desti
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“You do not have the right to talk to me about being a good father. You took that chance away from me a long time ago Katlyn.”
Something wasn’t quite right there. Katlyn had taken that chance away from him? It almost confused her in a way that he thought this was her doing. It was him and him alone that had ruined everything.
"Oh, so it's my fault?" Katlyn raised her brows.
“We could have had a big family, but someone stood in the way for that to happen.”
“Yes. You.”
Trevas chuckled, “yes of course. It is always my fault isn’t it Katlyn? I’m so easy to blame, but I can’t recall sneaking behind your back to secure the fact that you would never be with child again.”
It was a shame that he hadn’t found out from Katlyn herself. She would’ve liked to see the reaction he had when he first heard of it. The guilt she once felt her actions was long gone now, and Katlyn hoped that it hurt Trevas. She couldn’t hurt him with her hands, so this was the best she could do.
The Maester must’ve told Trevas. Katlyn had begged him not to utter a single word to Trevas about it when this all started, and he had kept his word for many years. She should’ve known that one day he would break that promise, but Katlyn had thought the man would die before it’d happen. That thought only strengthened after he was one of the three people that knew about Timos’ death, Trevas would end his life eventually. Katlyn hadn’t thought that hers would end before his though.
Perhaps it was better that Trevas found out like this, though. Now he couldn’t beat her up horrendously or whatever the anger would make him do. The knowledge that Katlyn was headed to the executioner’s block anyways might keep him from doing that.
"The Grand Maester really is bad at keeping secrets, it's best you take care of him before he tells someone yours. Do tell, did you stay to listen to the whole story or did you leave the second that old fuck said all you cared to hear?" Katlyn asked after a short pause.
“Why would I have to listen to the whole story? There is no point. You’re getting what you deserve. I couldn’t care less about why you did it, but don’t you dare to blame me again for something you did. You took what I wanted for us away from me.”
Trevas’ hand moved to pin her shoulder against the wall behind her. Katlyn was trapped between him and the wall, and perhaps that should’ve frightened her but it didn’t. There was just a sudden sadness coming over her out of nowhere. Katlyn felt that sadness turn into something else inside of her as she watched Trevas in front of her.
“I took it away from you? Trevas, I wanted more children as well. I wanted us to have a big family,” Katlyn frowned as the words made her grow more frustrated.
"You clearly didn't Katlyn."
Of course, that would seem to be so to him since Trevas hadn’t bothered to hear everything. Katlyn almost wanted to laugh about how narrow his mind was. He only saw what she had done to him, and Trevas plainly ignored her reasons for doing so. How could she ever love a man like that was still a mystery to her.
“I did. Gods, Trevas, I wanted to give you more beautiful daughters and strong sons that we could love and care for. I wanted that for us. I thought that we would have that.”
Katlyn remembered how hard it had been for her to give life to their daughters. She remembered the agonizing pain and how weak she had felt afterwards. But seeing Trevas with the girls had made her so happy, even through the labour her body had had to go through. She had wanted to give him more children, no matter how tiring it was for her body. She had wanted to, but she just need a little break…
So many days she had prayed to the Mother and any other God to give her the strength she needed. More often than anything else, Katlyn dreamt about giving Trevas a son. She knew how much he wanted that, and Katlyn yearned to fulfill that wish. In her dreams, their son had always been so kind and handsome, and strong and brave. Just like a good King should be. Yet those dreams never became a reality, which hurt deeply.
"We would have had that had you not gone behind my back and betrayed me."
“We would’ve had that had you not changed, Trevas. I needed time to heal, and you didn’t care. Ashara nearly killed me, I couldn’t have possibly brought another child into this world. You saw how weak I was after that... Gods, Trevas, if you would’ve just waited and been patient... “ Katlyn said, and the anger must’ve been clear in her voice, “I never wanted to take it for so long. I never wanted to hurt you like this. I just needed to heal, but you didn’t let me. You changed, Trevas, and that changed me as well.”
Katlyn didn’t deny her fault in this. They had both been foolish and dumb, and that had cost them everything. If they would’ve communicated with each other better, then perhaps this wouldn’t have happened. Still, Katlyn blamed Trevas most of all for this. If he had only been more gentle towards her, she wouldn’t have started to dislike him then. She would’ve never taken the moon tea to spite him, yet Trevas had made her do that, and that had ruined them.
