BurningBridges
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"Shut the fuck up, Collin!" Cara was laughing as she punched her brother in the arm. She was drunk. There was no way or need to describe it as anything other than being drunk. It wasn't a bad drunk though. Cara definitely had the capability of being a bad drunk. She could be the emotional drunk who sobbed about things that happened 15 years ago, or the angry drunk that attempted to smash the windows in of any cab that honked its horn within a fifty foot vicinity of her. Thankfully for everyone, Cara was just drunk. Happy drunk. Giggly and a sassy, but in a good mood. "If I had ten dollars for every time you were a dumb bitch, I would be a millionaire!" she added, punching him again.
"If you ever finish college, you'll be one without my help." Collin and Cara both had trust funds waiting for them after graduation. Collin didn't know how much they were worth, but he was secretly convinced that Cara's was twice his size since he was sure their dad doubted her ability to survive on her own. He wasn't upset over it, though that was probably partially because he knew how horrible it would be to be upset over the size of a trust fund. Collin was privileged, and because of his upbringing, there were a lot of realities that he would never understand, no matter how down to earth he tried to be. However, he wasn't delusional or materialistic, and while the idea of knowing that you were set for like was obviously comforting, it was somehow playing into the discomfort he had been feeling recently. Everything in his life had always been so planned out and comfortable. His childhood revolved around the same schedule of extra curricular activities, dinner being ready at six o'clock on the dot every day, a scheduled bed time with nannies there to make sure he was in bed and settled, and then the same thing the next day. No one would ever ask for uncertainty in the form of wondering where their next meal would come from, or where they were going to sleep the next night, but part of Collin craved some sort of uncertainty.
He often wondered if he should just disappear. Get on the first flight leaving New York, no matter where it was going, and just figure it out. At the end of the day though, he knew that he didn't have it in him to just go off the rails and snap his credit cards in half and burn whatever cash was on him. If he ran away like that, there wouldn't be the uncertainty that he (possibly ignorantly) craved. It would be an adventure for him, but it would be a vacation. One that always had a safety net below.
At the end of the day though, not everyone was Chris McCandless. Not everyone needed to jump into a completely new life to reinvent themselves. There were infinite ways to reinvent one's self, and any of them would be a good starting point for Collin.
"Shut upppppppppp. Everything with you people is college this, college that. How about, who gives a fuck? Let me live my life in peace." She still wasn't angry, but this time the Uber driver's eyes flickered back towards them through the rear-view mirror at the sound of her fist hitting his arm again. Had Cara caught that, she was definitely belligerent enough to ask him why he wasn't taught to mind his own business as a child, and that if he took his eyes off the road again while there was precious cargo on board, she would be forced to report him to some made up bureau.
"What do you think mom would think of us if she was here?" The question was random, but sincere, as it wasn't meant as a passive insult meant to force Cara to reevaluate how obnoxious she was being. She was definitely being obnoxious, but Collin knew that she wasn't being an ass willfully. They had just finished brunch with some family friends, and any time that Cara seemed to drink with her old friends, they all always ended up way too drunk. In that sense, Collin was jealous of his sister. She had so many friends, even when they were children. She was always popular and people enjoyed being around her. They didn't know the Cara that he knew, of course, but regardless, people enjoyed her company. Even now when she had disconnected from a lot of people that she used to hang out with regularly, she still seemed to have so many people to call when she did want someone to hang out with. Collin had never been friendless, but he certainly struggled more to make good, solid friendships. He was quieter in nature, had been bullied for a period of time as a child, and just didn't desire such a big social circle. He could see how it would be nice, though.
"She would probably hate you for liking the woman who replaced her, but I guess you'll have to wait to ask her that yourself." That was something that Cara would stand by even when she was sober. Not the part about their mom hating Collin, but the part about her hating the woman who replaced her. It was no secret that Cara disliked her stepmother for her own reason, but she truly did think that her father remarrying, even if it was years after her mother's death, was simply disrespectful. It wasn't like he had remarried after a divorce. Their love was supposed to be eternal. That was what love was supposed to be. Cara didn't think that you could have two true loves, and she certainly didn't think that your true love could be thirty years younger than you. Her dad was a whore for remarrying. A disrespectful whore, and her mother deserved better.
Collin could have argued that that wasn't what he meant, and that he was trying to be serious, but he knew his efforts would have been futile. If he was seeking reassurance that his mother wouldn't think he was a complete failure with nothing to show for his life, Cara definitely wasn't the person to turn to when she was sober, nonetheless drunk.
Before long they were climbing up to the fifth floor of their building. By now, Collin was used to the walk-up but admittedly, it had been an adjustment at first given their childhood home. It wasn't a bad place to live by any means, but it didn't compare to what they were used to.
He was about to open his mouth to whisper to Cara that it looked like someone new was moving in, when his sister beat him to it.
"Oh thank god, they're finally kicking those two deadbeats out," she exclaimed, as she noticed a girl and her stuff standing outside of Roman and Nick's apartment with the door open. She could only assume that she was replacing them in their apartment, and though internally she was much more genuinely curious (maybe even a bit concerned), she had no problem putting on a show of approval, especially now that she was drunk. "You're going to want to disinfect every surface in that place," she said to the girl as she passed by. "And make sure you wear gloves. HIV positive needles all over, I'm sure."
