game and another pair outside of it investigating why their friends suddenly fell into comas. Heavy .Hack influences here but I think I want the main villainous force to be a cult of demons or something similar; something which would feed off of the mental energies of mortals or maybe even seeking to possess their bodies in the real world.)
That’s all I have right now, folks! Just a few very specific cravings I’d like to try out with some cool, creative people. Don’t be afraid to message me directly and get a dialogue goin’ (or ask me for my Discord tag), I’m pretty friendly and easy to get along with and love to chat OOC. =)
Here’s hopin’! x3
(It probably is worth mentioning I've been gone for almost a year after a catastrophic laptop crash. Back finally and looking forward to getting settled back in (though I'm pretty much there at this point xD).)
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Other themes/character pairings I’m interested in:
Vampire/Human
Master/Slave
Slave/Slave
Mercenary/Contract Owner
Indentured Servant/Noble
Adventurer/Adventurer
Mage/Bonded Familiar
Unwitting Mortal/Demon
Werecreature/Some other supernatural
Hunter/Vampire or Demon
Creator or Human/Golem
Monster/Human
Pairings need not be romantic but if you desire a romantic angle just say so, I’ll likely agree depending on the characters involved (otherwise I’ll select a character from my repertoire open to romantic themes). =)
I am a role-player and writer of many years and am always eager to find new partners to get awesome, new stories going with! My cravings are rather specific as I have quite a few partners already and am now just in the process of filling in gaps with things that have petered off and died (which, FYI, doesn’t bug me just let me know your interest has waned! I can be extremely accommodating and understand completely if a muse has died. I might even offer another RP scenario if our writing clicks but that particular story just didn’t. =) )
~ Things I’m Looking For ~
· Literacy and detail. I’m an immersive writer who likes to feel transported to the place I’m writing about. I do my utmost to describe scenery, weather, wildlife, on-going back-ground events as well as all the character nonsense. My posts can get lengthy due to this so obviously I’m looking for people who either enjoy this style of writing, can emulate it themselves or long to do so. I love helping new writers learn if they truly wish to learn and I myself never speak in absolutes. Writing, like art, is too subjective to do so.
· Adult writers, mainly because...I’m an adult and prefer interacting with other adults. I’m also a HUGE psych-horror buff so adult themes, gory details, insanity, torture, abuse, drug-use, depression, suicide – these are all things I have written and will continue to write. It’s what I love, what can I say?
· Diversity of characters and interests. I have a wide, wide, wide cast of characters I can pull from (that’s what happens when you spend more than 14 years writing, developing and role-playing) and expect a similar level of diversity from my partners. If you’re struggling with this and need help message me anyway! Having been a GM/DM for more years than I care to admit I have all sorts of tips and tricks for helping flesh characters and biographies out. Plus I have an endless slew if ideas, I’m always secretly plotting and designing new character models. lol
· A certain level of activity* and excitement because to me…this reflects your level of interest. If you don’t sound as excited as I do to start the role-play there’s a good chance it will eventually wither and die and I’ll eventually cut it off. I’m not adverse to trying to fix whatever isn’t working but if our styles just don’t mesh, it’s not a huge deal. Not every writing style melds well with another, it’s just luck of the draw, sometimes. As for activity, if you could (*nothing is mandatory) post once every day or even every two or three (or even four…) days I guess I can survive. lol xD – I’ll be more apt to be more forgiving to stories and characters I’ve become truly dedicated to, so never be afraid to message me and ask if activity might be an issue. I’m open to sucking it up if I find another writer I really want to interact with. ;3 (Especially since my health might steal me away for days at a time! GASP! This is a risk when writing with me but I do my best to stay on top of things! I’m more stable these days and role-playing really helps me cope but I can have bad days too, trust me. Thus…I must be forgiving of other people’ schedules despite my want for the RP to move faster. ^-^)
· OOC chatter because I love it. I wanna’ get to know you AND your characters. Our differences, our similarities, everything. The better friends we become the better chance the role-play has of enduring, this has been my experience, anyway. =)
· (If/when applicable; I never demand romance it should occur naturally.) M/M pairings, the occasional M/F and romance which is realistic/believable. I’m not adverse to doing F/F it’s just never turned out well for me. Had a lot of bad experiences with people that just wanted an excuse to rub 8008s together. This is not what I’m after. I’m after deep, psychological experiences, trauma, conflict, eventual healing but NEVER pure smut or fluffy romance (though tender-hearted under-tones may occur on occasion).