Something wasn’t quite right there. Katlyn had taken that chance away from him? It almost confused her in a way that he thought this was her doing. It was him and him alone that had ruined everything.
"Oh, so it's my fault?" Katlyn raised her brows.
“We could have had a big family, but someone stood in the way for that to happen.”
“Yes. You.”
Trevas chuckled, “yes of course. It is always my fault isn’t it Katlyn? I’m so easy to blame, but I can’t recall sneaking behind your back to secure the fact that you would never be with child again.”
It was a shame that he hadn’t found out from Katlyn herself. She would’ve liked to see the reaction he had when he first heard of it. The guilt she once felt her actions was long gone now, and Katlyn hoped that it hurt Trevas. She couldn’t hurt him with her hands, so this was the best she could do.
The Maester must’ve told Trevas. Katlyn had begged him not to utter a single word to Trevas about it when this all started, and he had kept his word for many years. She should’ve known that one day he would break that promise, but Katlyn had thought the man would die before it’d happen. That thought only strengthened after he was one of the three people that knew about Timos’ death, Trevas would end his life eventually. Katlyn hadn’t thought that hers would end before his though.
Perhaps it was better that Trevas found out like this, though. Now he couldn’t beat her up horrendously or whatever the anger would make him do. The knowledge that Katlyn was headed to the executioner’s block anyways might keep him from doing that.
"The Grand Maester really is bad at keeping secrets, it's best you take care of him before he tells someone yours. Do tell, did you stay to listen to the whole story or did you leave the second that old fuck said all you cared to hear?" Katlyn asked after a short pause.
“Why would I have to listen to the whole story? There is no point. You’re getting what you deserve. I couldn’t care less about why you did it, but don’t you dare to blame me again for something you did. You took what I wanted for us away from me.”
Trevas’ hand moved to pin her shoulder against the wall behind her. Katlyn was trapped between him and the wall, and perhaps that should’ve frightened her but it didn’t. There was just a sudden sadness coming over her out of nowhere. Katlyn felt that sadness turn into something else inside of her as she watched Trevas in front of her.
“I took it away from you? Trevas, I wanted more children as well. I wanted us to have a big family,” Katlyn frowned as the words made her grow more frustrated.
"You clearly didn't Katlyn."
Of course, that would seem to be so to him since Trevas hadn’t bothered to hear everything. Katlyn almost wanted to laugh about how narrow his mind was. He only saw what she had done to him, and Trevas plainly ignored her reasons for doing so. How could she ever love a man like that was still a mystery to her.
“I did. Gods, Trevas, I wanted to give you more beautiful daughters and strong sons that we could love and care for. I wanted that for us. I thought that we would have that.”
Katlyn remembered how hard it had been for her to give life to their daughters. She remembered the agonizing pain and how weak she had felt afterwards. But seeing Trevas with the girls had made her so happy, even through the labour her body had had to go through. She had wanted to give him more children, no matter how tiring it was for her body. She had wanted to, but she just need a little break…
So many days she had prayed to the Mother and any other God to give her the strength she needed. More often than anything else, Katlyn dreamt about giving Trevas a son. She knew how much he wanted that, and Katlyn yearned to fulfill that wish. In her dreams, their son had always been so kind and handsome, and strong and brave. Just like a good King should be. Yet those dreams never became a reality, which hurt deeply.
"We would have had that had you not gone behind my back and betrayed me."
“We would’ve had that had you not changed, Trevas. I needed time to heal, and you didn’t care. Ashara nearly killed me, I couldn’t have possibly brought another child into this world. You saw how weak I was after that... Gods, Trevas, if you would’ve just waited and been patient... “ Katlyn said, and the anger must’ve been clear in her voice, “I never wanted to take it for so long. I never wanted to hurt you like this. I just needed to heal, but you didn’t let me. You changed, Trevas, and that changed me as well.”
Katlyn didn’t deny her fault in this. They had both been foolish and dumb, and that had cost them everything. If they would’ve communicated with each other better, then perhaps this wouldn’t have happened. Still, Katlyn blamed Trevas most of all for this. If he had only been more gentle towards her, she wouldn’t have started to dislike him then. She would’ve never taken the moon tea to spite him, yet Trevas had made her do that, and that had ruined them.