Necessity4Fun

Necessity4Fun · Jan 31, 2018

Coding works just like drawing...

...Getting the idea out of your head and into reality with nearly flawless execution is hard as heck!!! ^^'

welian · Jan 30, 2018

You should apply to be a Helper! I think you'd look good in teal.

Necessity4Fun · Jan 30, 2018

It's been forever since I messed with divs, lol ^^'

Time to remember pretty much everything! Yay! \o/

Necessity4Fun · Jan 30, 2018

To write or to code? C'est la question~

Revna Eris · Jan 30, 2018

Hey! Thanks for the follow. And all those ratings :3

Necessity4Fun · Jan 30, 2018

Ahahahaha... I keep stalking the BBCode game thread and I keep having ideas, I just, never find the courage to do theeeem.... OTL

It's.so.simple. Why is something like *that* messing with my anxiety, really now... >.<

RandomBlobMan · Jan 30, 2018

Necessity4Fun · Jan 30, 2018

The problem with being at my parents' for the vacations (well, excluding all of the *other tier* problems) is that this 'chores first, fun later' system is not taking in consideration one's drive to write!

By the time I'm done with the task, *poof!* my muse has vanished completely!!! >~<
And it takes quite a while to call it back... ^^'

Necessity4Fun · Jan 29, 2018

Okay! New day, I'm feeling better and hopefully can get things done =^-^=

...I would love to get things done ^^'

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

Anyway, goodnight...
I'm sleeping again. Today was nothing but hurtful, bleak and pointless ?
I shouldn't have gotten up at all *sigh*

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

What good is therapy for, if everytime I come back here my family will just destroy all of my progress?! >o<

I just wanna hide where none of them can find me and cry QAQ

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

And now suddenly it's "I love you"...

So, after you make me doubt my worth, throw me a step back into self-hate and put me on verge of crying...
I'm just supposed to take it in?!

Argh! I'm so angry but can't say a word about it either ?

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

"It's actually way late. You know there's an age where one should provide for the family..."
Are you serious?! Are you blind?! You don't even care what state your words put me in, do you *dad*?

Thanks for telling me how useless you think I am, I totally didn't struggle with depression all day and was finally opening up and in a good mood.

And then you ask me why we don't really talk... Unbelievable : V

welian · Jan 28, 2018

If I throw cookies at you will you stop being depressed?

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

Someone change my batteries, I think they're dead. Can't feel anything.

Why are weekends always like that?

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

I keep getting told to go to the kitchen and get something to eat but I just, can't.

I'm just going to ruin whatever good mood others are at, I'd rather not interact with people and wait until they're done. *sighs*

Not to mention, I'm going to get a hundred questions the time I walk in there... And I just can't be honest, no one will understand.

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

I'm having an odd aversive reaction to noise... it's just, I know there's people in the kitchen, interacting, being slightly loud and I just feel like avoiding it for as long as I can.

I'm still in bed, hoping that the noise will stay away from me. As long as no one comes here, the bedroom is safe and noise free.
I don't want people to talk, I don't want total silence either. I don't really know what I want.

Necessity4Fun · Jan 28, 2018

I don't want to be up, I don't want to do things...
But, at the same time I do...

Just not the things I will have to do before I can accomplish to do what I actually *want* to do, meh >~<

Shinobu the vampire-puppy · Jan 27, 2018

Thank you for following me! Woof!

Necessity4Fun · Jan 26, 2018

I have a headache, I'm going to bed
I wanted to write but ehh, energy is gone >~<

Necessity4Fun · Jan 26, 2018

Not thrilled with this vivid dream trend that's going on with me. Not thrilled at all... ?
Why did today's included people falling off a bus and why does it feel like it's part of a movie trailer when it's clearly not real? And why am I in shock after that?

...I, I don't understand... ?