· Willingness to help move the story and offer plot ideas because I am NOT GMing this for YOUR benefit. We are telling a cooperative story and each contributing ideas and circumstances to help shape the characters’ paths and the world they exist within. If I start to feel like I’m GMing I will complain. If it happens again the RP might get dropped but I’m open to helping someone out if they’re honestly just having trouble doing so. Like I said, I have plot ideas aplenty.
· People who will bug me if I fall behind! Sometimes I have a nasty habit of reading a role-playing PM and then not responding right away and then forgetting to mark it as unread again…yeah, I know. Stupid. That or I just get an influx suddenly that forces one to get set aside inadvertently – things can happen! Bug me, poke me, throw rocks at me, choke me, taze me – I don’t care! Just remind me I’m being dumb and need to pick up my stupid pace! =D (I have Discord almost specifically for this reason. lol)
· People who won't trouble me with face-claims or pictures in their posts because I'm a writer looking to use my words to paint the picture for you. Using pictures defeats this purpose. However, if you draw your own characters, I fully support this! If you use face-claims for yourself, fine; just don't show them to me unless they're actually drawn and they're actually of your character (not a copy-written one or something from an existing anime/show/book/movie/etc.).
So, if you managed to get through that wall-o-text then you’re ready for the pot-o-plots! ;3
~ Pot-o-Plots ~
1) Wild City – New York City is alive and not just with humans. Werebeasts, shape-shifters, elves, fae, dragons, vampires, golems, gargoyles, demons, angels and anything else you can imagine walk right beside you every day; you probably just never bothered to notice. Well, suddenly your character has been violently thrust into the occult/supernatural and in a way which may very likely get them killed – or worse… Enter MY character (which could be any number of the aforementioned things) who, for whatever reason, is willing to help yours out of the dangerous spot. What they want in return? That’s hard to say. (This could go lots of ways but I’ve always loved this rough scenario!)
2) Anything and Everything – Your character has lived a normal life, had normal expectations and normal goals that they achieved all quite…normally. Unfortunately…just as your character enters the work-force, fresh out of college, set and squared away with their very own apartment…something goes terribly wrong. Unknowingly they’ve moved into a building that houses not only a den of vampires but a coven of demon-worshipers. As eerie things begin to take place around your character’s apartment they feel compelled to investigate as odd noises begin erupting all over the building. Their timid investigation leads them to the basement where a ritual is in the middle of being performed – one you interrupt and abolish by merely being there. In anger the cultists and vampires move to attack but are destroyed in the failed ritual which leaves naught but a demon djinn behind, in need of a master and having none but your character to fill that role. (Figured this could be fun to try.)
3) Cursed and Accursed – Curses are a terrible thing to bear, more so for those whom never deserved them in the first place. Your character suffers from a terrible curse which forces them into hiding from the average person. My character suffers from something similar and continues to seek a cure despite the dwindling sense of faith. Can two helplessly broken characters help salvage one another’s souls despite their own dark limitations? Or will they be consumed by their demons and fall victim to the same fate as so many before them? (I’d prefer this in a medieval-fantasy setting and things may get pretty specific.)
4) Behind Chamber Doors – Two kingdoms on the verge of war reach a tentative agreement due to the fact a third force is soon approaching. Needing to establish a sense of security from the encroaching enemy force the two otherwise unfriendly partners band together but not without stress or struggle. The agreement was made based on a marriage arrangement between the eldest son of the sly gypsy country and the upstanding eldest princess of their posh neighbors. Everything appears to be going well until the gypsy prince realizes, upon his visit to the castle, the woman has a younger brother. A handsome, available younger brother… The gypsies are known for not only being poly-amorous but also non-distinguishing as-per-gender. The gypsy prince soon becomes obsessed with the younger brother, pulling him into a sordid affair which could destroy both families should it come to light. With war looming so close and from an outside source they can’t afford to let anyone discover their torrid romance but find it increasingly difficult to avoid one another the closer it comes to the proposed date. Will the pair be able to pull away from their families and duties or will they be forced to break once the marriage takes place, forced to hide what they truly feel for one another? (Medieval-fantasy, lots of wiggle-room for drama, trauma, war or anything else.)