"She's joking," Collin added quickly, offering Cara a quick "what the fuck?" look, before glancing back at this new girl. Since Chanel was way too out of his league, maybe this neighbor would be a better chase for him, he supposed. "Do you need help bringing your stuff in? Moving alone sucks," he offered.
"If you ever finish college, you'll be one without my help." Collin and Cara both had trust funds waiting for them after graduation. Collin didn't know how much they were worth, but he was secretly convinced that Cara's was twice his size since he was sure their dad doubted her ability to survive on her own. He wasn't upset over it, though that was probably partially because he knew how horrible it would be to be upset over the size of a trust fund. Collin was privileged, and because of his upbringing, there were a lot of realities that he would never understand, no matter how down to earth he tried to be. However, he wasn't delusional or materialistic, and while the idea of knowing that you were set for like was obviously comforting, it was somehow playing into the discomfort he had been feeling recently. Everything in his life had always been so planned out and comfortable. His childhood revolved around the same schedule of extra curricular activities, dinner being ready at six o'clock on the dot every day, a scheduled bed time with nannies there to make sure he was in bed and settled, and then the same thing the next day. No one would ever ask for uncertainty in the form of wondering where their next meal would come from, or where they were going to sleep the next night, but part of Collin craved some sort of uncertainty.
He often wondered if he should just disappear. Get on the first flight leaving New York, no matter where it was going, and just figure it out. At the end of the day though, he knew that he didn't have it in him to just go off the rails and snap his credit cards in half and burn whatever cash was on him. If he ran away like that, there wouldn't be the uncertainty that he (possibly ignorantly) craved. It would be an adventure for him, but it would be a vacation. One that always had a safety net below.
At the end of the day though, not everyone was Chris McCandless. Not everyone needed to jump into a completely new life to reinvent themselves. There were infinite ways to reinvent one's self, and any of them would be a good starting point for Collin.
"Shut upppppppppp. Everything with you people is college this, college that. How about, who gives a fuck? Let me live my life in peace." She still wasn't angry, but this time the Uber driver's eyes flickered back towards them through the rear-view mirror at the sound of her fist hitting his arm again. Had Cara caught that, she was definitely belligerent enough to ask him why he wasn't taught to mind his own business as a child, and that if he took his eyes off the road again while there was precious cargo on board, she would be forced to report him to some made up bureau.
"What do you think mom would think of us if she was here?" The question was random, but sincere, as it wasn't meant as a passive insult meant to force Cara to reevaluate how obnoxious she was being. She was definitely being obnoxious, but Collin knew that she wasn't being an ass willfully. They had just finished brunch with some family friends, and any time that Cara seemed to drink with her old friends, they all always ended up way too drunk. In that sense, Collin was jealous of his sister. She had so many friends, even when they were children. She was always popular and people enjoyed being around her. They didn't know the Cara that he knew, of course, but regardless, people enjoyed her company. Even now when she had disconnected from a lot of people that she used to hang out with regularly, she still seemed to have so many people to call when she did want someone to hang out with. Collin had never been friendless, but he certainly struggled more to make good, solid friendships. He was quieter in nature, had been bullied for a period of time as a child, and just didn't desire such a big social circle. He could see how it would be nice, though.
"She would probably hate you for liking the woman who replaced her, but I guess you'll have to wait to ask her that yourself." That was something that Cara would stand by even when she was sober. Not the part about their mom hating Collin, but the part about her hating the woman who replaced her. It was no secret that Cara disliked her stepmother for her own reason, but she truly did think that her father remarrying, even if it was years after her mother's death, was simply disrespectful. It wasn't like he had remarried after a divorce. Their love was supposed to be eternal. That was what love was supposed to be. Cara didn't think that you could have two true loves, and she certainly didn't think that your true love could be thirty years younger than you. Her dad was a whore for remarrying. A disrespectful whore, and her mother deserved better.
Collin could have argued that that wasn't what he meant, and that he was trying to be serious, but he knew his efforts would have been futile. If he was seeking reassurance that his mother wouldn't think he was a complete failure with nothing to show for his life, Cara definitely wasn't the person to turn to when she was sober, nonetheless drunk.
Before long they were climbing up to the fifth floor of their building. By now, Collin was used to the walk-up but admittedly, it had been an adjustment at first given their childhood home. It wasn't a bad place to live by any means, but it didn't compare to what they were used to.
He was about to open his mouth to whisper to Cara that it looked like someone new was moving in, when his sister beat him to it.
"Oh thank god, they're finally kicking those two deadbeats out," she exclaimed, as she noticed a girl and her stuff standing outside of Roman and Nick's apartment with the door open. She could only assume that she was replacing them in their apartment, and though internally she was much more genuinely curious (maybe even a bit concerned), she had no problem putting on a show of approval, especially now that she was drunk. "You're going to want to disinfect every surface in that place," she said to the girl as she passed by. "And make sure you wear gloves. HIV positive needles all over, I'm sure."
"She's joking," Collin added quickly, offering Cara a quick "what the fuck?" look, before glancing back at this new girl. Since Chanel was way too out of his league, maybe this neighbor would be a better chase for him, he supposed. "Do you need help bringing your stuff in? Moving alone sucks," he offered.