j.e.s.t.e.r
platonic lesbian
warning: curses
don't mind my writing style
This might be a lot
just bear with me okay?
okay.
so.
uhm
5th grade
I had this friend
her name was Annmarie
She was nice
I guess?
I told her a lot of things
we dated for a week.
yeah
that type of thing.
well.
We became distant.
we didn't talk
She hung out with the other girls
I preferred the boys.
well
heh
She was mean
like this girl was an ass
I hated her.
continuing.
I started hanging out with two other girls. Evie and Kennedy.
WELL
Time skip to the end of the school year.
like the week before
well yearbook day
soo
We were hanging out on the playground
I was talking to Vinny and Matthew.
I think we were playing pokemon?
yeah
yeah we were
soo
Eli, Kennedy's boyfriend
came over
he was like
'Tiana crossed you out of the yearbook'
and I didn't believe him.
so I told him to show me
so at the end of recess
he showed me
and he was right
that bitch
I showed Evie
she was like
'why are you looking at it that's hers'
and so I gave it back to Eli
I told Yer
because he was sitting next to me
He agreed with me
he was my best friend at the time
I wasn't super good friends with Evie
but I told her
about the yearbook thing
idk why
but
the next day
it's about to go down
playground
me and Yer
sitting down
on the plastic barrier thing
it's not very high
and then
Jessie, the bitch of the bitches,
Annmarie, the one who started it
Tiana, the opposite of her name,
and Evie
oh my god I was Pissed
And I'm glad Yer was there
Because they were going on and on
about things I told Annmarie
things she promised not to tell anyone else
and they all knew.
everyone in the 5th grade.
I was the laughingstock
I am not going to repeat what they said
because it is all very personal
but
there was yer next to me
letting me cry on him
oh my god i love him for it
and here's the perks of being friends with the boys
they are loud
and they will protect their friends
no matter what
girls on the other hand
are drama fucking queens
and so there were the girls on one side
and on the other side
were all the boys
some girls even went to the other side to fight the boys
not physical
verbal
oh my god
they were all clumped together
and right there on the playground
and of it I got a few things:
multiple fake friends
trust issues
anxiety
two true friends
Yer and Lyriq,
Yer stuck with me through the entire thing
Lyriq is the only girl who isn't fake
oh and vinnie and matthew
many lies spewed into my face that I believed
a suicidal mindset
so yeah
that's it
I wish it could have had a happier ending
then me being traumatized and crying
but no
because not all stories have happy endings
some might
but there is always something bad that happens
that will stay
so if you get something out of this
I hope that it's that
no, i'm not okay,
no, I can't get over it,
yes, I am broken,
no, I don't know where the pieces are.
no, don't tell me it will get better. It won't.
yes, I would wish this experience on my worst enemy, because she is what caused this.
thank you for reading this long post.i hope you have a nice day.
and yes, I do use rpnation.com to distract, but no, it will not go away.
alternative title: why I am nonbinary
if you read this entire way, I thank you for sticking with me.
I'm very sorry you had to read that. I hope you can recover.
don't mind my writing style
This might be a lot
just bear with me okay?
okay.
so.
uhm
5th grade
I had this friend
her name was Annmarie
She was nice
I guess?
I told her a lot of things
we dated for a week.
yeah
that type of thing.
well.
We became distant.
we didn't talk
She hung out with the other girls
I preferred the boys.
well
heh
She was mean
like this girl was an ass
I hated her.
continuing.
I started hanging out with two other girls. Evie and Kennedy.
WELL
Time skip to the end of the school year.
like the week before
well yearbook day
soo
We were hanging out on the playground
I was talking to Vinny and Matthew.
I think we were playing pokemon?
yeah
yeah we were
soo
Eli, Kennedy's boyfriend
came over
he was like
'Tiana crossed you out of the yearbook'
and I didn't believe him.
so I told him to show me
so at the end of recess
he showed me
and he was right
that bitch
I showed Evie
she was like
'why are you looking at it that's hers'
and so I gave it back to Eli
I told Yer
because he was sitting next to me
He agreed with me
he was my best friend at the time
I wasn't super good friends with Evie
but I told her
about the yearbook thing
idk why
but
the next day
it's about to go down
playground
me and Yer
sitting down
on the plastic barrier thing
it's not very high
and then
Jessie, the bitch of the bitches,
Annmarie, the one who started it
Tiana, the opposite of her name,
and Evie
oh my god I was Pissed
And I'm glad Yer was there
Because they were going on and on
about things I told Annmarie
things she promised not to tell anyone else
and they all knew.
everyone in the 5th grade.
I was the laughingstock
I am not going to repeat what they said
because it is all very personal
but
there was yer next to me
letting me cry on him
oh my god i love him for it
and here's the perks of being friends with the boys
they are loud
and they will protect their friends
no matter what
girls on the other hand
are drama fucking queens
and so there were the girls on one side
and on the other side
were all the boys
some girls even went to the other side to fight the boys
not physical
verbal
oh my god
they were all clumped together
and right there on the playground
and of it I got a few things:
multiple fake friends
trust issues
anxiety
two true friends
Yer and Lyriq,
Yer stuck with me through the entire thing
Lyriq is the only girl who isn't fake
oh and vinnie and matthew
many lies spewed into my face that I believed
a suicidal mindset
so yeah
that's it
I wish it could have had a happier ending
then me being traumatized and crying
but no
because not all stories have happy endings
some might
but there is always something bad that happens
that will stay
so if you get something out of this
I hope that it's that
no, i'm not okay,
no, I can't get over it,
yes, I am broken,
no, I don't know where the pieces are.
no, don't tell me it will get better. It won't.
yes, I would wish this experience on my worst enemy, because she is what caused this.
thank you for reading this long post.i hope you have a nice day.
and yes, I do use rpnation.com to distract, but no, it will not go away.
alternative title: why I am nonbinary
if you read this entire way, I thank you for sticking with me.
I'm very sorry you had to read that. I hope you can recover.
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