Every day, I am haunted
Memories filter through the smoke screen of daily life
Every night, it continues
But at night there is a comfort
She is disguised in a shroud
Woven of horrors unseen
She is skeletal and terrifying
All that, but not to me
She is beautiful
She is the only comfort that...
There was one who died for power
One who died for love
One who greeted death as an old friend
And this morbid fascination with death and all its enchantments
This terrible wonder of how everyone ends but leaves something behind
A skeleton that once held flesh and soft organs
A body that still...
I meet your eyes and I wonder
"What could you see in me?"
I meet your gaze and I ponder
"What could you like about me?"
I'm not skinny, nor sculpted
I'm not tan, nor pleasantly pale
I don't have pretty blue eyes
I'm not all that attractive
So I wonder
I wonder what you could ever see in me
I...
I find I lack the energy to cry
I find I lack the energy to tell myself any more lies
I find I lack the faith and will to hope for a better day
I only find the energy to tell my loved ones: "I'm okay"
I'm just so tired
So tired of everything
So tired of feeling so empty and lost
So tired of...
I have watched the person in the mirror
They are angry
They are old
And they are tired beyond all imagination
They are ignored
They are anxious
And they just want relief
They put on a mask to hide what they believe
They put up barriers to keep people from worrying
They do not love anything, for...
3. Holding On To You
Day XX, Month XX, Year 20XX
My name is Morris Esther Willoughby. And I have no idea what I’m doing. And this diary- err- journal is all I have left. Currently, I am taking stock of my supplies. I have a first aid kit, three cans of peaches, one can of baked beans, and two...
2. Photograph
Spencer knew it would happen some day. There would be a day when Oliver went too far, when there was an adventure he couldn’t come back from. And she never suspected anything. She never suspected that he was depressed, that he needed help. He seemed so happy, so alive and she...
(some of these may or may not be connected or finished so-)
1. Mister Glassman
Chris wishes that things hurt. He wishes that he could feel the scrapes on his hands and the cuts on his shins. He knows that they're there, but that's all he knows. He doesn't know if the pain is sharp or dull. If...
I don’t believe these words will properly express the feelings I carry in my heart for you
I don’t believe any words could ever tell you how much you mean to me
How much it upsets me that you make yourself feel worthless, when you are one of the few people worthy of knowing my real self
How much...
“To live and love and die at once, that’s the human goal.”
Such brave words for someone who was still so naïve. Still so trusting.
Such bold words for the child who was scared to face their cousin, scared to face the person who had loved them and yet hurt them.
Such deep words for the child who...
“Hey Princess.”
It was a smile of bloody teeth and cut lips, the wave of a bloodied hand and a wince of pain. It’s okay, I’ve been through worse, I’m fine it’sfineit’sfineit’sfine-
“Hey, okay, try not to move too much.” Analise knelt down next to him, peeling off her jacket hastily. “Here...
If you’re bleeding out in the parking lot Colton Elise Warren, I will kill you. Analise silently promised to herself, stuffing her phone in her purse. He never left her on “Read”, much less “Seen”. He was too polite for that, despite his bad boy aesthetic. He was too polite. He had to be in...
I am without a tether
A kite in stormy weather
Caught in this breeze
Brought to my knees
And I need a purpose
To know I’m not worthless
To know that I’m worth it
To know I deserve it
I need someone to say
“It’s alright, you’re okay”
Someone who won’t lie
Someone who will try
Someone whose...
(Told from the POV of my OC, Killian. TW for mentions of abuse, cheating, self-harm, suicidal thoughts)
Let me be honest
Because I’ve never been that way
Let me be honest
Let me have the final say
Because no one had ever let me speak up
No one has never let me up from the floor
No one dared...
(TW, once again, for possible triggering content)
Today has not been great
Today hasn’t even been good
Today’s been awful
Terrible, even
And I don’t know what to do
The person I thought I could trust
The person I thought would listen
Didn’t care when I started to explain my depression
He...
I wish I could captivate them
The way you can
Perhaps I’m not meant for storytelling
I wish I could inspire them
The way you can
But I know I’m not meant to be a leader
I wish I could love and accept
The way you can
But my heart has been broken too much
So thank you
For making such beautiful...
Day ##, Month ##, Year 20##
I discovered a word
“Like”
It is a word for things that bring you joy
So here is what I like:
I like peanut butter sandwiches
It’s the first food I’ve eaten in a long time, the first food without a face
I like this sweater
It’s soft and smells like cinnamon, I...
TW for (possible triggering content????)
Can you just leave me be?
Please leave me alone
I just want to go home
I just want to go home
Stop being so clingy
Stop calling me that name
Stop saying these things about me
Why can’t I exist?
Stop pushing your opinions on me
I don’t have to agree with...