5) The Perfect Stranger – A young college student floundering in debt finds himself evicted by his very angry landlord after five months of not being able to pay rent. With panic slowly setting in as he gathers his belongings and heads for the streets, he just about crashes to rock bottom when he suddenly meets a handsome stranger. The stranger is charming, concerned for the student and eager to offer his help; even opening his home to the young man in a show of what appeared to be genuine kind-heartedness. This charming demeanor melts almost instantly once the stranger has the student trapped in his home; a tale of horror about to begin from behind the sound-proof walls. (Modern-realistic or modern-fantasy. Heavy psychological themes.)
6) The Summoners of Brudala – Political tensions are on the rise within Brudala, the city of sorcery. Since time immemorial the grand city and its many colleges and guilds have dedicated themselves to the nurturing of summoners; an order of magi capable of bartering with spirits to borrow their power. For generations young summoners (whom often discover they were summoners during early-late child-hood, sometimes as late as early 20s) have been sent to these establishments to help them better control what could be an immensely destructive power. This training serves two goals, one: the ability to control their power and not be dangerous in public and two: to prepare them for a mission bestowed only upon a chosen few. The fires of the Great Shrine have gone out, the land is slowly heading towards decay. While the common folk seem to be mostly unaware of this the magi orders are flailing for solutions. Only summoners can re-light the fires of the magical landmark, using the arcane energy of a beast of flame they bonded with to do so. Problem is…most of the fighting-aged summoners are gone; dead from battle, age or withering and no longer able to fight. This duty must fall onto a group of young summoners and with time running out…they can no longer be picky about their choices. A series of final tests has been devised to help select potential subjects for the extremely dangerous mission. Many wish they wouldn’t have to ask something so grave of summoners so young but there is little that can be done now that the land has begun to die. (Medieval-fantasy adventure.)
7) Digital Degradation – A popular MMORPG has taken the world by storm, selling millions of copies world-wide and attracting a wide gambit of players. The fun, adventurous game-play and cooperative questing made it an instant favorite among socialites and introverts alike, new expansions drawing in even more players and fan-base. But something goes terribly wrong (or perhaps terribly right) and when a strange partition of the game program is lifted, allows arcane access to a user’s mind, transporting their living consciousness to their fictional avatars. Users don’t realize it but this has been a part of the program all along, an effort to trap mortals within the game and feed off of their energies. This electric form of magic is sinister and many have found themselves unable to log out due to the fact they now reside within their character’s fictional bodies. Life seems much the same within the mystical program, the characters suffer from hunger, fatigue, weather and anything else in a normal realm; the only difference is…they’re in a body they designed. Some are bound to quail and long to go home, others might feel it a blessing since their real bodies are broken and useless – so which are you? (Modern-realistic with fantasy themes in-game. This is totally open for doubling/multiples since we could easily have a pair in-game and another pair outside of it investigating why their friends suddenly fell into comas. Heavy .Hack influences here but I think I want the main villainous force to be a cult of demons or something similar; something which would feed off of the mental energies of mortals or maybe even seeking to possess their bodies in the real world.)
That’s all I have right now, folks! Just a few very specific cravings I’d like to try out with some cool, creative people. Don’t be afraid to message me directly and get a dialogue goin’ (or ask me for my Discord tag), I’m pretty friendly and easy to get along with and love to chat OOC. =)
Here’s hopin’! x3
(It probably is worth mentioning I've been gone for almost a year after a catastrophic laptop crash. Back finally and looking forward to getting settled back in (though I'm pretty much there at this point xD).)
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Other themes/character pairings I’m interested in:
Vampire/Human
Master/Slave
Slave/Slave
Mercenary/Contract Owner
Indentured Servant/Noble
Adventurer/Adventurer
Mage/Bonded Familiar
Unwitting Mortal/Demon
Werecreature/Some other supernatural
Hunter/Vampire or Demon
Creator or Human/Golem
Monster/Human
Pairings need not be romantic but if you desire a romantic angle just say so, I’ll likely agree depending on the characters involved (otherwise I’ll select a character from my repertoire open to romantic themes). =)
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