I think we need an extra hand. Silent is busy with her maps, I'm busy with work and books, and you're readily too busy to read books to get an understanding of the genre. At this rate, we'll turn into pale squalor!
Guys, I've been gone for about two weeks. I might be gone again so I'm taking a peek into this site to check things out. So why haven't I spent time here? Why did I disappear? It's because I feel like I have to spend more time with other things in my life.
I've got some things to fix in my life. Some things to explore. I've been ignoring a lot of important things in my life and I want to fix that. Maybe I won't be able to fix it though I sure as hell have to try. In the meantime, I've got to take some time off for a while. I'm pretty sure that I'll be back here because I love this place.
Even though I don't really post regularly in my roleplays, I routinely check the roleplays I'm in. And once in a while I would remember all the fun I had in my roleplays. All the work I put into my posts to make sure it was good. The embarrassment I would feel when I felt that my work wasn't really that good enough. Those frustrations that would build up when I couldn't think of anything to write.
I've always found it hard to wrap my head around those cursed equations. I struggle to grasp the answers which seem so far yet so near, but when the test is handed back to me I would discover the futility of my efforts in spite of the hardships that I have worked to overcome. I would pray to god, it matters not if the deity in question is Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, or any damn religion. I would pray to them all not only for spiritual salvation but also to save me from the humiliation of failing a math exam.
If these gods have the power to inspire men to spread their gospels all over the globe, brave through nightmarish persecutions, and sacrifice their entire lives in their name, then surely something as unholy as a math exam does not stand a chance against the might of the gods. Through them, men have achieved the greatest human miracles to ever occur on Earth, they did not need magic, witchcraft, and voodoo to do their dirty work, they only needed their faith and that faith is the true substance that creates miracles.
(Damn, that was pretty good. Faith is the true substance that creates miracles.)
Will the gods shield me from the abysmal horrors of mathematics? No, I as a man must not ask favors from the gods, and instead of seeing this math exam as a insurmountable obstacle I should view it as a challenge given to me by the gods. Every torment on this Earth prepares me for the spiritual life ahead of me as a soldier must suffer the rigors of training in order to face the challenges of a military life.
Maybe I should not ask for miracles, but instead I shall be that miracle. I should not only have faith in the gods but I should also have faith in myself so that I may create a miracle for the gods and myself to see. That I may become a wonder for both the mortal and divine.
And so concludes this little speech of mine, and I renewed my confidence in myself. The math exam will be held tomorrow and I know not what terrors I may face, but in the meantime I am obliged to study...
Must... resist... internet... the power is too... strong... aghhh......
Damn it. Well, you guys get the point. Math is hard and I'm suddenly turning to religion all of a sudden because of it.
Guys, it looks like I've got a load of assignments to deal with, and that's followed by a punishing wave of exams that will contribute much to my suffering. I won't be able to deal with the 1x1 roleplays that I've set up for now, but when everything simmers down that's when I'll hop back right in to the roleplays. Right now, I'm tempted to swoop right in so I can type up a post but it'll gobble up precious time that I'll use for my work.