Lexus
Ten Thousand Club
After that night, I let Bel talk with Isabel at least once a week, I wasn’t going to take her aunt away from her again. She was a child and she didn’t deserve that even if I myself wasn’t ready to face Isabel. The silence from me was enough for her to know I was still hesitant. I was only afraid to let her back in because I didn’t want to face her judgement of the changes I made to myself as a coping mechanism, but mostly because I didn’t want to lose her again. There was no telling what would happen between us now that our lives were completely different. But there was exceptions to every circumstance.
After I brought Isabel back into our daughter’s life and into Lincoln’s, a spark in Jayden return. I noticed he looked at me with a loving sense of hope. He was hoping Amelia, the one he fell in love with was returning. He was beginning to love me again. There was a silent forgiveness between us. In every hug and kiss he brought me into, he was telling me he was glad to see an old part of me being revived. It made him happy. We looked happy to the rest of the world, but there was still so much for me to work through to get to where he wanted me to be. I was still uncertain I could ever be that person again.
I was livid when I saw Amelia prance into Jayden’s office for the first time in years. The smile on her face was genuine, which made me sick, how could she be that happy after everything she unknowingly put her husband through? She didn’t deserve him. Jayden was a Saint for putting up with her for as long as she did.
She hates being called selfish, but she embodies the meaning of the word. She didn’t see the many nights her husband spent in his office when he thought he was alone with his head buried in his hands, in frustration that his wife wasn’t his wife anymore. It ate at Jayden’s core so much I saw the need to intervene after I watched it go on for weeks. At first it was casual conversation, I gave him the chance to vent, but it was through his venting to me that I realized the kind of man he was. He was the kind of man every woman wanted and it irked me the woman that had him was so neglectful of his kindness and love for her. I hoped through our chats, he would develop the same feelings I found myself having for him. I cared for Jayden, so much so I was starting to believe that I did love him. But Amelia ruined it all that day. Walking straight through without even acknowledging me at the front desk, she carried something in a lunch box. When she walked Jayden’s office, he got up right away to greet her and kissed her. The sight made my blood boil because I could tell it was genuine. It wasn’t fair. She didn’t deserve that after everything she put him through. As I watched the two laugh and enjoy the homemade lunch she brought him, my hands clenched the ends of my desk. I saw the way he looked at her, like she was his sun that kept his life going. Every choice he made was for her. I watched as he reached for her hand and held it. I wanted to be his sun and I wanted Amelia to think I was because then maybe he would be mine then.
When I saw the accusations against my husband i finished the bottle of tequila and when he came home to me to try and defend himself I turned away from him in disgust. I knew I wasn’t who he wanted but I thought over the past few weeks we were finally becoming what he wanted us to be. I thought we were becoming what I needed to feel again. Then Gabi, his assistant, who was a blonde bombshell and had ambitions with her life cane out to the public and told the world about her and Jayden’s affair. I couldn’t handle it. In a moment of weakness, I texted Isabel and told her that I needed her. I wasn’t sure what I was thinking. In actuality, I wasn’t when I did it but I didn’t regret it either. I was hurt because I really thought Jayden was the last person who wouldn’t hurt me with his betrayal but as always, I was wrong.
Looking to my husband with blurry tears eyes I thought of all I could say. “If you didn’t want me all you had to do was tell me.”
After I brought Isabel back into our daughter’s life and into Lincoln’s, a spark in Jayden return. I noticed he looked at me with a loving sense of hope. He was hoping Amelia, the one he fell in love with was returning. He was beginning to love me again. There was a silent forgiveness between us. In every hug and kiss he brought me into, he was telling me he was glad to see an old part of me being revived. It made him happy. We looked happy to the rest of the world, but there was still so much for me to work through to get to where he wanted me to be. I was still uncertain I could ever be that person again.
I was livid when I saw Amelia prance into Jayden’s office for the first time in years. The smile on her face was genuine, which made me sick, how could she be that happy after everything she unknowingly put her husband through? She didn’t deserve him. Jayden was a Saint for putting up with her for as long as she did.
She hates being called selfish, but she embodies the meaning of the word. She didn’t see the many nights her husband spent in his office when he thought he was alone with his head buried in his hands, in frustration that his wife wasn’t his wife anymore. It ate at Jayden’s core so much I saw the need to intervene after I watched it go on for weeks. At first it was casual conversation, I gave him the chance to vent, but it was through his venting to me that I realized the kind of man he was. He was the kind of man every woman wanted and it irked me the woman that had him was so neglectful of his kindness and love for her. I hoped through our chats, he would develop the same feelings I found myself having for him. I cared for Jayden, so much so I was starting to believe that I did love him. But Amelia ruined it all that day. Walking straight through without even acknowledging me at the front desk, she carried something in a lunch box. When she walked Jayden’s office, he got up right away to greet her and kissed her. The sight made my blood boil because I could tell it was genuine. It wasn’t fair. She didn’t deserve that after everything she put him through. As I watched the two laugh and enjoy the homemade lunch she brought him, my hands clenched the ends of my desk. I saw the way he looked at her, like she was his sun that kept his life going. Every choice he made was for her. I watched as he reached for her hand and held it. I wanted to be his sun and I wanted Amelia to think I was because then maybe he would be mine then.
When I saw the accusations against my husband i finished the bottle of tequila and when he came home to me to try and defend himself I turned away from him in disgust. I knew I wasn’t who he wanted but I thought over the past few weeks we were finally becoming what he wanted us to be. I thought we were becoming what I needed to feel again. Then Gabi, his assistant, who was a blonde bombshell and had ambitions with her life cane out to the public and told the world about her and Jayden’s affair. I couldn’t handle it. In a moment of weakness, I texted Isabel and told her that I needed her. I wasn’t sure what I was thinking. In actuality, I wasn’t when I did it but I didn’t regret it either. I was hurt because I really thought Jayden was the last person who wouldn’t hurt me with his betrayal but as always, I was wrong.
Looking to my husband with blurry tears eyes I thought of all I could say. “If you didn’t want me all you had to do was tell me.”